Hey
@RepeatedIgnorance2c-74
First off, I have to be a wicked cunt and tell you that this thread doesn't fit in quite right with what we handle here in BDD. The principle that I work on, is that these threads are dedicated for the most part to safety. We have other sub-forums that are less formal, also areas dedicated to sobriety/recovery.
Regarding your first question, everyone is different. There are folks who have never itched from Opioids, people who have never vomited and people for whom their eyes never seem to pin, however, we know that the majority of people are going to exhibit changes similar to what I've just described. If you're affected by a drug in the way you want to be affected, it's only rational to assume that those feelings will come with changes to our biology, sociology etc. The people who know you are always gonna know. If we're talking about your Mother, your girlfriend and so on, they're going to know if something isn't right; your buddies from the bar? Maybe they won't notice, but they also aren't trying to connect with you to the same extent.
We are experiencing a lot of Kratom-related material. It's basically impossible to get a script for anything. There is essentially no use of Opioids prior to the use of powerful agonists like Oxycodone. Previously, Codeine was much easier to acquire and in some areas could be bought over the counter. This was the norm for decades until drug hysteria ended the practice in most places. This leaves those who want/need Opioids with nothing aside from an impossible script, Fentanyl/Xylazine or something like Kratom. It's only fitting that such a drug would fill this current vacuum.
My point is, don't get caught up in thinking about it as a "Kratom Problem" think of it as an Opioid problem; the same kind we all have struggled with. My further point is that we all have experience and support that could serve you well. I wouldn't have been able to get my shit together without said advice/support. You can hit me up or any other person that you trust. We've been there, a lot of us have done the spin dry, I've withdrawn from Methadone fully on two occasions and I've withdrawn from Heroin probably a dozen times, though I truly couldn't tell you.
I will leave this here for now so you can get the help that you need, though I will likely be moving it to somewhere more appropriate once I understand your primary objective. Good luck buddy.