Yeah Adderall is not meth, I hate when people say that too. But yeah 2018 to 2019 was really the last we saw Heroin, I live in NY and I guess I just got lucky with that bag of Heroin I got. But that is probably one in a million now. I was clean from 2019 to 2021 and after I relapsed the first bag of dope I picked up was straight Fentanyl and I overdosed on it. I stopped breathing and I turned blue. The person I was with gave me mouth to mouth CPR and called 911. It took them 3 shots of Narcan before I woke up. But yeah Adderall is a combination of L and D amphetamine salts not Methamphetamine lol. But after I overdosed on Fentanyl I went on Bupe too, I'm currently on 16 mgs. The only reason I knew it was heroin was because I tested positive for opiates and not Fentanyl on a drug test. It also had the high of heroin not fentanyl. But that is the only reasons I knew it was Heroin and not Fetty.
I'm glad you survived man.
I started studying pharmacology as a hobby during my heroin using years. And I think thats what saved me from overdosing.
Because I knew to look out for signs like a vinegar smell, color, taste, etc.. to tell if what I had was heroin.
And the one time I got fent, I kind of assumed before hand that it might be fent, because it was pure white, had no vinegar smell & just looked different.
So I figured I'd only do a tiny bump just to test it & make sure.
And sure enough, that tiny ass bump had me nodding harder than anything I've ever felt before. And I knew that if I hadn't known better & jumped into that powder like it was heroin, I might have overdosed as well. I was pissed and told my heroin dude to never give me that shit again. And he didn't.
How are you liking being on bupe?
I really liked bupe in the beginning. It gave me some of the energy, antidepressant & anxiety relieving effects that full agonists did & it lasted all day.
But after 7 years of being on it, it's of course nothing like that anymore. I still find it helpful some days though after all these years. But then other days I wish I could be on methadone or literally any other opioid.
Right, I can eat & sleep on adderall, but definitely not on meth. lol
I remember getting grey heroin rocks from time to time. Man I miss those days. I look back on my heroin use with rose tinted glasses I think, because it wasn't a drug that really ruined my life in any way. Sure it sucked when I had to go without it some times, but when I had it, I was completely at peace & a much more functional & over all happy person. Didn't need alcohol or any other drugs (except maybe weed) to keep me happy. But now I'm kind of miserable on buprenorphine, since bupe doesn't provide those same effects. And ironically, heroin gets this bad rep like it's this super dangerous evil drug, worse than any other drug on the planet. When in reality, it's actually pretty benign on your body physically & didn't intoxicate me in a way where I was useless. It was actually much more beneficial for me to be on heroin than on alcohol or meth or any other drug.
I was about 25-30 years old during my heroin years. I was dependent on pain pills long before that. I think everyone looks back at their 20's and early 30's with some sadness since it's usually the prime of their life. But I think I do even more so because I had access to constant opioids & good heroin & fun times. And now my life is a total bore. lol