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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Man it's so hard living life and nothing really matters you only know it does but you don't feel it anymore. You don't get excited, you don't look forward to anything, you don't care about anything. But yet you are still here having to go through the motions. I thought I was doing good but lately I feel empty again. Guess I had what you guys called a window.
 
stolensoul said:
I can't remember a good amount either. But I was posting Instagram stories of chats with a friend where I was accusing them of stealing my music and stupid shit like that, big cringe
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IOSIP said:
Whats some of the cringe moments from you that your willing to share? I was in public yelling at the sky giving speeches. I was then in a shopping centre shop lifting because I thought i was a god. Lucky security just took my basket off me and i then ran away. I can't remember a good amount of what I did which I'm greatful for to be honest.
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I'm not the one you asked initially but I went to a police station with no shirt on and mma gloves to drop off an imaginary prisoner. This was to show them I was going to help them fight crime in the city. That was big cringe. I also made a lot of weird social media posts such as a video of me throwing punches on video whilst challenging Jake Paul to a fight.

The cringe sucks. But what I feel worst about is leaving my nephew in my Jeep with the hazards on to pick up litter on the side of the road. He was 10 at the time. Thankfully the windows were down and the air was on but it really freaked him out nonetheless. I'm told I was telling cars to pick up their trash and that I was a superhero...but I don't remember that part.

That incident is why I'm not mad about getting injected with Invega. I'm very thankful nobody got hurt but its really only out of sheer luck that nobody did. Idk how I'd live with myself if I got my nephew hurt.
 
Koz26 said:
I'm not the one you asked initially but I went to a police station with no shirt on and mma gloves to drop off an imaginary prisoner. This was to show them I was going to help them fight crime in the city. That was big cringe. I also made a lot of weird social media posts such as a video of me throwing punches on video whilst challenging Jake Paul to a fight.

The cringe sucks. But what I feel worst about is leaving my nephew in my Jeep with the hazards on to pick up litter on the side of the road. He was 10 at the time. Thankfully the windows were down and the air was on but it really freaked him out nonetheless. I'm told I was telling cars to pick up their trash and that I was a superhero...but I don't remember that part.

That incident is why I'm not mad about getting injected with Invega. I'm very thankful nobody got hurt but its really only out of sheer luck that nobody did. Idk how I'd live with myself if I got my nephew hurt.
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Wow thanks for sharing. Thay is mega cringe. Hilarious 😂 except i know that it's not Hilarious. It's fucked. We have to love with that guilt and shame. The police station incident in particular is kinda funny.
 
IOSIP said:
Wow thanks for sharing. Thay is mega cringe. Hilarious 😂 except i know that it's not Hilarious. It's fucked. We have to love with that guilt and shame. The police station incident in particular is kinda funny.
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I also wrote the cops a letter detailing my plans for helping them fight crime. I left it on one of those 2x2 puzzle mats out in front of police headquarters. I think I left a superman t-shirt on the mat as well but my memory is a bit blurry...could have been a batman shirt.
 
Koz26 said:
I also wrote the cops a letter detailing my plans for helping them fight crime. I left it on one of those 2x2 puzzle mats out in front of police headquarters. I think I left a superman t-shirt on the mat as well but my memory is a bit blurry...could have been a batman shirt.
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Oh dear. Thanks for sharing. Yes I also wrote piles of jibberish notes for the doctors I the psych ward. It makes me cringe thinking about it. I was telling them all about The theory of relativity, string theory, financial sequence etc. But under each heading god knows what i was actually writing. I would title the pages then write lines of what I thought was compelling evidence to show how sane I was.
 
DontJump said:
Man it's so hard living life and nothing really matters you only know it does but you don't feel it anymore. You don't get excited, you don't look forward to anything, you don't care about anything. But yet you are still here having to go through the motions. I thought I was doing good but lately I feel empty again. Guess I had what you guys called a window.
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I felt like this when i got out of the psych ward and was on abilify. Before that i was on invega. Both of them made me not give a fuck about anythig. I balloned up to 225lbs when i was in the psych ward on invega then abilify. All i gave a fuck about was getting coke when i got out and i called my dealer the first few days i was out.

However when i got off the abilify and lost weight caring about things came back. I went from being 225lbs to dropping down to 170lbs when i got off the abilify and now im 205lbs and lifting weights like a motherfucker.

Give it time caring about things will come back
 
IOSIP said:
Oh dear. Thanks for sharing. Yes I also wrote piles of jibberish notes for the doctors I the psych ward. It makes me cringe thinking about it. I was telling them all about The theory of relativity, string theory, financial sequence etc. But under each heading god knows what i was actually writing. I would title the pages then write lines of what I thought was compelling evidence to show how sane I was.
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Feel the cringe then let it go. Thats what I try to do at least. Some days its easier to do than others.

Were you a science major in college? It's interesting that your episode revolved around an interest in the theory of relativity and string theory. The delusion you mentioned about thinking you were God is actually pretty common. I was followed around a psych ward once by a girl telling me she was God.
 
Koz26 said:
What did you think was the key to fixing racism?
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White people needed to learn about that time a nearly genetically identical group was racialized, then colonized, genocided, and their lands were razed by a neighboring country. Ireland was the first of many nations to undergo colonialist genocide perpetrated by England. England's global colonization activities formed the basis for modern racism. It's why Ireland was deforested. The exploitation of Ireland's farmland was why the potato famine, and the famines before that, happened. Racism is pretty stupid, but I can't think of a stupider example other than old timey anti-Irish racism. I thought that if more white people learned the recent history of Ireland they would become more sensitive to racial injustice and act in solidarity with people of color more often. I only thought this because I listened to the Behind the Bastards episode about Ireland's last famine, the potato famine/great hunger. Then I got obsessed with my Irish nobleman ancestor because he was mentioned in it and the scammer I talked to said stuff about my ancestors, that they had an important message for me, and I was supposed to be a healer.

I also thought I was related to the host of the podcast, Robert Evans. I thought I had a similar role as him, to "bring the darkness into the light and expose it". Behind the Bastards is about villains of history and current events; dictators, cult leaders, sex criminals, serial killers, war criminals, etc. It talks about who they were and how they did what they did. Also genocide and how it happens in general. He's a great investigative journalist who has seen some shit and I respect him a lot, but we're not related. I almost reached out to him through email and made things weird.
 
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InvegaAnon said:
White people needed to learn about that time a nearly genetically identical group was racialized, then colonized, genocided, and their lands were razed by a neighboring country. Ireland was the first of many nations to undergo colonialist genocide perpetrated by England. England's global colonization activities formed the basis for modern racism. It's why Ireland was deforested. The exploitation of Ireland's farmland was why the potato famine, and the famines before that, happened. Racism is pretty stupid, but I can't think of a stupider example other than old timey anti-Irish racism. I thought that if more white people learned the recent history of Ireland they would become more sensitive to racial injustice and act in solidarity with people of color more often. I only thought this because I listened to the Behind the Bastards episode about Ireland's last famine, the potato famine/great hunger. Then I got obsessed with my Irish nobleman ancestor because he was mentioned in it and the scammer I talked to said stuff about my ancestors, that they had an important message for me, and I was supposed to be a healer.

I also thought I was related to the host of the podcast, Robert Evans. I thought I had a similar role as him, to "bring the darkness into the light and expose it". Behind the Bastards is about villains of history and current events; dictators, cult leaders, sex criminals, serial killers, war criminals, etc. It talks about who they were and how they did what they did. Also genocide and how it happens in general. He's a great investigative journalist who has seen some shit and I respect him a lot, but we're not related. I almost reached out to him through email and made things weird.
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Thanks for sharing! I didn't know all of that history and I'm half Irish. You never know what might click with people. Maybe the Irish story would help some people connect the dots. That's what can be so tricky of a psychosis, there are often logical elements to it and it can make it difficult to discern what's real and what's not; to both us and to those around us.
 
InvegaAnon said:
White people needed to learn about that time a nearly genetically identical group was racialized, then colonized, genocided, and their lands were razed by a neighboring country. Ireland was the first of many nations to undergo colonialist genocide perpetrated by England. England's global colonization activities formed the basis for modern racism. It's why Ireland was deforested. The exploitation of Ireland's farmland was why the potato famine, and the famines before that, happened. Racism is pretty stupid, but I can't think of a stupider example other than old timey anti-Irish racism. I thought that if more white people learned the recent history of Ireland they would become more sensitive to racial injustice and act in solidarity with people of color more often. I only thought this because I listened to the Behind the Bastards episode about Ireland's last famine, the potato famine/great hunger. Then I got obsessed with my Irish nobleman ancestor because he was mentioned in it and the scammer I talked to said stuff about my ancestors, that they had an important message for me, and I was supposed to be a healer.

I also thought I was related to the host of the podcast, Robert Evans. I thought I had a similar role as him, to "bring the darkness into the light and expose it". Behind the Bastards is about villains of history and current events; dictators, cult leaders, sex criminals, serial killers, war criminals, etc. It talks about who they were and how they did what they did. Also genocide and how it happens in general. He's a great investigative journalist who has seen some shit and I respect him a lot, but we're not related. I almost reached out to him through email and made things weird.
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Low income family kids are Black people in 1900s when landing in mental hospital. The same logic behind it
 
I have been having a headache for about 5 days now. Is this normal when stopping Invega shots? Also, I did stop olanzapine recently so I'm not sure if this is the cause.
 
InvegaAnon said:
White people needed to learn about that time a nearly genetically identical group was racialized, then colonized, genocided, and their lands were razed by a neighboring country. Ireland was the first of many nations to undergo colonialist genocide perpetrated by England. England's global colonization activities formed the basis for modern racism. It's why Ireland was deforested. The exploitation of Ireland's farmland was why the potato famine, and the famines before that, happened. Racism is pretty stupid, but I can't think of a stupider example other than old timey anti-Irish racism. I thought that if more white people learned the recent history of Ireland they would become more sensitive to racial injustice and act in solidarity with people of color more often. I only thought this because I listened to the Behind the Bastards episode about Ireland's last famine, the potato famine/great hunger. Then I got obsessed with my Irish nobleman ancestor because he was mentioned in it and the scammer I talked to said stuff about my ancestors, that they had an important message for me, and I was supposed to be a healer.

I also thought I was related to the host of the podcast, Robert Evans. I thought I had a similar role as him, to "bring the darkness into the light and expose it". Behind the Bastards is about villains of history and current events; dictators, cult leaders, sex criminals, serial killers, war criminals, etc. It talks about who they were and how they did what they did. Also genocide and how it happens in general. He's a great investigative journalist who has seen some shit and I respect him a lot, but we're not related. I almost reached out to him through email and made things weird.
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Well your ot wrong about the Irish genocide
 
Koz26 said:
Thanks for sharing! I didn't know all of that history and I'm half Irish. You never know what might click with people. Maybe the Irish story would help some people connect the dots. That's what can be so tricky of a psychosis, there are often logical elements to it and it can make it difficult to discern what's real and what's not; to both us and to those around us.
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I think it would help things click for some people at least, especially for people who have trouble understanding settler colonialism. It's just not some miraculous key like I thought it was.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I think it would help things click for some people at least, especially for people who have trouble understanding settler colonialism. It's just not some miraculous key like I thought it was.
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The Irish example is one i know well as i am Newfoundland Irish and am very pro Irish republican. The British did the same thing around the globe wherever they went
 
Hi all

Looking for similar scenarios and help coming off invega

I am diagnosed schizophrenic since 2018, after smoking weed all day every day with minimal breaks for a number of years
I was on invega 117mg for four years and came off in 2022

I know it’s poison

I regained the ability to feel emotions and lost the weight, I was able to access higher states of consciousness through meditation (I’m very spiritual)

But in 2023 I was hospitalised with grandiose deulsions after taking a large dose of mushrooms and weed

I believe spiritual practice of daily yoga 1 hour and kundalini meditation twice daily for 30 minutes, along with proper diet and gym, along with a regiment of supplements vitamins and minerals purported to treat it and potentially CBD will be far better than feeling like a zombie with no emotions or drive, inability to feel pleasure

But I hope to god I don’t relapse again

I used to have so much personality, I’m still so ambitious but have no drive, I used to be in such good shape, I struggle in social context, I am practically retarded in many aspects I have been back on the invega since July 2023, 157mg a month

My spiritual teacher in India who is also a psychologist believes that medications should only be used in emergency situations, and that yoga and meditation and having a clean stomach (vegetarian, no clogged intestines) is actual treatment for mental health not just this symptom blocking western medicine madness

I intend to maintain my practices and abstain from all drugs completely and taper off the invega under the supervision of a psychiatrist, but how can I even find a psychiatrist that’s not indoctrinated by big pharma funded ‘scientific’ research

In the meantime while on the TA I was wondering if anyone had any insight into whether switching to Abilify or otherwise may help, I believe my doctor is going to reduce the dosage of invega next week

Thank you in advance for any replies
 
shackwiz said:
Hi all

Looking for similar scenarios and help coming off invega

I am diagnosed schizophrenic since 2018, after smoking weed all day every day with minimal breaks for a number of years
I was on invega 117mg for four years and came off in 2022

I know it’s poison

I regained the ability to feel emotions and lost the weight, I was able to access higher states of consciousness through meditation (I’m very spiritual)

But in 2023 I was hospitalised with grandiose deulsions after taking a large dose of mushrooms and weed

I believe spiritual practice of daily yoga 1 hour and kundalini meditation twice daily for 30 minutes, along with proper diet and gym, along with a regiment of supplements vitamins and minerals purported to treat it and potentially CBD will be far better than feeling like a zombie with no emotions or drive, inability to feel pleasure

But I hope to god I don’t relapse again

I used to have so much personality, I’m still so ambitious but have no drive, I used to be in such good shape, I struggle in social context, I am practically retarded in many aspects I have been back on the invega since July 2023, 157mg a month

My spiritual teacher in India who is also a psychologist believes that medications should only be used in emergency situations, and that yoga and meditation and having a clean stomach (vegetarian, no clogged intestines) is actual treatment for mental health not just this symptom blocking western medicine madness

I intend to maintain my practices and abstain from all drugs completely and taper off the invega under the supervision of a psychiatrist, but how can I even find a psychiatrist that’s not indoctrinated by big pharma funded ‘scientific’ research

In the meantime while on the TA I was wondering if anyone had any insight into whether switching to Abilify or otherwise may help, I believe my doctor is going to reduce the dosage of invega next week

Thank you in advance for any replies
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I was given abilify when i bitched about how bad invega was. It's every bit as bad as invega imo i probably couldnt tell the difference between the 2. If your going to take a antipsychotic i would recommend zyprexa. I switched to it from latuda (awful medication) and have had no complaints about it in the 2 years i have been on it. So far its the best antipsychotic i have taken and i have been on alot of them including old antipsychotics.
 
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