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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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Dude if I can never enjoy music to the pre invega extent again life is def not worth living. Yes im that pathetic. Music was my life and honestly superpower. Idc if im fat lose and slow i mean i do care but damn i want music and coffee to be back. I hope my dna isnt fucked from epigenetics and i could get music back 100% i dont want 90%
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
Dude if I can never enjoy music to the pre invega extent again life is def not worth living. Yes im that pathetic. Music was my life and honestly superpower. Idc if im fat lose and slow i mean i do care but damn i want music and coffee to be back. I hope my dna isnt fucked from epigenetics and i could get music back 100% i dont want 90%
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your already improving so i think youll be fine
 
Depersonalization lifted a little today. I feel oxytocin a little more.

I don't feel like coming here anymore because PSSD messed up my recovery, big time. Recovering from invega is almost a guarantee, recovery from PSSD is unknown and possibly unlikely. I'll come back for sure if I ever get better from this, but I feel like I won't have much progress to report anymore, despite this little update.
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
Dude if I can never enjoy music to the pre invega extent again life is def not worth living. Yes im that pathetic. Music was my life and honestly superpower. Idc if im fat lose and slow i mean i do care but damn i want music and coffee to be back. I hope my dna isnt fucked from epigenetics and i could get music back 100% i dont want 90%
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I feel that way about sex. I was super sensitive and orgasmic, horny whenever I wanted to be. But like, idk, after experiencing PSSD I actually would settle for less. I have erogenous sensation that comes and goes, if that tiny bit could just stick around I could tolerate this better.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I feel that way about sex. I was super sensitive and orgasmic, horny whenever I wanted to be. But like, idk, after experiencing PSSD I actually would settle for less. I have erogenous sensation that comes and goes, if that tiny bit could just stick around I could tolerate this better.
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How many months are u?
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
Dude if I can never enjoy music to the pre invega extent again life is def not worth living. Yes im that pathetic. Music was my life and honestly superpower. Idc if im fat loose and slow i mean i do care but damn i want music and coffee to be back. I hope my dna isnt fucked from epigenetics and i could get music back 100% i dont want 90%
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I had love for music too
 
anybody scrolling through these threads have any recovery update or story to tell? Serhat just told his I’d like to hear someone new if anybody.
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
How many months are u?
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7 months off invega, 2.5 for PSSD symptoms. I'm dealing with an entirely different animal now. I'm probably going to stop posting here soon since PSSD is now my main problem. I was going to recover sexually no problem but Invega made my OCD so bad I jeopardized my most important relationship so I went on Prozac. :/

OCD is less bad now but at what cost?
 
InvegaAnon said:
7 months off invega, 2.5 for PSSD symptoms. I'm dealing with an entirely different animal now. I'm probably going to stop posting here soon since PSSD is now my main problem. I was going to recover sexually no problem but Invega made my OCD so bad I jeopardized my most important relationship so I went on Prozac. :/

OCD is less bad now but at what cost?
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So did you recover from other symptoms like adnhonia and do you think your dopamine and serotonin receptors are recovered ? Like can you enjoy music etc
 
sorry if this is tmi but since like a month ago like every other night i get the urge in the middle of the night and many times the urge is strong if i wake up with a boner to hump the bed and i do hump the bed but stop after a few minutes because it doesnt fucking feel good which sucks and i cant cum unless i use my hand or a sex toy which i completely stopped using the sex toy months ago i stopped masturbating altogether now because it doesnt even feel good fr sorry if this is tmi but i used to always masturbate by humping the bed or a pillow before invega before i had a sex toy imagining having sex with my ex girlfriend and it would feel fucking amazing now it doesn't feel good which SUCKS but this is the closest i ever get to horny now but is this a good sign guys?
 
Moonrider_103 said:
So did you recover from other symptoms like adnhonia and do you think your dopamine and serotonin receptors are recovered ? Like can you enjoy music etc
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I didn't have bad anhedonia before but now I do. I think that might be improving since I couldn't even watch TV a month ago. I can watch TV now. I'm also enjoying music a little more. I'll probably get my period again soon too, so I'm recovering hormonally.

The only thing I completely recovered from is cognitive issues except for memory loss. My disassociation continues to improve as well. I think I ruined my recovery and that's it. That's my story here unless the PSSD resolves.
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
sorry if this is tmi but since like a month ago like every other night i get the urge in the middle of the night and many times the urge is strong if i wake up with a boner to hump the bed and i do hump the bed but stop after a few minutes because it doesnt fucking feel good which sucks and i cant cum unless i use my hand or a sex toy which i completely stopped using the sex toy months ago i stopped masturbating altogether now because it doesnt even feel good fr sorry if this is tmi but i used to always masturbate by humping the bed or a pillow before invega before i had a sex toy imagining having sex with my ex girlfriend and it would feel fucking amazing now it doesn't feel good which SUCKS but this is the closest i ever get to horny now but is this a good sign guys?
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Lol bro humping a pillow !?? Your crazy 😝
 
Getting close to 10 months off for me. I still consider myself recovered. I've been able to feel happiness and joy just like i used to when I'm in a good situation, like on vacation with a friend, or at a Halloween dog costume contest. Knowing that I have that potential is a pretty clear sign that the chemical changes in my brain have sorted themselves out.

That said, I think something that doesn't get talked much about here is that the entire situation causes severe trauma--being detained, being forcibly drugged, and having to go so long without being able to feel like a human again once the drug takes effect. That's something that we're all going to be unpacking for a long time, complicated by the fact that many of us no longer feel safe "getting help" with our emotions.

But there's good days and bad days, so hang in there and aim for a good one.
 
bowandsparrow said:
Getting close to 10 months off for me. I still consider myself recovered. I've been able to feel happiness and joy just like i used to when I'm in a good situation, like on vacation with a friend, or at a Halloween dog costume contest. Knowing that I have that potential is a pretty clear sign that the chemical changes in my brain have sorted themselves out.

That said, I think something that doesn't get talked much about here is that the entire situation causes severe trauma--being detained, being forcibly drugged, and having to go so long without being able to feel like a human again once the drug takes effect. That's something that we're all going to be unpacking for a long time, complicated by the fact that many of us no longer feel safe "getting help" with our emotions.

But there's good days and bad days, so hang in there and aim for a good one.
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i agree, my therapist who before invega was good is now a worthless waste of time dipshit scumbag, every fucking time i go to this motherfucking cunt he fucking says "its leaves your system in a month, its out of your system, its all in your head, its not the invega, its anxiety, i know what im talking about" like shut the fuck up you ignorant scum! how can you fucking tell me what it is and isnt your not living like me, HOW THE FUCK CAN ANXIETY CAUSE ALL THESE SYMPTOMS YOU FUCKING IDIOT, fucking waste of time scumbag im not going to him anymore in 2 months because that's when ill stop being forced to see him, in my opinion most therapists, psychiatrists, psychologists, and any forms of nurses and doctors, social workers, any one else who works for mental health are mostly SCUMBAG WASTES OF OXYGENS
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
sorry if this is tmi but since like a month ago like every other night i get the urge in the middle of the night and many times the urge is strong if i wake up with a boner to hump the bed and i do hump the bed but stop after a few minutes because it doesnt fucking feel good which sucks and i cant cum unless i use my hand or a sex toy which i completely stopped using the sex toy months ago i stopped masturbating altogether now because it doesnt even feel good fr sorry if this is tmi but i used to always masturbate by humping the bed or a pillow before invega before i had a sex toy imagining having sex with my ex girlfriend and it would feel fucking amazing now it doesn't feel good which SUCKS but this is the closest i ever get to horny now but is this a good sign guys?
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That was a lot of information 😂 I wish you the best 😂♥️
 
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