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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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Robchanna said:
Do you guys feel disconnected from people a little. Like you are there but since there are no emotions you don’t feel the presence internally. Also does music feel off cuz I don’t think it is hitting the same
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I feel exactly like that
 
Ayden said:
Yes and yes. Been with a girl for 24 hours I feel wack asf man I used to chill with this same girl when I was normal makes me really sad deep down.
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im sorry bro🫂 this is why i avoid everyone there arent any girls in michigan which is the state i currently live in who liked me or know me which is good otherwise idk how depressed i would have been to the point of possibly harming myself ive been here a few years before that i was in ohio, all the females i know are in ohio and before i went to the hospital and got injected they all fell off anyway i only have a few male friends in michigan who i met from a youth program and juvy, i told one of them i cant hang out until i fully recover because im really struggling and i hope the two others in juvy once they come out soon also understand my situation and accept it if they are real friends they will, this is good because if i had any female friends currently while affected by this idk what would have happened.
 
PSSD update:

I got nipple sensitivity back, but I didn't really miss it because they were never that sensitive to begin with. My genitals have gone back to normal texture, unless I get really stressed out. I have (rather reliable in spite of everything! always been really reliable!) muted orgasms, reduced lubrication, and it's hard to keep a clitoral erection. I'm still mostly numb, I think I was overestimating the sensitivity I did get back. I feel... something sexual when I touch myself sometimes, like 5% erotic sensation. Is that a good sign? I also had the urge to masturbate twice this week so my libido might be coming back. I also find it easier to think about fucking my FWB (as a demisexual, it almost *has* to be them right now. I kind of got off to fictional characters like Jack from Mass Effect, but that isn't working right now) and the urge to kiss is coming back.

I'm able to cry again when I need to, but I used to be able to make myself cry and now I can't do that usually. So I'm still having trouble crying. I can laugh and experience joy, but not really excitement. I've been watching Star Trek like I usually do and it just sort of rolls past me. I don't feel enthusiasm anymore and I used to be a very enthusiastic person. I hope it doesn't stay this way and I continue to improve.

I wish I never tried Prozac. I should have just quit smoking weed and gone on escitalopram for 6 months to treat my OCD, I had been on it before. That's probably all I needed, who cares if it made me fat again? I'd rather be fat than have sexual dysfunction. Now I can't smoke weed or it will make my genitals feel cold and I take that as a bad sign, so I quit.
 
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InvegaAnon said:
PSSD update:

I got nipple sensitivity back, but I didn't really miss it because they were never that sensitive to begin with. My genitals have gone back to normal texture, unless I get really stressed out. I have (rather reliable in spite of everything! always been really reliable!) muted orgasms, reduced lubrication, and it's hard to keep a clitoral erection. I'm still mostly numb, I think I was overestimating the sensitivity I did get back. I feel... something sexual when I touch myself sometimes, like 5% erotic sensation. Is that a good sign? I also had the urge to masturbate twice this week so my libido might be coming back.

I'm able to cry again when I need to, but I used to be able to make myself cry and now I can't do that usually. So I'm still having trouble crying. I can laugh and experience joy, but not really excitement. I've been watching Star Trek like I usually do and it just sort of rolls past me. I don't feel enthusiasm anymore and I used to be a very enthusiastic person. I hope it doesn't stay this way and I continue to improve.
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be happy that you will fully recover idk about myself, 4 months off not much improvement😔
 
InvegaAnon said:
PSSD update:

I got nipple sensitivity back, but I didn't really miss it because they were never that sensitive to begin with. My genitals have gone back to normal texture, unless I get really stressed out. I have (rather reliable in spite of everything! always been really reliable!) muted orgasms, reduced lubrication, and it's hard to keep a clitoral erection. I'm still mostly numb, I think I was overestimating the sensitivity I did get back. I feel... something sexual when I touch myself sometimes, like 5% erotic sensation. Is that a good sign? I also had the urge to masturbate twice this week so my libido might be coming back.

I'm able to cry again when I need to, but I used to be able to make myself cry and now I can't do that usually. So I'm still having trouble crying. I can laugh and experience joy, but not really excitement. I've been watching Star Trek like I usually do and it just sort of rolls past me. I don't feel enthusiasm anymore and I used to be a very enthusiastic person. I hope it doesn't stay this way and I continue to improve.
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Just like to say Star Trek is what kept me going through my recovery, I just used to watch it on loop through the entirety of TNG, DS9, VOY. I still largely attribute regaining my ability to again process complex sentences to it.

It took me many months after quitting to get my drive back but it was very gradual. I'm back to normal now thankfully.
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
be happy that you will fully recover idk about myself, 4 months off not much improvement😔
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I dunno man, I got post-ssri sexual dysfunction on top of that with a side of emotional blunting from smoking weed on an SSRI I probably wasn't even metabolizing right without the cannabis. But the dumb pseudo-schitzo part of my brain is taking this as a "sign" I will recover from PSSD, so thank you for your message.
 
when will i be able to fucking cry? i need to cry and cry

some of us may take longer but we will all fully recover, i just read many people from the previous threads to see if they recovered they all did except 1 who was still taking antipsychotics and most of them fully recovered 100% some 90-95 percent so hang in there guys we will all recover❤️
 
paliperidonevictim2005 said:
i read that it's still binded after its out of your system
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Then how tf are we supposed to recover makes zero sense

paliperidonevictim2005 said:
some of us may take longer but we will all fully recover, i just read many people from the previous threads to see if they recovered they all did except 1 who was still taking antipsychotics and most of them fully recovered 100% some 90-95 percent so hang in there guys we will all recover❤️
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I can’t find many people that have recovered other than a list made of people then half the profiles don’t say anything about fully recovering.?
 
I switched from Invega to olanzapine, it is a better option but my weight is hit hard.

Invega works like a tank when olanzapine is a hammer, they shouldn't be able to just give out the hardest hitting stuff first, it makes no sense to not have these regulated more in their despinsing, I am functional but my memory sucks.

It gets better when you get off Invega, there are better options.
 
The worst thing about this is that stubborn psychiatrists refuse to believe their drugs cause damage and think the damage is caused by "psychosis" so it gets even harder to get some research for a cure going. :(
 
Robchanna said:
Do you guys feel disconnected from people a little. Like you are there but since there are no emotions you don’t feel the presence internally. Also does music feel off cuz I don’t think it is hitting the same
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Anyone else?
 
I woke up with more emotion back again! I hope it has nothing to do with the fact I accidentally took waaaay too much vitamin D2. I am deficient. I didn't read my prescription bottle. I hope it sticks, I feel much better and not like I want to kill myself.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I woke up with more emotion back again! I hope it has nothing to do with the fact I accidentally took waaaay too much vitamin D2. I am deficient. I didn't read my prescription bottle. I hope it sticks, I feel much better and not like I want to kill myself.
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keep taking it if it helps
 
i need to keep seeing more and more full recovery stories to stay positive🙏

Ayden said:
Ya I think I found all of them about 30
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its not a lot of people in these threads anyway and sr moderator says almost everyone recovers they moderated these threads for years

Ayden said:
You’ll be fucked up a lot longer than it takes to “leave your system”
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how much longer man😔
 
im starting to think i was injected with more than i thought, i was given 2 injections the first one i assumed was only half the needle i may be wrong bc i didnt look at the needle when they injected me, i was injected with almost 234mg to 390 mg, if i was injected with 390 mg it explains why i feel like hell still and its really scary because that is a HUGE dose it could have damaged me😨, i remember i had a little emotion after the first injection the second injection fucked me up horribly i couldnt even smile or laugh for 1-2 months and had parkinsons for 2 months
 
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