helpingout
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 16, 2024
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What if I don’t want to grow, or change, or talk about my feelings, or even have them?
What if I hate everything?
What if existence is great for some people but I’m not one of them?
What if all the people I’ve loved are dead dying ghosted or far away and I’m newly sober and don’t have a support system / think NA people are cult memebers, and notice that my presence in recovery groups spurns people to relapse?
What if I’m socially awkward and people don’t like being around me?
What if I don’t want to be accountable to failing at sobriety so I just don’t tell any one I’m sober and do it with no support?
What if I kicked heroin on my own, hid my habit, and now am trying to get my life together and failing?
What if I’m not getting better?
What if I’m getting worse?
What if I don’t want to fail more than I want to try?
What if I hate?
What if I’m angry?
What if i hate humanity because humanity has turned its back on me?
What if I forgive humanity but humans continue to treat me the same way?
What if I’m not capable of forgiveness?
What if I’m a failure?
What if I lose the people I love?
What if all my friends are dead except one whose far away?
What if my failures are my own fault?
What if my addiction to drugs has been my own fault?
What if I don’t want to cope?
What if I don’t want to get better?
What if I don’t want to get worse?
What if my family has been cursed?
What if I’m right?
What if I’m wrong?
What if I should learn to stop worrying and love the bomb?
What if I hate everything?
What if existence is great for some people but I’m not one of them?
What if all the people I’ve loved are dead dying ghosted or far away and I’m newly sober and don’t have a support system / think NA people are cult memebers, and notice that my presence in recovery groups spurns people to relapse?
What if I’m socially awkward and people don’t like being around me?
What if I don’t want to be accountable to failing at sobriety so I just don’t tell any one I’m sober and do it with no support?
What if I kicked heroin on my own, hid my habit, and now am trying to get my life together and failing?
What if I’m not getting better?
What if I’m getting worse?
What if I don’t want to fail more than I want to try?
What if I hate?
What if I’m angry?
What if i hate humanity because humanity has turned its back on me?
What if I forgive humanity but humans continue to treat me the same way?
What if I’m not capable of forgiveness?
What if I’m a failure?
What if I lose the people I love?
What if all my friends are dead except one whose far away?
What if my failures are my own fault?
What if my addiction to drugs has been my own fault?
What if I don’t want to cope?
What if I don’t want to get better?
What if I don’t want to get worse?
What if my family has been cursed?
What if I’m right?
What if I’m wrong?
What if I should learn to stop worrying and love the bomb?