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I am a druggie and nobody knows!

ashman918 said:
Like the title says, I am a druggie and no one knows. I am a functioning addict, I pay my bills, I take care of my family, and do everything I can to be a productive member to society.

I hate being sober! It sucks! When I am sober, I realize how much I hate life! The drugs make me feel alive. They make me have emotions. Why would I stop using shit if it seems to help? I know its wrong, I know the consequences if I keep using.....

I don't even know why I am on Bluelight...... I guess I am looking to meet people with similar experiences, maybe I am looking for validation? I really don't know... am I wrong for living my life like this?

My drugs of choice are Meth, MDMA, and weed. I smoke it. I don't shoot it anymore but have in the past.
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Totally relate man I was in year long program and all the time all I wanted was drugs. I too was so depressed I would start to cry being that sad mostly for no reason. When I relapsed it wasn't just about the high it gave me a reason to live. Hit me up if you ever wanna bullshit.
 
My drug use nowadays consists mainly of prescriptions for BP, prostrate gland and sleep meds. Obviously I don’t get high from these so all I have are memories of when I was high. It makes sense to me that after longterm use of psychedelics as far back as when I was in my 20s my mind developed a sense of psychedelia that lives on in my mind and consciousness.
I’ve tried tripping several times in the last few months to no avail except for the possibility of treating my mental illness to the point of no longer needing antidepressants.
I went 3 weeks without an antipsychotic but two days ago an incident arrived that convinced me to resume taking it.

My point is I love drugs, my experience from drug use made me who I am today. People who use drugs are in a class of people all to their own because we think differently. What better way to vacation than from within yourself. Your adventure awaits, this is the plight of the user for at some point you don’t need substances to experience what you know from experience.
 
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You seem to be doing absolutely incredible now. An amazing @M!$TER-ED !!

Have patience and stay well.

You are doing an astounding job and a great journey.

Thank you for your insight always.

And yes, it was great for us to be a part of this. 🌻<3

Nice post.

M!$TER-ED said:
My drug use nowadays consists mainly of prescriptions for BP, prostrate gland and sleep meds. Obviously I don’t get high from these so all I have are memories of when I was high. It makes sense to me that after longterm use of psychedelics as far back as when I was in my 20s my mind developed a sense of psychedelia that lives on in my mind and consciousness.
I’ve tried tripping several times in the last few months to no avail except for the possibility of treating my mental illness to the point of no longer needing antidepressants.
I went 3 weeks without an antipsychotic but two days ago an incident arrived that convinced me to resume taking it.

My point is I love drugs, my experience from drug use made me who I am today. People who use drugs are in a class of people all to their own because we think differently. What better way to vacation than from within yourself. Your adventure awaits, this is the plight of the user for at some point you don’t need substances to experience what you know from experience.
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