Anxiety Can't My Anxiety Just Stop???

[I'm-Still-Alive]

Good fucking lord man, my anxiety has been running my life today. 6 mg of Klonopin later and I still am an anxious fucking mess. I keep snapping at my boyfriend. I've been crying like a stupid bitch. I'm just so fucking anxious, so fucking depressed. Which sucks, because the last two days have been great. Why can't I have another good day? I've been trying to distract myself, trying to do other things. Clear my mind. Nothing's working. I feel so useless. I want to just cry. Why is it so bad today??? What is this?

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

Ouch

You have anyone to talk to? I think that if you apologize to your boyfriend and it doesn't happen too often then that could help. Confiding in him too.

Do you take any other meds? I know SSRIs can be good for anxiety and some of the things you're expressing.

I have tons of coping mechanisms for feeling negative, and they really do help me.

You're worth it!

 

[Jabberwocky]

I feel you, i really do. It will get better, just hang in there

 

[kongoman]

Ouch

You have anyone to talk to? I think that if you apologize to your boyfriend and it doesn't happen too often then that could help. Confiding in him too.

Do you take any other meds? I know SSRIs can be good for anxiety and some of the things you're expressing.

I have tons of coping mechanisms for feeling negative, and they really do help me.

You're worth it!

What coping mechanism do you have If I may ask?

Good fucking lord man, my anxiety has been running my life today. 6 mg of Klonopin later and I still am an anxious fucking mess. I keep snapping at my boyfriend. I've been crying like a stupid bitch. I'm just so fucking anxious, so fucking depressed. Which sucks, because the last two days have been great. Why can't I have another good day? I've been trying to distract myself, trying to do other things. Clear my mind. Nothing's working. I feel so useless. I want to just cry. Why is it so bad today??? What is this?

This might be depression as you probably knows. But like @Isavela says that will change. Accept that there is a difficult time its the best you can do, I told you. I know its difficult but you can do it. Your brain chemistry is probably fucked up and its very slow to equilibrate it.
Im sorry that you feel like that. I know very well what is it.
Write the times you need. We are here to help each others.
Love

 

[AlphaMethylPhenyl]

What coping mechanism do you have If I may ask?

I run a few miles per day. I have cats to pet. I have friends from therapy programs to lean on. Have a wonderful father to talk to. Reading. Music. Cleaning. Always something to do!

 

[kongoman]

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I run a few miles per day. I have cats to pet. I have friends from therapy programs to lean on. Have a wonderful father to talk to. Reading. Music. Cleaning. Always something to do!

K thanks!! Really difficult things to do when depressed unless pets and probably music. When I was depressed I didnt listen to music. It was horrible

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

Ouch

You have anyone to talk to? I think that if you apologize to your boyfriend and it doesn't happen too often then that could help. Confiding in him too.

Do you take any other meds? I know SSRIs can be good for anxiety and some of the things you're expressing.

I have tons of coping mechanisms for feeling negative, and they really do help me.

You're worth it!

I repeatedly apologized to him… he didn’t care. He just iced me out. SSRIs don’t do anything for me. I’m on Effexor, an SNRI. Not doing too much, but they just increased my dose. I just picked up Lunesta to help me sleep, and it did nothing. I got 0 sleep at all last night. I’m so depressed. I hate everything. I keep begging for a change in this relationship, going out and window shopping, going out to dinner once in a while, or letting me see friends… but… he doesn’t seem comfortable with that. He likes to video game. And hang out at home with me. And that’s it. I have my birds. I used to have a flute, but that got left behind at my old apartment that got condemned. I can’t even play music any more. I was so good. I was in a symphony. And now I can’t even use that as an escape. my heart hurts so much.

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

What coping mechanism do you have If I may ask?

This might be depression as you probably knows. But like @Isavela says that will change. Accept that there is a difficult time its the best you can do, I told you. I know its difficult but you can do it. Your brain chemistry is probably fucked up and its very slow to equilibrate it.
Im sorry that you feel like that. I know very well what is it.
Write the times you need. We are here to help each others.
Love

It's both depression and anxiety. And honestly, my PTSD. I've had a lot happen to me in my life... Unfortunately, I can't express everything to people, especially my boyfriend, because it will likely scare him away. I'm a failure and a fuck up. That's the gist of everything and I really just wish things could start to get better.

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

One of the hardest and longest lessons I've had to learn is that no amount of drugs will cure your anxiety.

No amount of chemical inebriation or chemical medication will stop you from needing to do the obvious: address your anxieties. Fix some problems. Survival. Untangle psychological knots.

Sometimes just taking a few hours to walk into the wilderness and just sit alone in silence is enough.

Sometimes you need a tangible break, a societal recess, the type of thing drugs and medication can't do.

I live in a city, and he won’t let me go for walks.

 

[I'm-Still-Alive]

Me too, there are parks.


Are you being abused or controlled? No wonder you have anxiety...

He doesn’t think it’s safe for me to walk anywhere… but won’t go on walks with me. I don’t think I’m being abused or controlled. I mean… he says he’s a bit controlling but it’s for my safety.