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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

LuiBliss said:
My pleasure, "invegetable" 🤦

I was started on rispsridone in 2011. Got off it and went to jail to 2013. in 2014 I ended up back in the hospital where they put me on invega sustenna I started to ween off it in 2016 and was completely off in 2017. Ended up back in hospital but managed to escape without getting it again. I ended up in prison a few months later. While in prison I got evicted from my apartment so when I got out of prison I was homeless, this is now 2018. Being homeless I got into fights on the streets but a false allegation got me back in prison where they sent me to the hospital and court decided that I needed to be on the antipsychotic. So they put me back on it. In 2019 they sent me back from hospital to prison and I was released from prison. Within a few months I got off it again, ended up back in prison cuz of the crazy shit I was doing while hanging out in the streets. When I was done my sentence in prison they sent me to the hospital where I stayed for almost 1.5 years fighting my case against coercively giving me inveva. I lost my case. They gave me the needle. I beat up a nurse as a result of my frustration. I'm in trouble with the law again. Once released from hospital I go to jail for the day where my brother bails me out. It is now 2022 and i have had enough. In order to not go back to prison and live a "normal" life I promise the judge to stay on the needle. I'm now on invega trinza.

Thankfully I'm not a zombie anymore because I have been while I'm on it before. I had depression, I had anhedonia, and I was suicidal in the beginning. I'm doing very well now.

I'm getting by with the side effects like weight gain and ejaculating liquid fluid and less intense orgasms. For the time being I'm letting all this be because I enjoy a high quality of life.

I was feeling like shit for the first 1.5 years while on it. Then I did some self healing that's absurd to anybody who would hear this but I ate a little bit of my own shit. Something I would do on a regular basis at the hospital and prison so that I would protect myself from the poison that they feed us.

But anyhoo that's a whole other topic on the benefits of coprophagia.

Don't get me wrong doing this helped but it was also other things like the boost I got from naturopathic supplements and herbs. These are very powerful forces when invited into pur biological system. And Ofcourse I have been having a daily meditation practice where I ask my higher Self to get me doing better and better. And to fill me with vitality and vigour and strength.

Yeah, hope that part on coprophagia wasn't too graphic but lots of species do it and it's very beneficial. Your brain gets an idea of what's going on in your body and what's coming out. Then it begins to heal itself.

Before the use of technology to read stool and urine doctors used to taste them to give an idea of their patients diagnosis.

So here you go, I said a little more about it.. What do you know?

OK that's it for now, I'm here if you need anything or have any more questions.

Best,

Lui
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Thanks for your detailed reply. It seems like you've had quite the life. Based on your video and what you've written, my impression is that you are physically much more robust than me so I don't think our cases are comparable. There is clearly a subset of people for whom the side effects are much more tolerable e.g. I wouldn't have had the energy to beat up a nurse, even in my current state. I noticed this when I was hospitalized as well, some people didn't seem to suffer the side effects at the same intensity, fyi I am skinny and frail to begin with IBS and autoimmune issues. I'm also very sensitive to drugs in general. As for eating your own shit, I'm glad that works for you but I will most likely abstain because I don't see the science behind it and the fact that it involves eating your own shit. I do agree that it's important to stay positive, maybe even crucial so I thank you for reminding me :)
 
rawbanana said:
This shit is never getting better
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If you're worried but it's long not from one day to the next I took 4 doses like you but it was haldol I'm 19 months off it's been how long since you stopped? I'm curious about the healing process you're going to put in place.
 
invegetable said:
Thanks for your detailed reply. It seems like you've had quite the life. Based on your video and what you've written, my impression is that you are physically much more robust than me so I don't think our cases are comparable. There is clearly a subset of people for whom the side effects are much more tolerable e.g. I wouldn't have had the energy to beat up a nurse, even in my current state. I noticed this when I was hospitalized as well, some people didn't seem to suffer the side effects at the same intensity, fyi I am skinny and frail to begin with IBS and autoimmune issues. I'm also very sensitive to drugs in general. As for eating your own shit, I'm glad that works for you but I will most likely abstain because I don't see the science behind it and the fact that it involves eating your own shit. I do agree that it's important to stay positive, maybe even crucial so I thank you for reminding me :)
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I beat up the nurse shortly after they administered the needle, so it hadn't taken effect on me yet. That's why I was able to do it.

Don't get me wrong, it has had a lot of negative effect on me hence why I needed to keep getting off it and I had come to blue light to vent my frustration.

But I have since undergone numerous alternative healing modalities to get my strength, vitality and vigour back and I am nowhere near done my journey.

That's it, be positive and don't sell yourself short.. You can do this.
 
fenec said:
I think you did it to warn your brain that something was wrong and you wanted it to heal, it's true that dogs, rabbits and koalas eat their excrement, and you did it also for the rebellious side of forced treatment in my opinion, In my opinion, you wanted to immunize certain people who eat toxic bark for this, so basically I'm taking back what you've put inside me, what my body rejects, I'm transforming this poison into strength, I suffer more than I choose, I'm sorry for what you've endured, it dehumanizes courage.
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Very good explanation fenec

It's been a while, I hope that you are doing well.
 
I cant fucking believe i have to say this but no coprophagia talk in the chat please! I damn near puked reading this i did not want to read this shit literally and im sure others feel the same. So please take that shit to pm
 
paranoid android said:
I cant fucking believe i have to say this but no coprophagia talk in the chat please! I damn near puked reading this i did not want to read this shit literally and im sure others feel the same. So please take that shit to pm
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Seems like we handled it in a very mature way...
 
LuiBliss said:
I beat up the nurse shortly after they administered the needle, so it hadn't taken effect on me yet. That's why I was able to do it.

Don't get me wrong, it has had a lot of negative effect on me hence why I needed to keep getting off it and I had come to blue light to vent my frustration.

But I have since undergone numerous alternative healing modalities to get my strength, vitality and vigour back and I am nowhere near done my journey.

That's it, be positive and don't sell yourself short.. You can do this.
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Have you considered getting switched to a different LAI? Invega impacts fertility if you stay on it for years.
 
invegetable said:
Now I know what they mean by derealization. I am not present anymore. I now also know what it means to be suicidal. Plenty of recovery stories on here and reddit but that what if haunts me 24/7. 6 months in and things that have gotten better: no more sugar cravings, slightly better cognition after drinking coffee, ejaculate coming back. I need psychedelics, weed and stimulants but have limited access. I smoked a couple weeks ago and heard actual fucking voices, it's true that this shit causes schizophrenia, I'm afraid of the dark now for some reason. This drug shouldn't exist.
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Everyone different. But nowaday weed is indeed too dangerous. Its too psychoactive. But low THC weed is medicine for my cptsd and post concussion syndrome. IT soothes my nervous system. Low THC weed is medicine. The 25% THC 1% cbd they sell is dangerous drug indeed for some
 
fenec said:
You couldn't have done anything my brother, I would never have taken it of my own free will.
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U r amazing brother supporting fellow humans. Lets all pray to God. Lets all heal and speak out publicly what they doing. Psychopaths that poison people in situations where natural methods were enough.
 
Wikipedia Has Not Even One Nice Thing To Say About Invega Sustenna (paliperidone).
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
U r amazing brother supporting fellow humans. Lets all pray to God. Lets all heal and speak out publicly what they doing. Psychopaths that poison people in situations where natural methods were enough.
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It's a diabolical drug that incapacitates you, you don't understand what's going on, you lose all your abilities and you want to die. I could never go through that again.
 
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