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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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RecoveryInProgress said:
I saw someone else write this. The one reasoning I can think I can relate on this is I get extreme like not feeling refreshed when I wake up. And that feeling is what I think can bring in the whole reminding of us of what’s not working effectively. I think we should try being positive and just understand our bodies are doing everything they can to bring an equilibrium and homeostasis, the meds are currently out of our system so now just nurture and self love ❤️ as best as you can . I know we are probably all reminiscing on times where we were better off and not struggling , but this is how things are now , we can’t go back, only steps forward and small steps towards a more accepting , loving, positive, supportive vibe is what we can aim to bring for ourselves and others. And the more we do this , the easier it will get. I know it’s important to be realistic about what you’re going going through so that’s why I encourage you all to speak up about what you’re going through and be helpful to each other.
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Do you believe in full recovery?
 
I was able to have a great crab dinner with my boyfriend and his mom and we just had a great time bonding and talking and I felt so much more comfortable and at ease. It’s hard to explain. I truly didn’t know how much I think I recovered. It took me getting out of my comfort shell like going to a new environment and putting myself out there instead of feeling closed off. We discussed going on the trip to Aruba that I kinda have been 50/50 about going on but after that talk I’m really thinking about going :)
 
Invegatorture said:
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Do you believe in full recovery?
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Yes because I have recovered before and had to start the whole process over again. I hate antipsychotics more than anyone, trust me. If they can help someone’s life for the better that’s awesome , I’ve heard many things and read everyone’s experiences from them that makes me sad . I know from how my journey was and I know what it’s done and I know that I’ve recovered in many aspects. So I’m in the process of reaching to a full recovery but I’m not just going to say my life is ruined because that’s a pessimistic attitude that will likely just make me more depressed and other people around me miserable.
 
Locke23 said:
Just accepting what has happened.
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Yeah it took me a long time to accept my reality and once you start accepting it it becomes easier. It’s like having a death of your past self. And the next step is embracing the person who you are now. I get it it isn’t like you want it to be . But you’re a soldier and survivor and you got this I believe in you
 
RecoveryInProgress said:
Yeah it took me a long time to accept my reality and once you start accepting it it becomes easier. It’s like having a death of your past self. And the next step is embracing the person who you are now. I get it it isn’t like you want it to be . But you’re a soldier and survivor and you got this I believe in you
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I refuse
 
RecoveryInProgress said:
Yeah it took me a long time to accept my reality and once you start accepting it it becomes easier. It’s like having a death of your past self. And the next step is embracing the person who you are now. I get it it isn’t like you want it to be . But you’re a soldier and survivor and you got this I believe in you
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I am not okay with being a shell of my former self.
 
Locke23 said:
I am not okay with being a shell of my former self.
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You have to be able to accept reality. At the least try to alter your mentality to a positive one. “I’m doing the best I can, Im improving and that’s the most important thing right now”
“im proud of the effort im putting in”

Those should be your daily affirmations you tell yourself.
 
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bojana said:
How do you guys deal with the fact that this happend to you? How do you let go of the past?
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For over half a year I definitely couldn't accept what occurred to me, I'd think about Invega 24/7, there was basically never a moment where I didn't think or talk about it constantly. I kept repeatedly thinking about how I could've avoided it, what I could've done differently, and how my life would be ruined until I die. Gradually, although it was very difficult to do I began to realize that regardless of how desperate I was to change the past, it's obviously not a possibility, and I couldn't do anything to completely excape what had already occurred. I couldn't bring myself to commit suicide either, so my only other option was to suffer day after day, hoping there would be a day where I can enjoy my life again. Fast forward to now it eventually happened. I'm still slightly concerned about certain side effects but by now they don't really have a significant impact on my life anymore, by now I'd say I feel pretty close to my previous self thankfully.
 
RecoveryInProgress said:
You have to be able to accept reality. At the least try to alter your mentality to a positive one. “I’m doing the best I can, Im improving and that’s the most important thing right now”
“im proud of the effort im putting in”

Those should be your daily affirmations you tell yourself.
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It’s hard to tell yourself that when the medication has made me mentally challenged.
 
RecoveryInProgress said:
Yes because I have recovered before and had to start the whole process over again. I hate antipsychotics more than anyone, trust me. If they can help someone’s life for the better that’s awesome , I’ve heard many things and read everyone’s experiences from them that makes me sad . I know from how my journey was and I know what it’s done and I know that I’ve recovered in many aspects. So I’m in the process of reaching to a full recovery but I’m not just going to say my life is ruined because that’s a pessimistic attitude that will likely just make me more depressed and other people around me miserable.
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But if it its the truth, what can you do about it?
 
Rulomaner said:
Fuck this world. 2h waiting in the train rails. Did not have balls to do it. I’ll try falling from a 5th floor or OD
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Dude please for the love of god stop trying to kill yourself. I completely understand what you're going through, most of us I'd assume, but PLEASE give yourself time to continue recovering. We don't want to loose someone else the way we most likely lost Merek too, you may not feel like it's the truth or believe it but I'm sure many people care about you, and they would be completely devastated to find out that you commit suicide. Then they'd have to live with the pain and trauma of loosing you, probably for the rest of their lives.

I may not know you in person, I don't even speak with you directly for that matter, but I still care, and I'd feel upset knowing what occured to you. You may feel as if there's no hope left, as if the rest of your life has been ruined, but many people have recovered sufficiently, including myself, to live a good quality of life again. If you chose to commit suicide, how would you ever know whether you'd continue recovering or not. Then it would be a waste of a valuable life, one that could've had so much potential, one that makes you unique from everyone else.

I still hate myself for not being around when Merek most likely commit suicide, all because I wanted to take a short break from this thread for a while. But this time it's different, this time I'm here to try my best to talk people out of doing it. Invega may have screwed me over, but for that same reason I want to dedicate the rest of my life to helping others, specifically from these kind of situations.
 
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