MysticGoatman
Greenlighter
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Howdy from West Coast USSA. Been habitual user after motorcycle accident put me out on disability for 3+ months, my ending amicably a 10+ year relationship, and about a year after the accident my Father pass on from his 2nd heart attack, we were very close and I couldn't conceive the strength of this connection and how it affected me. Recreational substance use has been a feature of my life since I started w LSD at 18 and a long love affair with psychedelics. I have a sequence of events and just seeing if it has any echos of familiarity with others. When I was 22 or so extasy and MDMA popped up on my scene and were only found at parties which was tragic for me. Probably around the 15th to the 20th time using I found that it drastically changed for me and I did find the value for the money anymore and the occasional testing of the waters every 3 years or so show no change or no reversal back to the first. Those were filled with an astounding increase in libido (baseline is high drive so kinda redundant but the euphoria was there also) The transformation make it so I feel great, talkative, touchy feely, inc empathy but a lack of increased libido and marked change in the euphoria to one of great contentment. Might be great on paper but the toll is too high in money and the come down, and without the effects I loved there is no reason for me using it.
Side note I don't care for the high from coke unless it's very pure where encephalation produces no sniffles and irritation to the sinuses but then it is just a hyper sociable change w low grade 2nd that could make some part of sex better but I hate 30-40 minute yoyo effect.
So my introduction and reasons I had been using was to be able to hangout with people who did get a lot of enjoyment from meth and they would feel awkward to be using around me as the stigma is huge. Again my experience is that I don't get the kind of libido changes except increased hyper fixation on porn (if I am not playing with the others), wakefulness and Tina Dick that is so extreme no pill can conquer it as my mind literally can't stay focused on the task at hand and I will be thinking about the most random things like that power out over there is it fused with a circuit breaker? Until I sorted out the dosage I was very hateful towards meth for embarrassing me and ruining my enjoyment.
Anyone personally have a similar experience or know of others that report similar? I think it should be in the realm of the possible as certain people respond differently to substances (not even considering allergic reaction as that's a very specific pathway physiologically), changes to neurology happen but I don't know enough about the brain chemistry to say that X/MDMA (knowingly mixing the terms because there is no way to tell at this point what was in the stuff I took way back so this is intentional not ignorance), meth and cocaine share enough of the mechanisms to have a reaction change in one substance be echoed in the others. That's all for now, got some lovely dermatological issues (seboraic dermatitis here) and I forgot to mention neurodivergent dyslexic here diagnosed in 4th grade at a time when this stuff was just becoming more publicized and I give great thanks to the opthalmologist who by sheer luck just happened to be reading up on dyslexia and made the diagnosis changing my understanding that I was not "stupid" but different that required a different approach to learning taking me from the risk of being held back to performing on par with my peers to reading at above a college level at the end of 2 years from the diagnosis.
Side note I don't care for the high from coke unless it's very pure where encephalation produces no sniffles and irritation to the sinuses but then it is just a hyper sociable change w low grade 2nd that could make some part of sex better but I hate 30-40 minute yoyo effect.
So my introduction and reasons I had been using was to be able to hangout with people who did get a lot of enjoyment from meth and they would feel awkward to be using around me as the stigma is huge. Again my experience is that I don't get the kind of libido changes except increased hyper fixation on porn (if I am not playing with the others), wakefulness and Tina Dick that is so extreme no pill can conquer it as my mind literally can't stay focused on the task at hand and I will be thinking about the most random things like that power out over there is it fused with a circuit breaker? Until I sorted out the dosage I was very hateful towards meth for embarrassing me and ruining my enjoyment.
Anyone personally have a similar experience or know of others that report similar? I think it should be in the realm of the possible as certain people respond differently to substances (not even considering allergic reaction as that's a very specific pathway physiologically), changes to neurology happen but I don't know enough about the brain chemistry to say that X/MDMA (knowingly mixing the terms because there is no way to tell at this point what was in the stuff I took way back so this is intentional not ignorance), meth and cocaine share enough of the mechanisms to have a reaction change in one substance be echoed in the others. That's all for now, got some lovely dermatological issues (seboraic dermatitis here) and I forgot to mention neurodivergent dyslexic here diagnosed in 4th grade at a time when this stuff was just becoming more publicized and I give great thanks to the opthalmologist who by sheer luck just happened to be reading up on dyslexia and made the diagnosis changing my understanding that I was not "stupid" but different that required a different approach to learning taking me from the risk of being held back to performing on par with my peers to reading at above a college level at the end of 2 years from the diagnosis.
