Yup i had invega first in the psych ward 3 injections of it i don't know what dose and i don't even know if they told me as it was not strictly a voluntary thing either. I bitched about the side effects until they switched me to abilify which was just as bad. I had 18+ injectons of that. I stayed on it so long because i was afraid if i bitched to much about my meds id get throw in solitary or something. Even when i got on the outside i was afraid to bitch to much because i didnt trust my shrink but thankfully he turned ut to be a good guy and switched me to latuda. Fuck latuda goddamn akathesia is not fucking fun i do not recomend that antipsychotic either. Now im on oral olanzapine.
Do you have anhedonia still? How many injections did you have? I think all the weed i smoked during my recovery helped alot as it seems to help other people on here alot to. I strongely recomend it.
Don't kill yourself man. I had cotards syndrome in the psych ward and thought i was dead and goddamn being dead sucks balls. I thought i was in purgatory as the psych ward seemed ;like that. Either that or hell. You can't get high or rather you can but you get bitched at when they smell the weed smoke and threated with solitary but we smoked it anyway, cigs same as weed, can't very well have a beer unless you go outside, etc, etc. But being dead is basically like that anyway as you can't do anything when your dead.
Have you tried psychedelics or ketamine? If your getting really bad depression it would be worth it trying one of those options imo
