SuperPsych
Bluelighter
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- Apr 29, 2012
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But basically all dissociative use gives me a feeling like I'm just getting high and wasting my life, I kinda want to avoid that sort of shit.![]()
The problem for me with dissociatives, is that while under their influence I feel like I'm actively enriching my life and being productive just by being high on them in and of themselves. Not that I do anything productive while high, or that I accomplish anything. They just lead to a feeling of profundity that makes me feel like "This is EXACTLY what I'm meant to be doing at this moment in time". It's easy for me to want to chase that feeling and I do. Dissociatives are my drug of choice at this point in my life and the ones I do most often. At this point I still feel like I need something to get through the week, which is something that I need to work on; but for now I'm okay with dissociatives considering I used to be really bad off on Meth, PV's, Opioids and Benzos. Dissociatives can be awesome and healing, but they lose a lot of that power when used as often as I use them. Still can be lots of fun though.
On that note I should be getting 4g of FXE which I haven't had in a couple of months and 1g 3-HO-PCP which I haven't had for a bit longer. I'm not a huge fan of 3-HO-PCP but cost wise I should be able to get another couple weeks out of it compared to other options. FXE I absolutely adore though