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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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My brain literally feels like mush. I went for a walk and the entire time it felt like I had a dead brain inside my head. Lobotomy. Cruel reality
 
Locke23 said:
I am suffering every minute. This is chemical lobotomy. I think the anhedonia has improved and I dont suffer from insomnia anymore. But I still feel dead. Like disconnect in my prefrontal cortex.
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I feel the same man , but I’ve had no improvements at all it’s been 7 months since my last shot … can you experience pleasure? Do you have emotions?
 
Invegatorture said:
My brain literally feels like mush. I went for a walk and the entire time it felt like I had a dead brain inside my head. Lobotomy. Cruel reality
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I went for a walk today too and just looked at people while thinking “ wow look at all these lucky people not having a clue that I am suffering a chemical lobotomy, I used to be like them “
 
I could live a lifetime with severe depression but not this shit … infinitely worse than any mental illness could ever be. Created by so called medicine , fucking disgusting
 
I found that when I was on abilify, smoking weed, cigarettes, energy drinks and hydroxy cuts from either shoppers drug mart or any workout store fought the side effects!!!! If you don’t have a mental illness try those! Life becomes fun again!
 
Invegaishell said:
I feel like a pathetic person. Like I’m a submissive child now. Can even look my 13 year old cousin in the eyes. No worth whatsoever.
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Do you do physical activity? Like go for two walks a day and at least try to improve yourself? With Cold showers? And coffee, and music and hair cuts and new cloths and espressos and things? Or do you just sit around and complain all day?
 
HelpMeInvega said:
Do you do physical activity? Like go for two walks a day and at least try to improve yourself? With Cold showers? And coffee, and music and hair cuts and new cloths and espressos and things? Or do you just sit around and complain all day?
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I don’t need that sass in my life lol. I work out 6 days a week. I’m clean shaven. I take other medications to ease the pain and I shower everyday. I eat healthy. New clothes and coffee aren’t really gonna make a difference.
 
HelpMeInvega said:
I found that when I was on abilify, smoking weed, cigarettes, energy drinks and hydroxy cuts from either shoppers drug mart or any workout store fought the side effects!!!! If you don’t have a mental illness try those! Life becomes fun again!
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what do you recommend besides adderall if you can’t feel energy drinks?
 
Mucky said:
I went for a walk today too and just looked at people while thinking “ wow look at all these lucky people not having a clue that I am suffering a chemical lobotomy, I used to be like them “
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That is the exact same way that I felt ever since, it may not affect me as much currently but regardless I still kind of think that way every day. The example I gave was that I began to dislike going to the gym since I'd always see fit, muscular guys flexing infront of mirrors and all, hanging out with a large group of friends, mostly content with their lives, completely unaware of the more unfortunate and unlucky people like us.

Prior to Invega I had considerably more visible muscle mass, probably since I was considered a healthy weight at the time. But after Invega I ended up gaining a whole 70 pounds at least, completely concealing whatever muscle I had under flabs of fat, and now I hate my hideous, unnaturally obese body and feel very insecure/self conscious about it. I will admit, the primary reason for such rapid weight gain was due to the fact that I spent the beginning of the year constantly eating thousands upon thousands of calories worth of food, because it was the only activity that provided me with some kind of mental relief from everything Invega caused me to go through. Before this I was quite strict on myself, generally not going much higher than 2k calories per day, depending on what I did at the gym that particular day.

Ontop of that antipsychotics generally have a negative impact on the metabolism and horomone balance as well, not to mention I didn't sleep for almost the first 4 months as well, which I'm certain must've seriously affected my metabolism as a result. Sure I've lost over 20 pounds since but it still bothers me knowing that had it not been for Invega I'd not only look much healthier, but feel much healthier as well.
 
RecoveryInProgress said:
I hope it works for me again some day. I do notice if I drink it at night I stay up but I don’t feel it the same as I used to. But like I’m not going to just beat myself up over it I mean there’s plenty of things to be grateful for. Cest La Vie
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You’ll feel it again I’m sure!
 
HelpMeInvega said:
I found that when I was on abilify, smoking weed, cigarettes, energy drinks and hydroxy cuts from either shoppers drug mart or any workout store fought the side effects!!!! If you don’t have a mental illness try those! Life becomes fun again!
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Smoked some weed and had a few drinks and doing a lot better. Was paranoid at first but managed to work out some thoughts and now have some peace. I would say that some pleasure and emotions do come back if not only temporarily. I wouldn't be surprised when I wake up tomorrow to be back at baseline miserable and suffering again.
 
Rulomaner said:
Show it to me
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What do you want me to show you I had 4 hugest dose shots on invega I have been off 16 months I was the same was as you 7 months ago then I started improving now I am better it is so hard to believe when you have andohenia I had to let everyone around me know so I wasn’t obligated to do anything you literally can not do anything for a year even if you try and force yourself it doesn’t work there is nothing you can do to speed it up it takes time that’s it lucky for you abilify isn’t as bad as invega it’s only a partial dopamine agonist you should recover quicker and all the way
 
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