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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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InvegaAnon said:
Once I got high and it felt almost exactly as before, but it was less hallucinatory (textured/patterned surfaces got wavy and sometimes I heard things, color got a little more saturated, I have been told weed isn't supposed to do that and it never did before I took shrooms, which was pretty early in my stoner career but I never had psychosis or severe paranoia from weed), but I kept smoking for like two weeks and it stopped working as well. So it does come back for most people. I have the complication of PSSD in addition to invega aftereffects, and it's hard to tell which is which or if they're somehow one in the same and Prozac just amplified and prolonged the effects of Invega.
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I had the same thing where the high came back and then went away again. It’s so frustrating.
 
I am spending my first Christmas with emotions since 2022. I am extremely grateful. I have come a very long way, to heal from that wickedness feels like I’ve hit the mega millions in life. I get to eat Christmas cookies with my eight month old granddaughter, she’ll be nine months in a few days. 😊
 
Kiaf85 said:
I am spending my first Christmas with emotions since 2022. I am extremely grateful. I have come a very long way, to heal from that wickedness feels like I’ve hit the mega millions in life. I get to eat Christmas cookies with my eight month old granddaughter, she’ll be nine months in a few days. 😊
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so happy for you
 
i get this weird pain in my head every other day it’s like sharp and then it goes away

it’s like nothing serious i think but i wanna know why
 
iraistired said:
i get this weird pain in my head every other day it’s like sharp and then it goes away

it’s like nothing serious i think but i wanna know why
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ik people who have what your describing and they have never had antipsychotics. Also I just finished reading version 8 and saw your comments on there, when was your last injection and are you on any medication currently ?
 
Everyday is getting harder not easier guys. The thoughts of suicide are near constant. The akathisia near constant. The anxiety is unrelenting.

It's been about 1.5 months. Someone tell me it gets easier please i really need to hear it today.

I do nothing all day, i listen to white noise all day every day. I try to sleep it off. But I've run low on seroquel.

I am extremely worried guys.
 
IOSIP said:
Everyday is getting harder not easier guys. The thoughts of suicide are near constant. The akathisia near constant. The anxiety is unrelenting.

It's been about 1.5 months. Someone tell me it gets easier please i really need to hear it today.

I do nothing all day, i listen to white noise all day every day. I try to sleep it off. But I've run low on seroquel.

I am extremely worried guys.
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It definitely gets easier which eventually leads to full recovery. It was super tough for the first few months for me I couldn't do shit but lay in bed and stare at walls. Had 0 energy to even use my computer . It's been 10 month and I can definitely do alot more. I can use my computer to play games, watch endless videos and use reddit , listen to music, go for walks you name it. While yes im still not at full recovery its way better than 10 months ago. I'm just missing reward, pleasure , dopamine, motivation and my brain doesnt work as well.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
It definitely gets easier which eventually leads to full recovery. It was super tough for the first few months for me I couldn't do shit but lay in bed and stare at walls. Had 0 energy to even use my computer . It's been 10 month and I can definitely do alot more. I can use my computer to play games, watch endless videos and use reddit , listen to music, go for walks you name it. While yes im still not at full recovery its way better than 10 months ago. I'm just missing reward, pleasure , dopamine, motivation and my brain doesnt work as well.
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Your struggles still seem so real though, surely some of those things like dopamine have improved at least a little for you to be able to play games etc. And focus attention on videos.
 
It's Christmas day I'm alone because inevga had me me so fucked up I can't even be around other people. I can't even speak to people i have nothing to say the words just don't come to me.

I'm really worried I might follow through with killing myself, it's a nightmare I can't wake up from. Sleep only halts the nightmare momentarily before I wake and get to do it all over again.
 
How many people kill themselves after getting this shit i wonder? I bet it's not a small number. Yes I was completely delusional but did i deserve this un ending nightmare I'm now left with.
 
IOSIP said:
Your struggles still seem so real though, surely some of those things like dopamine have improved at least a little for you to be able to play games etc. And focus attention on videos.
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I dont get any enjoyement out of these things , i just do them to pass time. Before invega they would give me alot of dopamine and id feel a rush , dopamine and pleasure doing them but you gotta keep in mind that i had 10 invega shots as per my signature, 3 haldol 5mg shots and 2 weeks worth of olanzapine. I fucked up my brain receptors but maybe theyre just now starting to heal.

IOSIP said:
I'm really worried I might follow through with killing myself, it's a nightmare I can't wake up from. Sleep only halts the nightmare momentarily before I wake and get to do it all over again.
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Killing yourself without fighting this for a few years is pretty idiotic and a tragedy. Look at bojana, she had 2 sustenna and 2 trinzas and killed herself for what. If she held on for another 2 years she would have without a doubt healed. Now look at her kids spending this christmas and every christmas in the future without their mother , its just so sad.

IOSIP said:
How many people kill themselves after getting this shit i wonder? I bet it's not a small number. Yes I was completely delusional but did i deserve this un ending nightmare I'm now left with.
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We will never know the real numbers because their suicide will be blamed on the illness they may or may not have had. On this site id estimate atleast 5-6 suicides from invega, many accounts dont even log in ever again so we will never know how many departed.
 
Thank god I have currently got a father well enough and financially stable enough to support me. Can't even fathom where I would be without him. I can't even fathom ever being able to work again at this point either
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
I dont get any enjoyement out of these things , i just do them to pass time. Before invega they would give me alot of dopamine and id feel a rush , dopamine and pleasure doing them but you gotta keep in mind that i had 10 invega shots as per my signature, 3 haldol 5mg shots and 2 weeks worth of olanzapine. I fucked up my brain receptors but maybe theyre just now starting to heal.



Killing yourself without fighting this for a few years is pretty idiotic and a tragedy. Look at bojana, she had 2 sustenna and 2 trinzas and killed herself for what. If she held on for another 2 years she would have without a doubt healed. Now look at her kids spending this christmas and every christmas in the future without their mother , its just so sad.


We will never know the real numbers because their suicide will be blamed on the illness they may or may not have had. On this site id estimate atleast 5-6 suicides from invega, many accounts dont even log in ever again so we will never know how many departed.
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Yeah exactly, bojana is a rare case where you get the data. But imagine how many people just do it and you never hear from them again.

Thanks for your replies i appreciate it. My anxiety is so crippling and the akathisia so constant 😫 I really can't seee a future for myself.

Everyday I wake up the pacing commences its a sick joke
 
IOSIP said:
Thanks for your replies i appreciate it. My anxiety is so crippling and the akathisia so constant 😫 I really can't seee a future for myself.

Everyday I wake up the pacing commences its a sick joke
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Get off the seroquel if you don't need it. Obviously if you suffer from hallucinations there are better medications you can take. I heard low dose abilify or clozapine dont even have side effects but I recommend nothing . Luckily there are lots of good medications to help with anxiety and akathisia so just look around.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
Get off the seroquel if you don't need it. Obviously if you suffer from hallucinations there are better medications you can take. I heard low dose abilify or clozapine dont even have side effects but I recommend nothing . Luckily there are lots of good medications to help with anxiety and akathisia so just look around.
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I need the seroquel im desperate for the seroquel tmits keeping me alive at this point. I can't get prescribed any medication that's the problem they are treating me as high risk of drug abuse. I'm so fucked. I dont understand how y'all out here functioning without some mother medications cos I'm barely hanging on by a thread.

If I just stop posting know that I probably killed myself
 
IOSIP said:
I need the seroquel im desperate for the seroquel tmits keeping me alive at this point. I can't get prescribed any medication that's the problem they are treating me as high risk of drug abuse. I'm so fucked. I dont understand how y'all out here functioning without some mother medications cos I'm barely hanging on by a thread.

If I just stop posting know that I probably killed myself
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If it helps you then def stay on it. Personally I never want to take another antipsychotic after invega. I did try wellbutrin to help with the anhedonia but I stopped it due to the terrible tinnitus.

Don't kill yourself because no one knows whats waiting for us on the other end. If you've decided one night that you will 100% kill yourself just check yourself into a hospital and get help . Something I wish bojana and the others on here did . Imagine they got some help at the very end instead of going through with it.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
If it helps you then def stay on it. Personally I never want to take another antipsychotic after invega. I did try wellbutrin to help with the anhedonia but I stopped it due to the terrible tinnitus.

Don't kill yourself because no one knows whats waiting for us on the other end. If you've decided one night that you will 100% kill yourself just check yourself into a hospital and get help . Something I wish bojana and the others on here did . Imagine they got some help at the very end instead of going through with it.
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What help can they even offer me at this point. They are not offering me much support through the community medical centre.

No we don't know what waiting for us. Hopefully nothing. Hopefully a long unending rest.
 
IOSIP said:
What help can they even offer me at this point. They are not offering me much support through the community medical centre.

No we don't know what waiting for us. Hopefully nothing. Hopefully a long unending rest.
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They expedite some services that could help and would otherwise have a very long waitlist. They may give antidepressants . Not sure , ive never admitted myself to hospital for being suicidal . Only time i was ever suicidal was few days after my invega injections . That went away though.

As for whats awaiting for us on the other side. Everyone who is suicidal or have already commited suicide wants there to be nothing just an infinite sleep. I'm not even suicidal and I want that but I will never be foolish enough to risk it because there is a chance that there is a never ending punishment or torment even if that chance is 0.0000000000000001% its still possible.
 
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