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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Life feels like a curse really unending consciousness. Destined to die painfully. In fear of what comes next.

I'm really scared for my future after all of this. I wish I had a gun in Australia I would be able to end my life easily.
 
IOSIP said:
What's the dumbest thing yall did during your psychosis?
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I gave away all my clothes, phone, money to strangers, thinking my home is a mountain.

Begging for food in the street, and bowing to people.
 
wbga said:
I gave away all my clothes, phone, money to strangers, thinking my home is a mountain.

Begging for food in the street, and bowing to people.
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Ahahahahaha this makes me laugh. I think i did worse.
 
wbga said:
I gave away all my clothes, phone, money to strangers, thinking my home is a mountain.

Begging for food in the street, and bowing to people.
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Nah sorry that's kinda fucked. God damn aye. It's so fucked when you realise you're absolutely off your head. I was driving at one point around random places. I pulled up at a park and started screaming some speech to nobody in the middle of an oval. I took my shirt off. People were watching me. I went into shops and tried to steal things because I thought I was a God. So I just thought I could take stuff. Security stopped me. I did lots of other dumb things for days I believe until I got into hospital
 
I think if I'm got court ordered the injections for a year I would definitely kill myself thats such a scary prospect.
 
IOSIP said:
Nah sorry that's kinda fucked. God damn aye. It's so fucked when you realise you're absolutely off your head. I was driving at one point around random places. I pulled up at a park and started screaming some speech to nobody in the middle of an oval. I took my shirt off. People were watching me. I went into shops and tried to steal things because I thought I was a God. So I just thought I could take stuff. Security stopped me. I did lots of other dumb things for days I believe until I got into hospital
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Worst thing is I developed alien hand syndrome which I still have.

It's a totally different consciousness that even created a total story, even possible to manipulating my dream images.

Basically I could talk with myself by texting each other.
 
wbga said:
Worst thing is I developed alien hand syndrome which I still have.

It's a totally different consciousness that even created a total story, even possible to manipulating my dream images.

Basically I could talk with myself by texting each other.
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Dude what the fuck? That's very strange. I had to google it. You have this still?
 
IOSIP said:
Dude what the fuck? That's very strange. I had to google it. You have this still?
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It seems it is able to control part of my brain which I have no access to.

It has abilities that I don't have. I think it is more connected to right hemisphere.

It is not only hands that it can control, but whole body.

But unlike people's belief, it can control me only when I let them control over my body.
 
wbga said:
It seems it is able to control part of my brain which I have no access to.

It has abilities that I don't have. I think it is more connected to right hemisphere.

It is not only hands that it can control, but whole body.

But unlike people's belief, it can control me only when I let them control over my body.
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I feel lucky at this stage I only have the anhedonia is feel like eventually I will make a full recovery. Just got other things to worry about though.
 
Yes you are lucky so lucky compared to me.

It is like I am renting my body to a stranger.

You will not want to feel this.
 
wbga said:
It seems it is able to control part of my brain which I have no access to.

It has abilities that I don't have. I think it is more connected to right hemisphere.

It is not only hands that it can control, but whole body.

But unlike people's belief, it can control me only when I let them control over my body.
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I honestly believe in inter dimensional beings which need access to our 3D vessel
 
It is actually worse than you can ever imagine.

So I actually have to include my body to the list that I lost during psychosis.

There is nothing I can do about this, other than being grateful of what I have left.
 
wbga said:
It is actually worse than you can ever imagine.

So I actually have to include my body to the list that I lost during psychosis.

There is nothing I can do about this, other than being grateful of what I have left.
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You should complain more about it. This is a safe space. You poor bustard. I can only relate it to my akathisia which was as I've said pure hell on earth. Like I had no control over my movements.
 
Actually there is nobody who can understand this feeling lol.

It is impossible subject that I can't convey with words.

Simply put, I just really want to die and leave this body.

This body is fucked up already.
 
This medication is a sick joke. I know pyschosis is serious. But God i wish they had a clue the damage they were doing to people with this shit. I couldn't ever work in a mental health ward and inject anyone with this poison with a good conscience
 
wbga said:
Actually there is nobody who can understand this feeling lol.

It is impossible subject that I can't convey with words.

Simply put, I just really want to die and leave this body.

This body is fucked up already.
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Hang in there. Your usually the positive one around here. Sorry to hear your going through it.
 
Society just judges us as insane. Meanwhile they've done harm to us with the "medcine" cough cough poison.
 
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