Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Its disturbs me how long ago you were injected and your still suffering. You only had 2 doses right?
Yep only two.
I mean I’ll give it two years before I call this change permanent.

Maybe I have some brain damage too. I was crazy for about 8 months before they got me. Nothing was going to stop me.

I went on the run and everything hahaha every time I got let out of the hospital it was a free pass to keep running amok. I think I got let out of the hospital three times with no meds and pretty unscathed until prison got me haha oh well.

The cops hated it. They put me on a hold to stay for 24 hours and I’d be out again the next day. Go me. Fuck those cunts.
 
I feel annoyed/annoyance but I don’t get angry.
I feel sad but I don’t cry.

I used to be full of anger which was my drive that kept me going. I used to cry all the time.

Meh emotions what are they. I’m a psychopath now.

I get anxiety and worry. But my body doesn’t release the emotion. U just don’t feel it anymore. That’s all I can say. I don’t feel excitement either.
Just meh all round.

I find i feel anger and sadness less but thats from being in the psych ward now the invega. Not much can really make me angry or sad after seeing the shit i did in the psych ward
 
Let me give you a run down of my family. Oldest sister drinks starbucks and directly supports genocidal zionists . The one younger sister than me called the police on me 3 times after my accident. I truly believe if it werent for her , I wouldn't have crossed paths with psychiatry. The one younger than her is a die hard zionist whore who calls me mentally ill every other day and actually said I would better off dead for the family. I got a retard 18 year old brother who actually tried to kill himself 3 years ago. I was perfectly normal before this no mental illness , hardly any marijuana usage but after what he did, I became known as "Mentally ill". My mother thinks im crazy. My dad yelled at me the other day for stopping my antipsychotic. My oldest half brother called me crazy cuz i just kept ranting and ranting about psychiatry. I also criticized the israeli government for what they did and he literlly beat me up punched me 4 times that left a nasty bruise . It was as a lesson so I don't talk bad about zionists and jews. The family in the US all heard rumors I went crazy after my car accident . This is just a few of my family btw . I'm literally known as the crazy person in the family . What's the best revenge on these retards? , I cant just move out, I'm not homeless because of them but I'm acting out every day because they keep calling me crazy. We are a Muslim family full of fucking Zionists, how sad is that. I lost most of my friends after learning about my psychosis so I literally have no one but idgaf I don't need anyone . I like the solitary life but how long can I keep this up before truly going insane.
 
Let me give you a run down of my family. Oldest sister drinks starbucks and directly supports genocidal zionists . The one younger sister than me called the police on me 3 times after my accident. I truly believe if it werent for her , I wouldn't have crossed paths with psychiatry. The one younger than her is a die hard zionist whore who calls me mentally ill every other day and actually said I would better off dead for the family. I got a retard 18 year old brother who actually tried to kill himself 3 years ago. I was perfectly normal before this no mental illness , hardly any marijuana usage but after what he did, I became known as "Mentally ill". My mother thinks im crazy. My dad yelled at me the other day for stopping my antipsychotic. My oldest half brother called me crazy cuz i just kept ranting and ranting about psychiatry. I also criticized the israeli government for what they did and he literlly beat me up punched me 4 times that left a nasty bruise . It was as a lesson so I don't talk bad about zionists and jews. The family in the US all heard rumors I went crazy after my car accident . This is just a few of my family btw . I'm literally known as the crazy person in the family . What's the best revenge on these retards? , I cant just move out, I'm not homeless because of them but I'm acting out every day because they keep calling me crazy. We are a Muslim family full of fucking Zionists, how sad is that. I lost most of my friends after learning about my psychosis so I literally have no one but idgaf I don't need anyone . I like the solitary life but how long can I keep this up before truly going insane.

Please dont use the r word thanks.

Your family is Muslim but they support zionists? Thats pretty fucked up. Noone in my family even my boomer parents supports israel. Fuck israel right off.

It does not sound like you are living in a healthy environment. However i would knock off the ranting and raving as thats not going to help anyone. Maybe focus on getting out of there?

The best revenge on these people is also living well. Your in Canada as well right? I would tell you to try and get your own place but as im living in Canada as well (Newfoundland actually) i also know thats pretty much impossible these days. Rent prices are insane, I would try to ignore them as much as possible. If i where you i would also focus on getting in shape. It will not only give you something to do but will also boost your self esteem alot. Last summer was the first summer in ages that i felt ok with going around with no shirt on. For the first time in ages not only was i in shape but also acne free. Now im in alot better shape then i was then even when i was 20.

Generally overall i have found the best revenge is no doubt living well. I had PTSD from getting thrown in solitary and to be honest i wanted to kill the cunts that threw me in there. However instead of letting the hate eat me up i decided to live me life fully and do all the thins that i want to do. Having a good time is the best revenge imo. Those cunt security guards at the hospital and my cunt shrink that i had are probably still working in that psych ward and getting beat up by people who get their meds taken on them. Meanwhile im home smoking weed and lifting weights or tripping
 
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Let me give you a run down of my family. Oldest sister drinks starbucks and directly supports genocidal zionists . The one younger sister than me called the police on me 3 times after my accident. I truly believe if it werent for her , I wouldn't have crossed paths with psychiatry. The one younger than her is a die hard zionist whore who calls me mentally ill every other day and actually said I would better off dead for the family. I got a retard 18 year old brother who actually tried to kill himself 3 years ago. I was perfectly normal before this no mental illness , hardly any marijuana usage but after what he did, I became known as "Mentally ill". My mother thinks im crazy. My dad yelled at me the other day for stopping my antipsychotic. My oldest half brother called me crazy cuz i just kept ranting and ranting about psychiatry. I also criticized the israeli government for what they did and he literlly beat me up punched me 4 times that left a nasty bruise . It was as a lesson so I don't talk bad about zionists and jews. The family in the US all heard rumors I went crazy after my car accident . This is just a few of my family btw . I'm literally known as the crazy person in the family . What's the best revenge on these retards? , I cant just move out, I'm not homeless because of them but I'm acting out every day because they keep calling me crazy. We are a Muslim family full of fucking Zionists, how sad is that. I lost most of my friends after learning about my psychosis so I literally have no one but idgaf I don't need anyone . I like the solitary life but how long can I keep this up before truly going insane.

The place i most want to visit though is Australia. I wanna move there if i ever get the chance. If i ever get the money i wanna get a house in the outback and grow my own weed and opium. Being locked up in the psych ward and seeing the worst of people really makes me hate western society even more. I dont want to be a part of a society that treats its most vulnerable the way ive seen them be treated. I just want to live in the outback away from western society.
 
The place i most want to visit though is Australia. I wanna move there if i ever get the chance. If i ever get the money i wanna get a house in the outback and grow my own weed and opium. Being locked up in the psych ward and seeing the worst of people really makes me hate western society even more. I dont want to be a part of a society that treats its most vulnerable the way ive seen them be treated. I just want to live in the outback away from western society.
Sorry can’t, we just had mass immigration of Indians, no more room for deserving people like you and tony.

That’s what I do. I live on my back porch with the kookaburras, possums, owls, foxes, kangaroos, birds. They ask for food, I feed them, they go on their way. The animals can’t talk but we communicate, they come to show me thier new babies when they have them.

Does something to you, you know. To watch how the animals live. To realise how stupid humans have become not connected to the earth and what we are designed to do.
 
Sorry can’t, we just had mass immigration of Indians, no more room for deserving people like you and tony.

That’s what I do. I live on my back porch with the kookaburras, possums, owls, foxes, kangaroos, birds. They ask for food, I feed them, they go on their way. The animals can’t talk but we communicate, they come to show me thier new babies when they have them.

Does something to you, you know. To watch how the animals live. To realise how stupid humans have become not connected to the earth and what we are designed to do.

What do Indians going to Australia have to do with anything? It's hard to get into Australia because of policies that have been in place for ages.
 
Yeah disabled and dumb.

Yeah the moment I got shot up I couldn’t cry anymore and I couldn’t laugh.

Like sometimes I’d end my crying sessions in laughter due to how much pain I was in. It’s a weird thing but I could laugh at my pain.

I could also laugh at my anger reactions afterwards.

Like laughing crying. Has anyone ever done that? I dunno
I would laugh more easily after crying a lot. I thjnk I'm still like that.
 
I would laugh more easily after crying a lot. I thjnk I'm still like that.

My best friend is from Australia she lives in Adelaide. I have never once heard her say anything bad about Indians and ive know her for almost 20 years. Come to think of it none of my other friends from there have ever said anything about Indians either.

Racism is merely a divide and conquer tactic of the bourgeois to keep the working class from uniting.

Mind you this is a discussion for the politics forum not here
 
My best friend is from Australia she lives in Adelaide. I have never once heard her say anything bad about Indians and ive know her for almost 20 years. Come to think of it none of my other friends from there have ever said anything about Indians either.

Racism is merely a divide and conquer tactic of the bourgeois to keep the working class from uniting.

Mind you this is a discussion for the politics forum not here
You don’t live here. You can’t speak on the matter.

Participates in political discussion, gives view point, then says not here. Ok moderator use your powers.
 
You don’t live here. You can’t speak on the matter.

Participates in political discussion, gives view point, then says not here. Ok moderator use your powers.

I dont have to live there to know stuff abut your country. For example i know that most people from your country thankfully dont hold the same views on immigrants that you do. If they did i wouldnt want to move there. My friend has friends in Adelaide who came from all kinds of places Asia, Africa the middle east etc. Your view points on people from India sound no different then people in Canada banging on about all the immigrants taking our jobs.
 
Guys looks like I’m homeless fought my family again cuz they are hiding the car keys from me . I’m sleeping outside I can’t live with abusers and zionists I’m not fucking allowing it . Never been homeless before and it will be -30 today .its okay I’ll figure it out .
 
Guys looks like I’m homeless fought my family again cuz they are hiding the car keys from me . I’m sleeping outside I can’t live with abusers and zionists I’m not fucking allowing it . Never been homeless before and it will be -30 today .its okay I’ll figure it out .

Just a thought here but maybe stop fighting your family? You may not agree with everything that your family is a fan of such as zionism but you dont have to be fighting them all the time either. Is it your car keys they are hiding?

Dude you cannot sleep outside in -30c weather your ass is gonna die if you do. It's hard to stay outside in that kind of weather 5 minutes never mind all night. Maybe take a more diplomatic approach to your families views? Just suck it up, maybe abit you freaked out and then maybe you wont be outside freezing to death
 
I dont have to live there to know stuff abut your country. For example i know that most people from your country thankfully dont hold the same views on immigrants that you do. If they did i wouldnt want to move there. My friend has friends in Adelaide who came from all kinds of places Asia, Africa the middle east etc. Your view points on people from India sound no different then people in Canada banging on about all the immigrants taking our jobs.
Your opinion means shit to me and life here in Aus
 
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