Trigger Warning MDMA alone ?

[gymguy30]

So I have a couple questions. I’ve done “ex pills” but I know now that they weren’t real. I know they were meth pills pretty much. Anyway so now that I have a solid source for real mdma I can get capsules, pressed tablet form, or crystals. Which form should I get ? Also is it worth doing alone ? I don’t really have any friends I want to do it with and I don’t go out to clubs etc. any input would be appreciated. Thanks ladies/ gents

 

[Generation *DMT*]

Don't combine it with DXM or vice versa.

 

[gymguy30]

Don't combine it with DXM or vice versa.

Wasn’t planning on it ! I’ve never used dxm

 

[Shinji Ikari]

Get crystal and a scale weigh your own dose.

Some people enjoy solo roles others find it just makes them wish they had company ymmv.

 

[robbli777]

So I have a couple questions. I’ve done “ex pills” but I know now that they weren’t real. I know they were meth pills pretty much. Anyway so now that I have a solid source for real mdma I can get capsules, pressed tablet form, or crystals. Which form should I get ? Also is it worth doing alone ? I don’t really have any friends I want to do it with and I don’t go out to clubs etc. any input would be appreciated. Thanks ladies/ gents

Besides going wild camping with a buddy, I mostly do solos with crystals (ground up into powder, weighed and to put into a capsule). I like to go for long nature walks with my dog, sit amongst trees, meditate, write in a journal, play smooth ambient tunes etc.

Sometimes I've done the odd session at home, but being out in nature during peak summer is usually the best experience for a solo session.

 

[gymguy30]

Besides going wild camping with a buddy, I mostly do solos with crystals (ground up into powder, weighed and to put into a capsule). I like to go for long nature walks with my dog, sit amongst trees, meditate, write in a journal, play smooth ambient tunes etc.

Sometimes I've done the odd session at home, but being out in nature during peak summer is usually the best experience for a solo session.

Now that sounds amazing to me. To do some mdma and go walk along long nature trails or hike

 

[SotPoker1012]

Now that sounds amazing to me. To do some mdma and go walk along long nature trails or hike

It is really nice. As I work graveyard shift, most of my walks and hikes are late at night/early morning. The cool night air, the moon way up above me, the smell of the morning dew + some music = Really good night.

 

[Pissed_and_messed]

Last roll I just hanged out on ordinary sunny tuesday. Cycled around, talked with different people, sat in forest, gathered pawn cans and bought few lagers. It was interesting how the ordinary character of the day emphasized the festive character of molly.

Weed was involved too ofc.

 

[gymguy30]

Last roll I just hanged out on ordinary sunny tuesday. Cycled around, talked with different people, sat in forest, gathered pawn cans and bought few lagers. It was interesting how the ordinary character of the day emphasized the festive character of molly.

Weed was involved too ofc.

Awesome ! Can’t wait to get mine in and try it out !

 

[SuperPsych]

I'm just gonna ask this here as to avoid making a new thread.

I've been really craving a roll. Typically, my preferred set & setting is a chill night with a close friend or 2 , listening to music and talking all night. I also very much enjoy it at shows ofc.

Well, due to recent life changes I am currently without any sort of companion(s).

I have rolled by myself a few times. One time was positive, the others were enjoyable but not productive, though I can find myself feeling lonely during solo rolls.

I have at my disposal: 5-MAPB, 5/6APB (unsure, was sold as 6-APB but heard that it may have actually been 5-APB), MDMA, MDA; as well as a plethora of psychedelics and weed.

Set& Setting isn't the greatest, currently living with my dad and I'd rather not be spilling my guts to him. So my thoughts so far are, go on a long ass walk and listen to music, smoke some weed; then eventually come home when I won't have to bump into my dad so much. I can also try finding a show but it'd come with a bit of expense between the show, drinks and an Uber home.

Or I can just hold off. I tend to like to roll 2-3 times a year if possible. Haven't rolled in a few years at this point, so am really wanting one.

Any ideas on what to do? What substance is the best for solo rolls? Currently leaning towards a MDMA and MDA combo and possibly some LSD or 2CB

 

[Xyborg]

I'm just gonna ask this here as to avoid making a new thread.

I've been really craving a roll. Typically, my preferred set & setting is a chill night with a close friend or 2 , listening to music and talking all night. I also very much enjoy it at shows ofc.

Well, due to recent life changes I am currently without any sort of companion(s).

I have rolled by myself a few times. One time was positive, the others were enjoyable but not productive, though I can find myself feeling lonely during solo rolls.

I have at my disposal: 5-MAPB, 5/6APB (unsure, was sold as 6-APB but heard that it may have actually been 5-APB), MDMA, MDA; as well as a plethora of psychedelics and weed.

Set& Setting isn't the greatest, currently living with my dad and I'd rather not be spilling my guts to him. So my thoughts so far are, go on a long ass walk and listen to music, smoke some weed; then eventually come home when I won't have to bump into my dad so much. I can also try finding a show but it'd come with a bit of expense between the show, drinks and an Uber home.

Or I can just hold off. I tend to like to roll 2-3 times a year if possible. Haven't rolled in a few years at this point, so am really wanting one.

Any ideas on what to do? What substance is the best for solo rolls? Currently leaning towards a MDMA and MDA combo and possibly some LSD or 2CB

Some of my favorite rolls have been solo. In fact my last roll was solo while living with my mom (she knows about my use and is okay with it as long as I don't drive or anything stupid like that). I wrote a report in the mega thread. My roll was just with mdma and I had a fantastic time listening to music, watching a movie, swimming, and at one point I peaked so hard I just laid down in my bed, closed my eyes and enjoyed the pure bliss.

I say go for it man.

 

[ageingpartyfiend]

I'm just gonna ask this here as to avoid making a new thread.

I've been really craving a roll. Typically, my preferred set & setting is a chill night with a close friend or 2 , listening to music and talking all night. I also very much enjoy it at shows ofc.

Well, due to recent life changes I am currently without any sort of companion(s).

I have rolled by myself a few times. One time was positive, the others were enjoyable but not productive, though I can find myself feeling lonely during solo rolls.

I have at my disposal: 5-MAPB, 5/6APB (unsure, was sold as 6-APB but heard that it may have actually been 5-APB), MDMA, MDA; as well as a plethora of psychedelics and weed.

Set& Setting isn't the greatest, currently living with my dad and I'd rather not be spilling my guts to him. So my thoughts so far are, go on a long ass walk and listen to music, smoke some weed; then eventually come home when I won't have to bump into my dad so much. I can also try finding a show but it'd come with a bit of expense between the show, drinks and an Uber home.

Or I can just hold off. I tend to like to roll 2-3 times a year if possible. Haven't rolled in a few years at this point, so am really wanting one.

Any ideas on what to do? What substance is the best for solo rolls? Currently leaning towards a MDMA and MDA combo and possibly some LSD or 2CB

I'd forget the LSD if set/setting isn't optimal (which it isn't..)

We're all different so your question is difficult, but I'd be considering an mdma/mda combo.

Ahhh, mda. It's been a while!

 

[Axemancometh]

I don’t really have any friends

So real.

 

[SuperPsych]

Some of my favorite rolls have been solo. In fact my last roll was solo while living with my mom (she knows about my use and is okay with it as long as I don't drive or anything stupid like that). I wrote a report in the mega thread. My roll was just with mdma and I had a fantastic time listening to music, watching a movie, swimming, and at one point I peaked so hard I just laid down in my bed, closed my eyes and enjoyed the pure bliss.

I say go for it man.

Say no more lol

I have a really strong gut feeling that this is potentially the right moment. Don't know how to explain it but, what I do know is that every time I have this gut feeling about dosing a psychedelic, it turns out to be correct and I have a growing experience.

I have been using psychedelics more frequently than I have in years because I've had a TON of life changes happen very rapidly, so I'm always needed to look at things in different perspectives as they arise. The second is purely a rekindling of fascination with psychedelic compounds, as well as others. They do also have the pleasant benefit of helping keep my depression low or at bay.

But I'm have this feeling that there's something within the MDMA experience that contains something that I need to grow at this moment; something that psychedelics don't typically have within their unique experiences. I'm also reading PiHKAL and it's giving me confidence in the solo experience. There are 2 major things I suppose:
1 - I'm a mess. ADHD, PDD, GAD and PTSD; the latter which is a major source of difficulty in my day to day. I have a ton of trauma happening between ages 6-31. I turn 32 in 1 month. I'm hoping that a roll will help me brace for the oncoming processing of a life of repressed trauma, maybe help point me in a direction of where to start.

2- I jam a transgender woman, something I have struggled with my entire life. I finally grew a pair (ironically) and chose to stop living in fear and all that and started HRT. I started around my birthday, so it'lll be 1 year in a month. So I am still very early in the game. I still dress like a boy in public, although in mostly pink. My family, friends and most coworkers know of my transition. I want to have the confidence to live publicly as my honest self. I'm hoping that MDMA might help cast light upon the path that I must take to get there.

Now I need to figure out the dosage. I love MDA and in a lot of cases I prefer it over MDMA. I love the trippy sedating euphoria, but there's something within MDMA's clarity that's drawing me in. So I'll likely do with 120mg of MDMA + 10-20mg MDA? Maybe 130-140mg MDMA then an MDA booster later on along with a psychedelic or 2 or 3? or 4?

It's getting to be summer time, my favorite time of the year. My favorite setting for psychedelic and empathogenic experiences, as well as dissociatives. Maybe it's nostalgia but summer nights are by far my favorite set and setting for any drug.,

I've been hesitant about rolling solo as I struggle with depression, but I've seen some improvement and am prescribed adderall which should help with any blues the following day or 2.

I'd forget the LSD if set/setting isn't optimal (which it isn't..)

We're all different so your question is difficult, but I'd be considering an mdma/mda combo.

Ahhh, mda. It's been a while!

See, the funny thing is; I have tripped a number of times in this set & setting, often pretty hard and with multiple psychedelics and I always enjoy it. I have a decent ability to guide the trip if I hit rough waters and I treat them with respect and they have been sure to pay me back in kind.

I am leaning more towards MD(M)A) than a benzofuran, though the 5-APB has been calling my name as it's a very unique empathogen. I am leaning toward a moderate MDMA dose or a combo of MDMA/MDA. I'll ponder it over the course of the morrow

Thanks for the responses!

 

[crazyotter87]

I am leaning more towards MD(M)A) than a benzofuran, though the 5-APB has been calling my name as it's a very unique empathogen. I am leaning toward a moderate MDMA dose or a combo of MDMA/MDA. I'll ponder it over the course of the morrow

I picked up a gram of the most recent ultra potent Chinese batch of 5-APB. What would you compare it to the most? The gist I've gotten is that it's like a more intense version of MDA. I haven't tried it yet though, I'm gonna wait a few months before I do.

Cool summer nights are the BEST time for drug experiences.

Why not do like a 5:1 ratio of MDMA/MDA? Maybe 125mg MDMA with 25mg MDA all taken together?

I hope you get what you're looking for out of it when you roll ;-)

 

[SuperPsych]

I picked up a gram of the most recent ultra potent Chinese batch of 5-APB. What would you compare it to the most? The gist I've gotten is that it's like a more intense version of MDA. I haven't tried it yet though, I'm gonna wait a few months before I do.

Cool summer nights are the BEST time for drug experiences.

Why not do like a 5:1 ratio of MDMA/MDA? Maybe 125mg MDMA with 25mg MDA all taken together?

I hope you get what you're looking for out of it when you roll ;-)

It's hard to describe. It's been years since I've done 5-APB. It has a very intense come up at adequate doses. If I had to compare it, obviously it's a bit more similar to other benzofurans, but still, it is very unique. If I had to compare to MDMA or MDA, its a lot closer to MDA. It has a bit of MDMA's clarity while also kinda being cloudy? It's a little contradictory, but it is rather trippy and I remember it being stimulating. Was great for Laser Floyd and walking around the city. Was also great at home with a few friends. I can't really think of a way to describe it though.

A 5:1 ratio seems decent. Right now I'm kinda leaning MDMA first. I'm afraid of MDA superimposing its stoning effect upon the MDMA and interrupting the signals receined from the MDMA. My gut feeling isn't necessarily for a roll, but MDMA in particular. So I'm thinking 125mg-150mg MDMA. Walk around, listen to music, maybe go by the store, idk. Not much to do in my town. But walking around with music and feeling the summerish vibes will be enough. Then as I'm heading home, likely as I start coming down a little, I'll likely take MDA and a solid dose of some psychedelic and then just roll around in my bed listening to music or watching movies or some shit

 

[Esperighanto]

It's hard to describe. It's been years since I've done 5-APB. It has a very intense come up at adequate doses. If I had to compare it, obviously it's a bit more similar to other benzofurans, but still, it is very unique. If I had to compare to MDMA or MDA, its a lot closer to MDA. It has a bit of MDMA's clarity while also kinda being cloudy? It's a little contradictory, but it is rather trippy and I remember it being stimulating. Was great for Laser Floyd and walking around the city. Was also great at home with a few friends. I can't really think of a way to describe it though.

5-APB is an exceptionally vibrant, brightly burning sparkler of a drug that carries an energy and mania I can only compare to 3-MeO-PCP and especially in combination with NEP.

Surrounding the topic of the thread though, I've used MDMA solo quite a bit and found it to be useful, but every time MDMA has incited a mental health episode, it was the result of a solo roll.

 

[SuperPsych]

5-APB is an exceptionally vibrant, brightly burning sparkler of a drug that carries an energy and mania I can only compare to 3-MeO-PCP and especially in combination with NEP.

Surrounding the topic of the thread though, I've used MDMA solo quite a bit and found it to be useful, but every time MDMA has incited a mental health episode, it was the result of a solo roll.

5-APB is a really interesting empathogen, for sure. It is extremely high energy, maybe somewhere between MDMA and Methamphetamine in my experience. It has been quite a number of years since I've tried it.

Are you able to elaborate on the mental health issues that you've faced after your solo rolls?

Have you had much of an opportunity to try some benzofurans solo?

 

[HeadphonesandLSD]

I love taking MDA and MDMA alone. I've done it multiple times just sitting around my home and had a great time. I got really into an old Sega Dreamcast game with a good soundtrack one time. Since the game was short (about 20-30 minutes play time total) it left a lot of time after to do some fun stuff. You can work through a lot of emotional issues you might have been facing recently with a nice dose of MDMA at home.

Doing it alone doesn't mean you have to remain in your room/inside. I took MDMA alone on a whim in the middle of a hot sunny day once and walked around my yard. Which was pretty big and a private area that could not be seen from the road. I laid down in a outdoor lounge chair. While I was enjoying sun bathing my neighbor's cats came over the visit and sat in my lap for most of the roll purring away. Had a really great time.

It's a different drug alone in a lot of respects. MDA/MDMA is obviously really fun in a group. You can chat and work through emotional issues you might have with someone or get lovely dovey. When you're alone it's far more introspective. Most of my trips have been solo. But I try to plan activities before I take it. The last time I did MDMA alone I did it at Epcot at Disney World. I had a blast. I took a lot more than I should have though. It was in a tablet and I could have gotten away with taking half. I ate the whole thing on the bus to the park. I was digging through a bottle of OTC pills I'd hidden the tablet in. I couldn't find it in the dark so the guy that could barely speak English sitting next to me said "I help you" and turned on a flashlight. I ended up having to eat it in front of a packed bus full of people I'm and sure he and some of them knew. Since the pull looked nothing like the other pills laying in my lap.

I ended up walking around the park for awhile. It was during "Extra magic hours" so while it wasn't packed there were more people there than usual. I went on the ride "Journey into your imagination" which isn't anywhere near as good as the original. But it was really fun on MDMA. The singing moon at the end was awesome. It became one of my favorite rides after that even though most people despise it.

After getting off the ride I found a quiet place with few people near the lake and sat there smoking cigarettes which were against park regulations but no one bothered me. It had to be very obvious to anyone I interacted with that I was on something because I was rolling hard. Much harder than I expected.

For some reason there were tons of Japanese tourist visiting the park the same week I was there. A large group of what I assume were students with chaperons (I assume their teachers and/or parents) passed by where I was sitting on their way out of the park. I waved and said "konbanwa!" in broken Japanese and a few of them waved back at me and said it back giggling. One of them tried to speak to me but I couldn't understand much of what they were saying because they were speaking so fast.

A few minutes later another student with one chaperon passed me and the young girl (probably high school age) was visibly upset about something and the chaperon was lecturing her. I caught the gist of it. She was upset because they didn't get to go on the Frozen boat ride. I decided to try and cheer her up. They must not have noticed me sitting on the bench because it was kind of dark in that area of the park.

I got up and started following them and tapped the young girl on the shoulder. I startled her and she had a terrified look on her face when she turned around (I was much taller than both of them). I gave her a Micky Mouse clip on thing you see school girls wear on their bags. Which I had randomly found at the bus stop on my way into the park. Someone must have left it there on purpose. So I passed the gift along to her.

I forgot that Japanese usually present gifts with both hands when I was attempting to give it to her so she didn't understand at first. But she figured it out pretty fast that I was trying to gift it to her. She did the two hand thing they do when they accept gifts and said "Thank you" in broken English. I told her genki dashite and Amerika e yokoso in broken Japanese.

She looked pretty happy when I walked away and waved. I think it cheered her up. I probably should have given her a pin to but I'd already dropped almost $100 on them and if I gave her one it meant someone back home wouldn't get one. Plus I didn't want to go digging in my bag for it in the dark and I was already feeling pretty akward about things. I probably should have said something to them before I got that close and tapped her on the shoulder. I forgot how they are about their personal space and I walk pretty quiet so I know they didn't hear me approaching.

I often wonder if she kept and used it or showed it to the rest of her group. They were obviously part of the large group that had walked by a few minutes ago.

I walked around the park some more enjoying the lights. They were closing the park so I headed to what I thought was the bus area. But I ended up walking to the wrong exit and going through it. Then I had to turn around and go through security rolling hard while they checked my bag to let me back in. An employee led me to the other exit and I know he knew I was rolling cause he kept subtly messing with me. But I don't think he cared.

The bus was packed on the way back so I had to stand. There were some rude and probably drunk people on the bus and they were yelling at each other the whole way like drunks do. One was in the back of the bus and the other was sitting in the middle near where I was. It got really annoying. Several women were looking at me like they wanted me to say something but I just kept quiet. I think they also knew I was on something.

After that I got back to my hotel and sat on a bench outside and smoked a joint when no one was around. I was having a relaxing time listen to the crickets until I realized they weren't real and it was just speakers in the trees. The illusion being broken was kind of a downer.

A bunch of cheerleaders walked by where I was sitting at one point and ignored me. But they had guy their age with him bringing up the rear of their group. I called him over and the girls kept walking. I gave him what was left of my weed stash about enough for 2 or 3 fat joints along with some papers. He was hesitant to take it because I think he thought I was setting him up. I explained that I didn't want to risk taking it on the plane for the trip home since I'd already snuck it through the airport once on the way down. I told him to go smoke it with the cheerleaders and have a good time. Once he realized I wasn't the police he took it.

After he left I got paranoiod that maybe I gave a slightly underaged student weed. But I'm sure he was at least 16-17 years old. He was young but he wasn't that young if you know what I mean.

After that I went to the arcade because I had a card with like $30 on it. I got bored after a few rounds of whatever arcade game I played can't remember now.

A young woman was checking in to the hotel. By this time it's already midnight or maybe 1am. She had a very young child with her maybe 5-6 years old. I gave her the arcade card I had and told her it had about $20 left on it. She thanked me and had the child thank me. I told him "You're welcome buddy have a great time at Disney!". I'm pretty sure she thought I was a staff member.

After that I hung around outside for awhile waiting for the roll to fully wear off. 30 minutes later I was down enough that I felt like I could go back to the shared room I was in with a family member. I showered and then laid in bed until 7am or so. We caught our bus to the airport and I went through TSA still really wonky. Not rolling of course but that feel good I haven't slept roll handover.

Usually I'm terrified of flying and I freaked out on the flight in despite taking xanax before boarding. On the way back I wasn't scared at all (I'm terrified of heights).

If you ever get the chance give rolling alone at Epcot or any disney park a shot. I kind of wish I went to the Magical Kingdom instead but it wasn't open. Before Epcot I went to Animal Kingdom that night to ride the Avatar ride. Had to stand in line 3 hours for it. So by the time I got out of that I had no choice but to go to Epcot since it was the only park that stayed open late that night.

I had a really good time. But my paranoia prevented me from being very social with people because I was worried the Disney security would kick me out if people told them I was on something. But it seems like as long as you mind your business and don't bother other guests they don't care.

 

[JackARoe]

For what it's worth I remember getting the MDMA tablets from Texas State University in 1984-85 until it became illegal. Of course I had a few friends that did MDMA, I shared it with people. But most of those times I took it I was in my bedroom alone, incense burning and listening to music. I think taking MDMA alone is as valuable as taking it with other people.

The family owned a gas station right off 1-10 in Houston. The amount of drug connections I got was insane. The best cocaine from the biggest rodeo star in Texas at the time. One time as we were about to close two guys come in with a flat tire. They needed a new tire, we take care of them but they had no money. But they said look, the open the trunk and tons of seconal, tuinal, and amphetamine. They alluded to a pharmacy break in. But that is off topic, I should start a thread in drug culture of the strangest scores, I have a few crazy stories. But the MDMA came from a customer from our station that went to TU. He would stop by every month and leave me with about 6 pills. There was MDME too at the time. Pretty interesting, MDME worked but had less of a roll it seemed.