Yeah, invega makes you feel that way. At least when you're overmedicated on it. You are very likely to go back to normal.
That's incredible. How do you know so much about this drug and its effects? Are you just a patient like me, or have you acquired some advanced knowledge concerning this subject somewhere or somehow?
They only got me with one loading dose (invega-sustenna), and were begging me to take another shot the next day, and I held myself back from really telling them off. But that one shot destroyed my life for over a year. I couldn't feel anything. I didn't want to do anything, none of the things I enjoyed before the shot were enjoyable. (anhedonia I think) Libido was dead. My appetite suffered. I lost muscle mass. My breathing became irregular. My muscles were fatigued constantly. I stopped dreaming. I didn't even want to try to meet any new women or anything like that. I didn't want to see my friends. I couldn't even smoke some weed to alleviate the symptoms, all I felt was paranoia after trying to smoke. (this is an entirely different issue altogether IMHO, the medical marijuana that people are getting over here is causing all sorts of issues, and I know for a fact that I am not the only one who cannot smoke anymore bc of how they have modified the weed) My response to all of my medications changed. They weren't able to help as much as they were before.
All I could think about was how horrible I was feeling day-to-day, and how messed up it was that medical professionals actually think that this stuff will help people. I've lost all confidence in the psychiatric community because of that one injection. I actually can't believe that its been 3 years since it happened to me. (but I did just check my medical records to be sure. Also I am glad that I was taking notes while hospitalized, so I'm able to pinpoint when it happened) I see all of the people I know who havn't been subjected to this horrible treatment living their daily lives like normal, and all i could feel is jealousy, but I am glad that they have not been subjected to whatever this chemical is. It seems like it is straight-up poison to me. I've been on many different medications since I was 15 years old, and I can't even refer to this stuff as a medication. I've been more than twice as depressed as i was beforehand.
You said that this is how we feel when we're overmedicated on it. (I agree) That's a sickening thought because I only received one dose, but I suppose I was overmedicated on it. I actually fell and hit my head after getting this shot when I was hospitalized. My knees buckeled when I was in my room the week after I got injected, and I landed right on my forehead. I couldn't even talk correctly, (severe stuttering, and the words just would NOT come out) so I couldn't even voice my concerns to the doctors who were caring for me. I'm sure that there's more stuff that I am missing when it comes to my story, but I didn't even want to try to journal or take notes when it came to my daily condition. I finally feel like I'm waking up after 3 years, in a marked way. The first year or so was the worst.
Remember that these injections are Intra-muscular. The medication ends up lodged inside our muscles, and then the poison is released very slowly over a long period of time. This is why I urge people to hang in there, because it is going to take time, and the recovery process is a slow one. Force yourself to eat properly, try and get some exercise even if it is just walking. Try and stay away from alcohol or any other substances that may make your body feel worse. Also remember that this stuff is getting into the brain, and when it comes to healing and the brain, things take much longer to balance out. Also please don't hurt yourselves over this situation. There's a very good chance that you may end up back in a hospital, and be forced to take more of this stuff or something else just like it.
Try and be grateful (I am very grateful) that there is a place like bluelight where we can come and vent about these things, and there are others out there who are suffering in the same way to support us. I still can't believe how much damage this crap has done, and I really feel for everybody here. If anyone wants to talk in a more personal way about what has happened to them, please DM me. I'm doing my best to get online here at least every few days to see how people are doing, especially since we lost Nurse Ratched.
Keep your head up and stay strong! Don't let this stuff beat you!
