I find it odd and annoying that despite the fact that I'm currently 4 days away from having gone a whole 8 months off of Invega and have recovered sufficiently to live a decent, but not ideal quality of life again I still have dreams about the injection basically every night. Just an hour ago I woke up from a series of several dreams, all about Invega, and despite my poor ability to recall dreams there's one in particular that I remembered the most.
The one that stood out the most to me was one where I had attempted to commit suicide, since I was in a far more crippled state from Invega in my dream then I am irl, and since I had failed, I was then taken to what I believe was a crisis stabilization unit. While I was there I overheard people talking about something, and eventually realized that they're intention was to inject me again, but this time against my will, by force. And so upon hearing that I immediately ran out of the exit, desperately looking for somewhere to hide. I can't remember where I began hiding but I could see multiple people desperately searching for me. Eventually, as one person was getting concerningly close I decided to try and sneak past that person only to get caught while doing so, which he immediately alerted everyone else about my presence. And so, I sprinted away to the best of my ability, but of course as with every dream I have, I was much slower compared to them, allowing them to quickly catch up to me. Once they did, I was forcefully pinned to the ground and began screaming for help out of pure deaperation. Thankfully as soon as they were about to insert the needle I managed to wake up though.
It's for this reason that although I have the capability of sleeping 8+ hours again, I usually only recieve 7 or 6, sometimes 5, because I'm so sick and tired of having constant nightmares about the same thing that I haven't enjoyed sleeping ever since. Didn't think my post would be long lol, I just thought it was interesting and wanted to share it before I forget about it, only to have a similar dream the next night all over again.
(By the way I think I'll upload a video about my recovery progress on Wednesday, the 9th of this month, which would also be exactly 8 months off of Invega.)