I completely understand. I have always had a hard time with relationships because of my health issues. It's really hard to be with someone when you never know how they will feel on a day to day basis. I've gotten to the point where I was so sick of cancelling plans last minute that I rarely make them anymore. I've lost friends because of it.
On the other hand I will say that I've had some successful relationships. The last one was 6 years. I had another 6 year relationship when I was younger. What you say about your boyfriend kinda reminds me of that one. I was isolated, never physically touched, but mentally and emotionally abused to the point where it broke me. It literally broke me. I always say we were together for 5 years too long. He would tell me things like no one liked me, I would die alone, and stupid stuff like that. But when that's all you hear, you almost start to believe it. I finally got up enough strength and nerve to leave him. I had 2 kids with him who were 5 and 3 at the time. I've never been so terrified in my life. I had never lived on my own before and now I had to do it in a place where I had no support, and with 2 kids to take care of.
That was probably the best thing I ever did. Do you have a support system there? Parents, friends, anyone to talk to other than him? Like I said before I know with venting, we're only getting the negative and I'm sure there's a reason you stay with him. I hope he also makes you happy, not just stressed and feeling like you aren't good enough. I would just be careful. Think about how you feel the most of the time. How much of your relationship is affecting your health? Like do your seizures come on during tense moments with him? Do you feel like you're walking on eggshells most of the time? I mean no one can tell you what to do, but if your answer was yes, maybe think long and hard about how at risk you're putting yourself.
