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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

How come serial killers etc get the good fortune of the death penalty. I saw one guy in America was being dosed with fentanyl.

Meanwhile its soooo taboos to kill one's self put of sufferering.

It's a mercy to kill serial killersm as opposed to keeping them locked up for life.
 
Are there any musicians or athletes on here? Gamers? My reflexes, muscle memory, coordination are gone. This has got to be brain or nerve damage of some sort.
 
fenec said:
I smoked from morning to night and when I stopped I couldn't sleep or eat and I had a psychosis and in psychiatry there were lots of people who were there because of cannabis but I think I smoked shit, but I'm talking about the resin not the flower.
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Ive seen people diagnosed with weed psychosis but it was a made up diagnoses. I was kind of diagnosed with it and that turned out to be bulshit. The same shrink diagnosed another guy with it as well and i later found out that his problem was meth not weed.

When i went psychotic and had cotards syndrome i stopped eating as well. I also stopped smoking weed and taking my meds cause i thought i was dead. Dead people dont need drugs.
 
invegetable said:
Are there any musicians or athletes on here? Gamers? My reflexes, muscle memory, coordination are gone. This has got to be brain or nerve damage of some sort.
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Yeah it messes with your whole central nervous system. Those things will come back, I felt so slow when I tried gaming a few months back. Likewise playing guitar was difficult
 
invegetable said:
Hi,

I received about 7 shots of Invega Sustenna 150 about 6 months ago.
Since then Ive had all kinds of symptoms including full-body
stiffness, pain in my joints and muscles, brain fog, lack of libido,
etc.

What worries me the most out of these symptoms is this feeling that my
brain is either disconnected from my body or that connection has
become extremely weak. It feels as if my nerves? arent working
properly, as if there is poor transmission between my brain and body.

This is most obvious when I try to play the guitar which I have for
years. It is not the same anymore. It seems to me as if a very
fundamental process in the brain and or body has been shut down, and
honestly it feels permanent. Maybe some people call this reflexes or
imagination, its hard to describe but I am trying to be as accurate as
possible. Like I said, it feels as if either theres something wrong
with the transmission or overall charge, making it seem like the
transmission is faulty? I guess it is the ability to be spontaneous in other words.

Has anybody that experienced similar symptoms recovered the ability to
play music, and particularly improvise aka spontaneously produce music
and execute it on an instrument. Or anything similar that requires
such a mind-body connection. Has anyone regained their imagination or
their ability to play video games or sports or dance? Im also curious
about libido, I can ejaculate now but that buzzing energy is gone, not
to mention my imagination is gone so I cannot really get aroused
anymore. How many shots did you receive? How old are you? How long did
it take for you to recover? Im 38, asian male btw. It feels like I am
now an observer in my body with no imagination or ability to impose my
will on the world, in both the visual sense and the
motivational/energetic sense.

Thank you in advance. Obviously I am quite alarmed about all of this to say the least.
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The stuff you are saying sounds exactly like what I’m going through. The fact it’s been 6 months and you still feel this way makes me nervous. It’s been 4 months for me after 4 shots.
 
Every day I wake up and ask myself what on earth I did to deserve this pain. Was I such a horrible person that I deserved this? I was vulnerable and the psychiatrists took advantage of me. I shouldn’t have ever been on this drug and now it’s permanently stuck in me. It doesn’t feel like it’s ever going away. I genuinely just don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t want to live in a world where something like this can happen to someone
 
rawbanana said:
The stuff you are saying sounds exactly like what I’m going through. The fact it’s been 6 months and you still feel this way makes me nervous. It’s been 4 months for me after 4 shots.
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Yeah I haven't seen much of an improvement so it's very concerning. My mind is little clearer now, like 20% at best. For a while I was too fucked up to even notice or reflect on how fucked up I was but I think that's a different faculty from the stuff I'm worried about which is more like reflexes, visualization, coordination. That function is now offline for me.
 
rawbanana said:
Every day I wake up and ask myself what on earth I did to deserve this pain. Was I such a horrible person that I deserved this? I was vulnerable and the psychiatrists took advantage of me. I shouldn’t have ever been on this drug and now it’s permanently stuck in me. It doesn’t feel like it’s ever going away. I genuinely just don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t want to live in a world where something like this can happen to someone
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It feels impossibly brutal. I am now more on the fence than ever about a benevolent god.
 
So why does the internet say the drug “the release of the drug starts at day 1 and lasts as long as 126 days?” Are they just lying?
 
Can someone who has been on these threads for a while tell me whether most people get better? I need hope and keep seeing horror stories
 
invegetable said:
Yeah I haven't seen much of an improvement so it's very concerning. My mind is little clearer now, like 20% at best. For a while I was too fucked up to even notice or reflect on how fucked up I was but I think that's a different faculty from the stuff I'm worried about which is more like reflexes, visualization, coordination. That function is now offline for me.
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This is no way to live. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I’m very suicidal because of it.
 
rawbanana said:
This is no way to live. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I’m very suicidal because of it.
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Those who really got injected with this poison, i think we all feel suicidal, not to mentions the imense suffering we go through everyday. This really does feel permanent..

I never thought there would be an injection created which can damage a soul not only the body.
 
therendezvous said:
Those who really got injected with this poison, i think we all feel suicidal, not to mentions the imense suffering we go through everyday. This really does feel permanent..

I never thought there would be an injection created which can damage a soul not only the body.
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I never thought that I would be someone who would be injected with such a thing either. I’m incredulous every day. I’m genuinely looking for a way out cause I don’t see an end to this.
 
rawbanana said:
I never thought that I would be someone who would be injected with such a thing either. I’m incredulous every day. I’m genuinely looking for a way out cause I don’t see an end to this.
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Im going to get my third wet cupping tomorrow to the arm i’ve been injected in and to the head. So in the past 2 months i have got rid of about 400ml of old blood.
Going to see if this helps with the head pressure, sitting for 5 minutes on a normal chair and getting up i feel like im going to pass out. When before i could sit crouched for hours get up and feel fine with no dizziness.. I feel like an 80-90 yr old man in every way and meaning of it.
 
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