So I'd really appreciate some advice from some seasoned drunks on this one.
I was recently hospitalized for ascites and they told me I had alcoholic hepatitis and early stage liver chirrosis.
The doctor at the hospital told me the liver can still function and will eventually heal back. But that was one doctor that I never saw again. The others either straight up dodged my questions or told me something incredibly vague. My own doctor also continues to be useless. At this point I know better than to ask. Also she now refuses to prescribe me valium cause they caught me doing heroin at the hospital. She also refuses to prescribe me any serious pain medication for the mess ascites caused so I'm in constant pain. She came up with some bullshit reason for that too. But anyway.
So here I am, 43 days off of booze, confused, frustrated and in constant pain. And also missing booze. I tried smoking weed all day, still don't like it, I tried heroin, effective against pain but I feel like I don't really want to start using it unless there's no other option. I tried shrooms, still hate them, ketamine, still hate it. I literary feel nothing inside. No hope, no desperation, no joy, nothing except tired frustration at not being able to drink. I NEED it. Or at least I need to know when to be able to look forward to it again.
The thing is I'm scared shitless of ascites coming back and having to go back to the hospital cause the three weeks I spent in there were literal torture. But maybe that's a good thing. Maybe the fear will keep my drinking in moderation. I mean I used to drink more than half a gallon of hard liquor a day so what's a bottle or two every weekend, right? I'll be so fking si k of life if my drinking career ends at 26, that's fking crazy.
So please, if anyone has any (preferably first hand) info on the subject I'd greatly appreciate it.
I was recently hospitalized for ascites and they told me I had alcoholic hepatitis and early stage liver chirrosis.
The doctor at the hospital told me the liver can still function and will eventually heal back. But that was one doctor that I never saw again. The others either straight up dodged my questions or told me something incredibly vague. My own doctor also continues to be useless. At this point I know better than to ask. Also she now refuses to prescribe me valium cause they caught me doing heroin at the hospital. She also refuses to prescribe me any serious pain medication for the mess ascites caused so I'm in constant pain. She came up with some bullshit reason for that too. But anyway.
So here I am, 43 days off of booze, confused, frustrated and in constant pain. And also missing booze. I tried smoking weed all day, still don't like it, I tried heroin, effective against pain but I feel like I don't really want to start using it unless there's no other option. I tried shrooms, still hate them, ketamine, still hate it. I literary feel nothing inside. No hope, no desperation, no joy, nothing except tired frustration at not being able to drink. I NEED it. Or at least I need to know when to be able to look forward to it again.
The thing is I'm scared shitless of ascites coming back and having to go back to the hospital cause the three weeks I spent in there were literal torture. But maybe that's a good thing. Maybe the fear will keep my drinking in moderation. I mean I used to drink more than half a gallon of hard liquor a day so what's a bottle or two every weekend, right? I'll be so fking si k of life if my drinking career ends at 26, that's fking crazy.
So please, if anyone has any (preferably first hand) info on the subject I'd greatly appreciate it.