Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

[Orrin]

Hello I am new not sober but trying to avoid further disaster by letting my drugging go unchecked

 

[ageingpartyfiend]

Hello I am new not sober but trying to avoid further disaster by letting my drugging go unchecked

Sounds like the way forward mate, keep an eye on shit, less denial more reality eh

And welcome to BL

 

[tokayeahok]

getting ready for my date, sorta nervous but excited none the less. i hope she ends up liking me, honestly.

it’s a big deal for me, this date. and like i mentioned i really like her. took my medicine and will dose my kratom before i go so let’s hope all goes well

 

[Jnowhere]

Good luck

 

[tokayeahok]

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Good luck

thanks i’ll report back in a few hours

 

[tokayeahok]

just got home a few hours ago. still absolutely bubbling.

yeah i’m in love ha.

we’re a perfect match. her sister is in recovery from fentanyl and that gave me the perfect opportunity to open up and talk about my own struggles. she’s someone who wouldn’t leave if i had a lapse and that she would nurture and care for me regardless because she adores me for who i am, and that she understands it’s a disease and is hard sometimes. she’s someone i would want to be my most perfect self for and inherently do everything in my power to keep this. we listen to the same music, we both brought each other gifts without even knowing either of us were going to bring each other presents hehe. we went on a long walk down the park trail, sat and had starbucks that i got for us, and talked about everything. our parents, addiction medicine in the modern world. we talked about her weening babies off of opiates and i asked her how much one of her patients was weening off and she said the last one she did she pushed .03ml of morphine and that morphine is the gold standard for weening babies off. i found that interesting! we talked about chemistry and brain stuff. we talked about each other and how we both adore each other. she also smokes cigarettes LMAO i completely went into this thinking a NICU registered nurse would’ve judged me for me smoking, my addiction issues && that i still live at home with mum while i recover and she was COMPLETELY okay with all of it and said she wouldn’t ever think less of me and that she likes me for who i am. she’s a catch that’s for sure, and she’s got me hook line sinker.

thanks guys for all the good luck stuff. i’m so happy. you know that feeling when the oxytocin swarms every inch of your body and brain? that’s what i’m inherently experiencing. i forgot how this feels and i just wish i could hug her again.

i even got a kiss

 

[FatBellyWhipSlay]

So it's 5 am and I'm.wide awake.

Woke.up to terrible RAS/RLS in my arms and legs. It's a horrible burning aching feeling that won't go away! So I got up as was annoying the trouble and strife and she has work today.

I daren't say it but I actually may feel a little bit better today I think. Hope I haven't jinxed it now and will start feeling terrible again why my body wakes up.

I've cut down big time on my drinking only had 3 small beers yesterday...

I may even ring my doc and apologies to her for being a twat to her the other day when she wouldn't prescbribe me any RLS meds that could be addictive (I stupidly asked for some gabapentin or mild benzo and she just said no)

Also getting these weird but quite pleasant rushes up my spine and neck like I've had MDMA ( I haven't!) Have a good day everyone x

 

[Nas47]

fuck man...what a doctors are this?alcohol withdrawl is awful.i have seen it many times in comunes.hard drinkers from years on daily dose of 2litres whiskey without even a pill.they sweat,tremor and developed dystonia like symptoms ....convulsions and seizures even.Russian called it" Белая горяча"(belaya goryacha-white fever)....just like h addicts....and ok that is a comune.the rules are without any meds,tobaco...even aspirin in some places..but doc to deprive heavy drunkard from pills is a real crime for me.it could be even life threatening such cold turkey...normal to drink just a beer to calm down....that is unhuman.alcohol is beast no doubt.hold on my friend.....just trying......keep on goin and wish u luck!

 

[FatBellyWhipSlay]

fuck man...what a doctors are this?alcohol withdrawl is awful.i have seen it many times in comunes.hard drinkers from years on daily dose of 2litres whiskey without even a pill.they sweat,tremor and twisted like crazy.Russian called i" Белая горяча"(belaya goryacha-white fever)....just like h addicts....and ok that is a comune.the rules are without any meds,tobaco...even aspirin in some places..but doc to deprive heavy drunkard from pills is a real crime for me.it could be even life threatening such cold turkey...normal to drink just a beer to calm down....that is unhuman.alcohol is beast no doubt.hold on my friend.....just trying......keep on goin and wish u luck!

UK NHS doctors that are like 23 years old and dont have a clue and dont give a shit either, i looked into her eyes and she was scared of me, I am 50 years old and can tell when someone is scared cos they dont know what they are doing, shit she wouldnt even give me clonidine. Buprenorphine WD is HELL ON EARTH, I wish she would experience it maybe a different matter then...

even though ive stayed off opiates for 4 years and piss clean for that period they dont give a flying clusterfuck, just suffer man you got yourself into this... simple as, tossers fuck em all, ii hate CGL and I hate the my local NHS GP office

 

[Nas47]

ye i know got a lot of friends who live and work in UK.They told me-very hard to get prescription for benzos....but relatively more easy to get such for codeine pills.

 

[FatBellyWhipSlay]

yeah clonidine is a blood pressure med not a benzo, it helps with goosebumps, hot and cold flashes, muscle/joint pain, sleep

i wasnt even aggressive with her my wife was with me and we literally begged for help

yeah my GP got me hooked on pain pills for 10 years, thats why they are scared i think

 

[xaddictx]

yeah clonidine is a blood pressure med not a benzo, it helps with goosebumps, hot and cold flashes, muscle/joint pain, sleep

i wasnt even aggressive with her my wife was with me and we literally begged for help

yeah my GP got me hooked on pain pills for 10 years, thats why they are scared i think

Shit, when I was withdrawing from alcohol (vodka) they gave me a shit ton of Librium and sent me home with a script of Librium. The relief was wonderful to say the least. It also helped me with sleep. I have an occasional beer now along with kratom.

 

[tokayeahok]

So it's 5 am and I'm.wide awake.

Woke.up to terrible RAS/RLS in my arms and legs. It's a horrible burning aching feeling that won't go away! So I got up as was annoying the trouble and strife and she has work today.

I daren't say it but I actually may feel a little bit better today I think. Hope I haven't jinxed it now and will start feeling terrible again why my body wakes up.

I've cut down big time on my drinking only had 3 small beers yesterday...

I may even ring my doc and apologies to her for being a twat to her the other day when she wouldn't prescbribe me any RLS meds that could be addictive (I stupidly asked for some gabapentin or mild benzo and she just said no)

Also getting these weird but quite pleasant rushes up my spine and neck like I've had MDMA ( I haven't!) Have a good day everyone x

yeah man i’m like almost two months clean and i’m still only getting 6 1/2 hours of sleep or so and the RLS sometimes wakes me up

 

[tokayeahok]

good morning guys. just woke up, waiting on my morning morontin to kick in as well as my kratom, so just checking in my fav thread with my fav people.

got a message from said girl that made me a bit hesitant, she got hurt from a guy about a week before we started talking so she’s been healing from that for roughly a month. hurt people, hurt people. so it makes me a little sad but things are still going to continue, just at whatever pace she needs and that i’m here to help her heal in whatever capacity she needs


anyways, good morning fuckers. have a great day

 

[deficiT]

2 and a half months clean and sober now from anything and everything. Starting to sort of get back into a decent enough sleep pattern. Still oversleep a bit during the day and get tired and want to nap. The biggest thing for me now is just getting a job so that I can eventually get my license and car back, get back to normal life, at that point the world should open up for me a bit.

Detox, hospital, programs, etc. are good as they helped me onto the path, but I really just want to get to a point where I can have a normal life. It's been way too long for me and I'm frankly sick of institutional living. The past few years have been extremely difficult, the future is starting to shape up, I just need to be patient with it.

 

[kiely]

The past few years have been extremely difficult, the future is starting to shape up, I just need to be patient with it.

@deficiT
I am so glad that you are back and doing so amazing. You have really been through it all. You have been through so much and have been so strong. I am glad that you can be such a great example and are doing well with everything. I know you have been through a lot recently and I am so proud of you and you did find that strength somehow. More Blessings for You to keep staying strong.

 

[deficiT]

@deficiT
I am so glad that you are back and doing so amazing. You have really been through it all. You have been through so much and have been so strong. I am glad that you can be such a great example and are doing well with everything. I know you have been through a lot recently and I am so proud of you and you did find that strength somehow. More Blessings for You to keep staying strong.

Thank you kiely

 

[Jnowhere]

Shit, when I was withdrawing from alcohol (vodka) they gave me a shit ton of Librium and sent me home with a script of Librium. The relief was wonderful to say the least. It also helped me with sleep. I have an occasional beer now along with kratom.

XaddictX, I hope you can forgive I had a mini break down and I a sorry about what I said to you and about cats. I kind off lost it and was
Not myself for a few days. Rather not explain. I am truly sorry

 

[stardust10]

I'm doing well I think - other than my best friend being in hospital still with psychosis. However it as if it's inspired me which has led to some opportunities coming up which is nerve-wracking but also exciting and is a step in the right direction for possible career path. Only downside is i ended up drinking again after having 5 weeks dry. But I'll know for next time to be better prepared with alternatives. Started kickboxing - the training is tough and I'm also very interested in learning the techniques and so on - so I am hopeful this will be a good motivator the further I get into it. I've been taking care of myself more in general recently and my mindset is substantially different - for a while I was going off track. So yeah, I'm doing well all in all. Still no further forward with a good psychologist but I'm at least getting over losing my old one.

 

[Jnowhere]

Sobriety ain't easy; and I hope your best friend gets better. Good luck