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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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I really don't understand why we let these psychiatrists get away with what they do. I am fuming at the person who did this to me. I was a successful business man and it was taken away from me. This is some third world slob that continues to hurt people. Unbelievable who lets people practice medicine.
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
is it a sign that most receptors arent blocked if thc 5 months off decent medium dose made me mildly euphoric ( used to be intense ) and made me laugh at everything, music sounded fire, i was feeling attracted to some girls and was very excited to go outside and try to talk to one, wanted to bike, video game was amazing, had a comfy nap, etc it made me feel 10x better, is this a good sign and does it mean most of my receptors arent blocked anymore, i have around the lowest dose of pill form still in my system so the injection is still in my system and my prolactin is still very high and low testosterone
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Hi there. I'm not a biochemist but I've tried reading as much research and mechanics about this as i can with a science background.

I know receptors are continuously cycling back into the cell and new ones are formed without the blocker. It's highly possible that you are just in the process of recovery and maybe you have an accelerated ability (youth and better neuro plasticity)?

If you want to learn about how this all works goto Wikipedia, look up the drug and check the table for receptor bindings - then input the receptor types into Wikipedia to read on what each one does.

This drug did depress a lot of people i knew for over a year due to suppression and possible shrinkage of the dopaminergic distribution system through the brain. I've witnessed a lot of decent recovery though and individuals attest to feeling back to normal.

I'm not sure if this helps, but feel free to ask further questions.

I'm just against the drug usage while in recovery due to the possibility of hampering the regenerative properties of the body with the over production of certain chemicals and the subsequent deficit that happens, it might throw off your system.
 
Ok so i BUSTED FUCKING ASS today on a hard hike and tgen i was like fuck it i have nothing better to do and did it twice.
When i got to the the top the second time i felt better than any drug. I was like shaking.
I have done this hike while on invega and it hasnt been this good yet.
Its not as good as it was pre invega tho, by far.
I feel like i def have my endorpgins at 100% but my dopamine is far from normal. So i get endorphin high but not dopamine high if that makes sense. I was able to listen to music like 70% of what it normally is.
Felt closeish to normal for like an hour after.
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
Ok so i BUSTED FUCKING ASS today on a hard hike and tgen i was like fuck it i have nothing better to do and did it twice.
When i got to the the top the second time i felt better than any drug. I was like shaking.
I have done this hike while on invega and it hasnt been this good yet.
Its not as good as it was pre invega tho, by far.
I feel like i def have my endorpgins at 100% but my dopamine is far from normal. So i get endorphin high but not dopamine high if that makes sense. I was able to listen to music like 70% of what it normally is.
Felt closeish to normal for like an hour after.
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hang in there your getting there and so am i i might go for a hike or run high soon i need to avoid any stupid mistakes during this time like doing harder drugs such as codeine which many friends use and may pressure me to use
 
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Hey guys just an update.

So I am 4 months off 9 months of pills and while I’m still suffering a lot I have noticed that my mind is finally able to think about topics and isn’t stuck on the same thought over and over again. Ironically pretty much all of my random, strange paranoias that I thought were residuals from my last psychosis almost immediately cleared up after stopping… these drugs are actually known to induce psychosis and make symptoms worse.

Anyway I am like 10% of my normal cognitive functioning but I do have to say that is actually an improvement compared to when on these drugs, when I went from being “extremely intelligent and sharp” (doctor’s notes) to barely being able to speak.

For me I am expecting a least a 2-year recovery or more, maybe 3 years, but I do want to maybe share some news that I have at least gotten some cognitive functioning back. I can laugh and cry now too, so that’s a plus, even though they’re both muted as compared to before.
 
I felt fear for the first time since I was injected with invega. I was always scared of being abducted by aliens or seeing them outside my window. I heard a weird noise while I was eating cheese from the bag at 3 AM, as you do. The motion lights on my house turned on and off, so I scampered back to my room after months of being unfazed by stuff like this. Yay?

On the PSSD front, I had a libido today and my orgasms came back again. My worst symptoms are still low genital sensation, clitoral ED and emotional blunting. Anhedonia and imagination are improving.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I felt fear for the first time since I was injected with invega. I was always scared of being abducted by aliens or seeing them outside my window. I heard a weird noise while I was eating cheese from the bag at 3 AM, as you do. The motion lights on my house turned on and off, so I scampered back to my room after months of being unfazed by stuff like this. Yay?

On the PSSD front, I had a libido today and my orgasms came back again. My worst symptoms are still low genital sensation, clitoral ED and emotional blunting. Anhedonia and imagination are improving.
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I’ve been following your recovery for a while. Glad to hear your imagination is improving!

Side note—I’ve also always had an irrational fear of alien abduction haha. Wonder where it comes from!

Hopefully your PSSD goes away soon. I’m also struggling.
 
LookingforHope1 said:
I’ve been following your recovery for a while. Glad to hear your imagination is improving!

Side note—I’ve also always had an irrational fear of alien abduction haha. Wonder where it comes from!

Hopefully your PSSD goes away soon. I’m also struggling.
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It might be sooner than I thought! Having improvements in the first six months is a really good sign from what people tell me. I should also say I caught covid and I really hope it doesn't fuck me up. I heard it can make PSSD worse and it did make me crash so hard I couldn't orgasm at all, which really upset me because anorgasmia is the one symptom I didn't have. But I got paxlovid and I've been doing great ever since.

It makes your mouth taste like you just chewed on grapefruit pith though.
 
So im 10 months off. I have some emotions, i can cry, lost weight, listen to some music. My main problem is 0 motivation, low energy and anhedonia. Also i have cognitive issues. Beddriden mostly.. When do you think it will go away? Im loosing hope
 
InvegaAnon said:
It might be sooner than I thought! Having improvements in the first six months is a really good sign from what people tell me. I should also say I caught covid and I really hope it doesn't fuck me up. I heard it can make PSSD worse and it did make me crash so hard I couldn't orgasm at all, which really upset me because anorgasmia is the one symptom I didn't have. But I got paxlovid and I've been doing great ever since.

It makes your mouth taste like you just chewed on grapefruit pith though.
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That’s great to hear! My friend who works in healthcare said same thing. I’m glad you’ve been doing well since on paxlovid. I had Covid for the first time this year too.

I read that you’re an illustrator and you’re working on getting your creativity back. I’m a professional writer and journalist and I need my writing back. Was wondering how you’d say your recovery is going with tour imagination and talent.

I had 9 months of pills for reference. Regret not spitting them out every day.
 
bojana said:
So im 10 months off. I have some emotions, i can cry, lost weight, listen to some music. My main problem is 0 motivation, low energy and anhedonia. Also i have cognitive issues. Beddriden mostly.. When do you think it will go away? Im loosing hope
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From what I hear it can take up to 4 years for some people.

It’s sickening and I feel cheated and robbed of my entire youth because of these people. If I ever make it out of this I’ll be the most passionate advocate for humane mental health treatments.
 
LookingforHope1 said:
From what I hear it can take up to 4 years for some people.

It’s sickening and I feel cheated and robbed of my entire youth because of these people. If I ever make it out of this I’ll be the most passionate advocate for humane mental health treatments.
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why do you say if i make it out?
 
Good morning everyone,happy christmas eve. I found somebody in mexico that has an incredible itinerary with stem cells and cath lab treatment. I would love to spend my Christmas time with my children. but right now I have to get better. They mean everything to me. And are one of the reasons why I'm still here. I am still with my kids though. God doesn't want to take me yet he knows I have bigger work to do here. I wish you all the love and safety. This isn't the journey I wanted to take with all of you, but unfortunately that's the path we are on. We are gonna get better.
 
cmf77 said:
Good morning everyone,happy christmas eve. I found somebody in mexico that has an incredible itinerary with stem cells and cath lab treatment. I would love to spend my Christmas time with my children. but right now I have to get better. They mean everything to me. And are one of the reasons why I'm still here. I am still with my kids though. God doesn't want to take me yet he knows I have bigger work to do here. I wish you all the love and safety. This isn't the journey I wanted to take with all of you, but unfortunately that's the path we are on. We are gonna get better.
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Let us know how it goes. Merry Christmas Eve.
 
I had a dream last night that my eye popped out… it was really graphic… in the dream though, it barely even phased me. I guess I’ve suffered so much through crazy shit that not a lot can anymore.
 
cmf77 said:
I really don't understand why we let these psychiatrists get away with what they do. I am fuming at the person who did this to me. I was a successful business man and it was taken away from me. This is some third world slob that continues to hurt people. Unbelievable who lets people practice medicine.
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Same for me. I had a great life and now I am mostly bedridden
 
Nina2021 said:
Same for me. I had a great life and now I am mostly bedridden
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I've been going out more and more. I'm still not attracted to any sex. It's criminal. I'm excited to start this hormone therapy but I shouldn't have to do this. For all the suffering that i've done, the person that should be paying is the scumbag, doctor. That's next on my list. I'm going to sue the piss out of them.I'm not done with this piece of shit. caused so much physical damage and chaos in my family.
 
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