From what I understand addiction; addiction is a lifetime(death, also) struggle. I have my own issues, and can understand certain things, but IV drug addict( former), would have a lot of dudes, especially those who have never struggled with addiction, out the door. Even though I knew drinking could kill me( cirrhosis), it was actually my body not processesing and becoming allergic.( yes having a judge tell me not to drink and being forced to piss in a cup on random testing for a year helped.) But I still tried when my probation was over(dui, due to liver not processing alcohol)
Then there are his family, (I have no idea about that situation) but a parent or sibling may get very concerned and Jennn, you said he is all you have. My best advice think as hard as you can think about that, if and when temptation starts. The if part, was me being polite. If he is unsympathetic to you using pills when you have MS, how will he take recreational fent use? Did he ever accuse you of being an IV drug addict? If the answer is no, then you are not lying.
When I think of IV drug use, HIV and hepatitis scare me badly. I am not saying you have shared needles, but he doesn't know.
I am scared he might be half way to his car before the door closes if he finds out.
You said it yourself, that you would go back to fent without him. I don't want that to happen. If you are alone, Narcan, will not save you.
Ultimately you have to decide, and as someone who did have a problem, ( with alcohol) and yes I take pills, I have a doctors appointment in less than 2 hours. I understand addiction to a point, but even I am scared to be around anything IV, or not prescribed, let alone IV Fentanyl use.
I am not a 12 stepper, and I have pessimistic(realistic) view of human nature.
I would be careful, because sometimes things are truly, better left unsaid.
Then there are his family, (I have no idea about that situation) but a parent or sibling may get very concerned and Jennn, you said he is all you have. My best advice think as hard as you can think about that, if and when temptation starts. The if part, was me being polite. If he is unsympathetic to you using pills when you have MS, how will he take recreational fent use? Did he ever accuse you of being an IV drug addict? If the answer is no, then you are not lying.
When I think of IV drug use, HIV and hepatitis scare me badly. I am not saying you have shared needles, but he doesn't know.
I am scared he might be half way to his car before the door closes if he finds out.
You said it yourself, that you would go back to fent without him. I don't want that to happen. If you are alone, Narcan, will not save you.
Ultimately you have to decide, and as someone who did have a problem, ( with alcohol) and yes I take pills, I have a doctors appointment in less than 2 hours. I understand addiction to a point, but even I am scared to be around anything IV, or not prescribed, let alone IV Fentanyl use.
I am not a 12 stepper, and I have pessimistic(realistic) view of human nature.
I would be careful, because sometimes things are truly, better left unsaid.