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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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Now i feel beokenself, just what is the point to keep going like that? This is only torture and the only way out is suicide. There is no other choice, torture or death. I’m not taking this shit anymore for 10 months or forever, i don’t hurt any body i was a good person and i don’t deserve this torture shit.
 
My ears are exploding because of tinnitus, mi head is exploding, i cannot take refugee in sleep because i lost the ability to fall asleep, mi consciusness is blunted like I’m forever heavyli high but without pleasure, i cannot feel nicotine or caffeine, just wtf is this Ya Allah take me with you at this point
 
Having withdrawal symptoms anyone else relate

Haven’t slept in 2 months cause I stopped injection and don’t take it oral anymore

And blocked nose still about

I came off the injections and haven’t slept since, feels very odd.

Makes me feel like this is some scam to make me come back to these doctors to keep getting their kosh that’ll kill us

What to do any help or advice please
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
2 injections of Risperdal Consta 50mg.

My sympthoms:

Sleep
• Superficial, non-restorative sleep, with continuous awakenings.
• Impossible to sleep past 6AM.
• Unable to fall asleep during the day.
• Pronounced dark circles, clear evidence of sleep deficit.

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Cognition
• Memory problems.
• Problem-solving difficulties.
• Concentration problems.
• Trouble completing one or more tasks without forgetting.

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Perception
• Altered integration/perception of time (biological clock)
• Normal state of consciousness altered (sensation of being “high”/“feverish and dazed”).
• Absence of emotions.
• Blunted perception compared to normal.

(Diagram: before risperdal → balanced perception of past, present, future; after risperdal → narrowed perception, reduced presence in the present.)

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Sexuality
• Loss of sexual desire, drastic drop in libido.
• Almost complete absence of erections (flaccid, nearly nonexistent).
• Almost complete absence of orgasms (very rare, incomplete).

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Physical sensations
• Very frequent headaches.
• Strange sensations in the head.
• Muscular tension/rigidity.
• Total loss of appetite, partial hunger.
• No response to stimuli such as nicotine/caffeine.
• Cannot feel tiredness

13 months update: Tinnitus very loud came out of nowhere in the right ear, now is extended on the two ear, center, sometimes is only in the left, sometimes is only in the right, sometimes is both, sometimes is center-like, but is always here
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I want to cry reading this

I have had non restorative sleep now for 3 months after coming off this drug

I guess this is a fight we have to see what happens

This ain’t normal

They’ve got me walking around as a zombie
 
brokenself said:
It's amazing my life is just trying to sleep all day, until I can't and then I'm just stuck getting shit sleep, scrolling through Netflix. At this point I've already watched everything I could have any interest in for TV shows, go on my laptop look at Sanctioned Suicide, go on here where people think a supplement is going to be a game changer, when that's not how the brain works at all. Eating shitty McDonalds cause I can't stand eating anything else again, food still doesn't taste the same, then trying to sleep more only to do it again, getting this injection is a slow death sentence and living like this is just insanity.
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Yep slow death sentence,
Dude are we all being for real
Like we’ve all got insomnia and can’t sleep?
I feel like a vegetable

It will get better guys
 
brokenself said:
me too everything is my life is destroyed, myself, my relationship with my parents and I have to watch everything get worse. It's not like I can even get through the day easy since I don't want to do anything since it blocks anything feeling pleasurable/enjoyable. I can't sleep cause it destroys the sleep-wake cycle so I'm just stuck in this constant state of not being able to do anything and never feeling tired to sleep.
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Same you took this drug as well?
And you still can’t sleep? I’ve been 3 months without sleep. What about you?
What you wrote I’m going through

I can suggest praying 5 times a day nothing else is working for us.
 
flystr8 said:
Same you took this drug as well?
And you still can’t sleep? I’ve been 3 months without sleep. What about you?
What you wrote I’m going through

I can suggest praying 5 times a day nothing else is working for us.
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Brokenself killed himself on Saturday. He told me he took SN and then logged off I haven’t heard from him since
 
rawbanana said:
Brokenself killed himself on Saturday. He told me he took SN and then logged off I haven’t heard from him since
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What’s that are you serious… god man this is horrid

Bro am I supposed to taper these drugs I got invega paliperdione in tablets and I haven’t taken any for 3 months and I haven’t slept since bro Idk what to do
 
flystr8 said:
What’s that are you serious… god man this is horrid

Bro am I supposed to taper these drugs I got invega paliperdione in tablets and I haven’t taken any for 3 months and I haven’t slept since bro Idk what to do
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No it self tapers. I am dealing with the same complicated withdrawal symptoms. It will last for months. Sorry you have to go through this.
 
rawbanana said:
No it self tapers. I am dealing with the same complicated withdrawal symptoms. It will last for months. Sorry you have to go through this.
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Bro I may kms at this point it’s like a never ending urge to stay awake I can’t fucking sleep and get restorative sleep wtf is this bro,

Is there anything we can do about this
 
flystr8 said:
Bro I may kms at this point it’s like a never ending urge to stay awake I can’t fucking sleep and get restorative sleep wtf is this bro,

Is there anything we can do about this
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I empathize with you. I wish there was something we could do.
 
suiciding over invega is madness. You seriously would rather not exist forever and destroy your loved ones then endure pain for few years and then be back to normal? Crazy. Look at people who are in terrible situations like the people of Gaza and compare your life to theirs.
 
Abilify2mg said:
suiciding over invega is madness. You seriously would rather not exist forever and destroy your loved ones then endure pain for few years and then be back to normal? Crazy. Look at people who are in terrible situations like the people of Gaza and compare your life to theirs.
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My family is telling to me that i’am a “psychiatric ill” and that Risperidone don’t have nothing linked to the sympthoms i have.

Like think you have to endure all this torture and even your family doubt about you and think you are mental ill, let alone all the doctors.

I don’t blame no-one for suicide themself because they are literally pushing us to do that instead of helping and comforting us, give us hope..
 
If I recover from that shit, I will fully cut ties with my family for sure, then I know that all these doctors are just monkey because they show me how all their years of study are worth.

Like you did 15 years of study for what? You cannot even help someone that had a receptor blockade bro like wtf you mean and you are a doctor and get 10’000$ paycheck?
 
I have been discharged from my CTO. I need to stay on injections tho as I have a situation with the police. Still happy i’m off it. 9 injections of abilify so far. Next injection is 300mg. May see improvements with a lower dose. Had my last injection at 400mg today. I may be court ordered in the future, but will have to wait and see.
 
Abilify2mg said:
suiciding over invega is madness. You seriously would rather not exist forever and destroy your loved ones then endure pain for few years and then be back to normal? Crazy. Look at people who are in terrible situations like the people of Gaza and compare your life to theirs.
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You want to know a fun fact? I told these monkey in the psych ward that I had panic attack also because all the evil thing i was watching on tiktok about Gaza, like The Israeli Army targeting civilians and hospital, health care personell, shooting KIDS in the head etc.. I just say that I was witnessing a genogide in live.

And because of that I devloped panic attacks and they tought I was hallucinating and maybe for that they give me risperidone injection.

I was here defending Gaza and palestine since the 8th of October 2023, and I got antipsychotic injection because of that. Because i just say “there is a genocide, israel is committing war crimes and ethnicl cleansing”.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
You want to know a fun fact? I told these monkey in the psych ward that I had panic attack also because all the evil thing i was watching on tiktok about Gaza, like The Israeli Army targeting civilians and hospital, health care personell, shooting KIDS in the head etc.. I just say that I was witnessing a genogide in live.

And because of that I devloped panic attacks and they tought I was hallucinating and maybe for that they give me risperidone injection.

I was here defending Gaza and palestine since the 8th of October 2023, and I got antipsychotic injection because of that. Because i just say “there is a genocide, israel is committing war crimes and ethnicl cleansing”.
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Like one day my TikTok was sexy girls, music, meme thing that made me laugh so bad and gaming content, then one day i just wake up and my tiktok fyp became carpet bombing, shooting over civilians, people blow in pieces, blood and death everywhere, i just got shock and since I’m human (or at least i was human) i just cared for them and started to follw the geopolitics on the middle east.
 
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