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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Had coffee in the morning and now my derealization worsened alot. Fucking bad decision. This shit fucking sucks.
 
I am a 29 year old AFAB genderqueer (please don't be a shithead about that). I have autisim, ADHD, DPDR, OCD, and probably Bipolar 2. I volunteered 256 mg and a 156mg loading dose of Invega on April 14th 2023, only four days apart. I was in a mental hospital with no therapists and I was afraid I was going to die because I thought I had a dream that nazis were going to frame me as a pedophile and kill me in the mental hospital. I got started on Prozac, then I had a bad reaction and I lost what little of my sex drive I regained. I'm afraid I've been ruined sexually. I'm deeply traumatized from this experience. I wasn't thoroughly informed about this medication, I took it under extreme duress.

I'm not schizophrenic. I had a drug-related manic episode from Strattera. I told the psychiatrist this, but he didn't listen and kept giving me antipsychotics. I ended up on Riseperdol and kept taking it because I wanted to be compliant so I could go home. I hid the nazi delusion because I just. Wanted. To. Go. Home. I didn't even WANT to go to this particular mental hospital because I knew it was bad (overwhelmingly 1 star reviews), but I was told I was going there under the influence of Ativan.

I feel like I did this to myself.
After receiving the last injection, I knew something horrible was happening to my brain. I felt like I had been lobotomized. I have since recovered some of my mental faculties and emotions, I'm doing remarkably well in that regard.

My genitals felt like they were being electrocuted. I developed weird bumps on my privates, and one in the most sensitive spot. I found one other instance of permanent loss of sensation with the same electric shock feeling, but this person was a 14 year old boy at the time.

This may be a really personal question, but I'm wondering if anyone else had that electric shock feeling on their junk and recovered sexually. I may be asexual, but I had a really strong sex drive and a very healthy personal and self-contained sexuality. I had a Ferrari they/them pussy. I want it back.

I also should be on SSRIs for OCD, but I'm worried that will hurt my chances of sexual recovery. Prozac made me loose sensation again, still waiting for that to leave my system. I want to go on escitilopram because I know it's safe for me and I was on it before.

I also read that it makes pretty much all of the mental disorders I have worse, but temporarily. I was trying so hard to get my shit together and actually become a working artist, and I was DOING IT until my episode. I'm going to try lion's mane and CBD. I had been smoking weed and I think that helped keep the junk out of at least some of my receptors. I WAS starting to get my sex drive back, but Prozac threw that off really badly and it gave me anxiety and almost triggered another manic episode.
 
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Me as an invega veteran have become very simple. I only want the numbness to go away, so life can have meaning again.
 
That numbness is what makes life not worth living, it's the main issue. I no longer give a f*ck about my sexual side effects and cognitive issues, since I could live with that and life would still have meaning if there was no numbness I always talk about (check previous posts for detailed explanation).
 
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InvegaAnon said:
I am a 29 year old AFAB genderqueer (please don't be a shithead about that). I have autisim, ADHD, DPDR, OCD, and probably Bipolar 2. I volunteered 256 mg and a 156mg loading dose of Invega on April 14th 2023, only four days apart. I was in a mental hospital with no therapists and I was afraid I was going to die because I thought I had a dream that nazis were going to frame me as a pedophile and kill me in the mental hospital because I experienced psychosis deja-vu and thought I had a dream about it. I got started on Prozac, then I had a bad reaction and I lost what little of my sex drive I lost. I'm afraid I've been ruined sexually. I'm deeply traumatized from this experience. I wasn't thoroughly informed about this medication, I took it under extreme duress.

I'm not schizophrenic. I had a drug-related manic episode from Strattera. I told the psychiatrist this, but he didn't listen and kept giving me antipsychotics. I ended up on Riseperdol and kept taking it because I wanted to be compliant so I could go home. I hid the nazi delusion because I just. Wanted. To. Go. Home. I didn't even WANT to go to this particular mental hospital because I knew it was bad (overwhelmingly 1 star reviews), but I was told I was going there under the influence of Ativan.

I feel like I did this to myself.
After receiving the last injection, I knew something horrible was happening to my brain. I felt like I had been lobotomized. I have since recovered some of my mental faculties and emotions, I'm doing remarkably well in that regard.

My genitals felt like they were being electrocuted. I developed weird bumps on my privates, and one in the most sensitive spot. I found one other instance of permanent loss of sensation with the same electric shock feeling, but this person was a 14 year old boy at the time.

This may be a really personal question, but I'm wondering if anyone else had that electric shock feeling on their junk and recovered sexually. I may be asexual, but I had a really strong sex drive and a very healthy personal and self-contained sexuality. I had a Ferrari they/them pussy. I want it back.

I also should be on SSRIs for OCD, but I'm worried that will hurt my chances of sexual recovery. Prozac made me loose sensation again, still waiting for that to leave my system. I want to go on escitilopram because I know it's safe for me and I was on it before.

I also read that it makes pretty much all of the mental disorders I have worse, but temporarily. I was trying so hard to get my shit together and actually become a working artist, and I was DOING IT until my episode. I'm going to try lion's mane and CBD. I had been smoking weed and I think that helped keep the junk out of at least some of my receptors.
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Hey there, sorry to hear about what you're currently going through. I too was diagnosed with Autism back when I was a child, I was never officially diagnosed with OCD but it has become increasingly more difficult over time to ignore the compulsion to organize objects in a certain manner or by using specific patterns.

I previously had a high sex drive prior to the day I received Invega back on the 9th of December, immediately afterwards my libido completely died along with the ability to have/maintain erections, lack of pleasure, little to no semen production, etc.

Thankfully by now despite not being exactly the same as it was previously it has gotten quite close by now. As of now its been over 7 months since the incident and I'd say I recovered about 75% to 80% of what I had lost and what was affected so far.

Also no I never experienced a sensation of being electrocuted or shocked in the genitals, however I did feel that way whenever I attempted to fall asleep, which caused me to have complete and severe insomnia that unfortunately lasted for over 3 months that I ended up having a stroke, I literally couldn't even sleep for a single minute that entire span of time.

I would highly discourage you to take SSRI's or any other med in an attempt to treat OCD, I considered it in the past but after Invega caused me to suffer immensely I'd rather live with my other conditions and avoid creating more problems by taking other meds.

In the end I hope that all goes well and you manage to recover as fast as possible from everything you're currently experiencing as a result of taking certain meds. I fear that it may never be possible to make a full recovery but I will at least hope for the best.
 
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Invega manufacturer - J&J is owned by shareholders/holdings, and the most stocks owns the Vanguard Group.
 
Vanguard Group has a hidden work model, so we can't know who owns most stocks in J&J and thus has the most power and influence on J&J.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I am a 29 year old AFAB genderqueer (please don't be a shithead about that). I have autisim, ADHD, DPDR, OCD, and probably Bipolar 2. I volunteered 256 mg and a 156mg loading dose of Invega on April 14th 2023, only four days apart. I was in a mental hospital with no therapists and I was afraid I was going to die because I thought I had a dream that nazis were going to frame me as a pedophile and kill me in the mental hospital. I got started on Prozac, then I had a bad reaction and I lost what little of my sex drive I regained. I'm afraid I've been ruined sexually. I'm deeply traumatized from this experience. I wasn't thoroughly informed about this medication, I took it under extreme duress.

I'm not schizophrenic. I had a drug-related manic episode from Strattera. I told the psychiatrist this, but he didn't listen and kept giving me antipsychotics. I ended up on Riseperdol and kept taking it because I wanted to be compliant so I could go home. I hid the nazi delusion because I just. Wanted. To. Go. Home. I didn't even WANT to go to this particular mental hospital because I knew it was bad (overwhelmingly 1 star reviews), but I was told I was going there under the influence of Ativan.

I feel like I did this to myself.
After receiving the last injection, I knew something horrible was happening to my brain. I felt like I had been lobotomized. I have since recovered some of my mental faculties and emotions, I'm doing remarkably well in that regard.

My genitals felt like they were being electrocuted. I developed weird bumps on my privates, and one in the most sensitive spot. I found one other instance of permanent loss of sensation with the same electric shock feeling, but this person was a 14 year old boy at the time.

This may be a really personal question, but I'm wondering if anyone else had that electric shock feeling on their junk and recovered sexually. I may be asexual, but I had a really strong sex drive and a very healthy personal and self-contained sexuality. I had a Ferrari they/them pussy. I want it back.

I also should be on SSRIs for OCD, but I'm worried that will hurt my chances of sexual recovery. Prozac made me loose sensation again, still waiting for that to leave my system. I want to go on escitilopram because I know it's safe for me and I was on it before.

I also read that it makes pretty much all of the mental disorders I have worse, but temporarily. I was trying so hard to get my shit together and actually become a working artist, and I was DOING IT until my episode. I'm going to try lion's mane and CBD. I had been smoking weed and I think that helped keep the junk out of at least some of my receptors. I WAS starting to get my sex drive back, but Prozac threw that off really badly and it gave me anxiety and almost triggered another manic episode.
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Trans guy here, had somewhat similar delusions about nazis during my last episode. Seems to be unfortunately common in our community right now.
 
naoaguento said:
Hey man! How it's going with your trip?

I always had coffee just because of the taste, never got this rush I think. At least never noticed. Maybe because I drink with (lot of) milk. XD
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Hello, my trip is going fine. Spain was awesome, not too warm weather either. Food was good. Am now in Morocco completely different atmosphere. Hope you are doing fine.
 
t_xeplionhell said:
I'm 2 years and 27 days off, around half recovered, still far from 100% and don't want to live.

We do not share the same viewpoints on psychosis, since I consider it to be fully a responsibility of the person to whom it happens, since it's psychological(=mental and not physical) and mind of the person wasn't organized to be logical therefore it happened.

Internal states (like having negative or positive experience) should not be able to influence your mental process, if they do, it means you are unstable and comparable to some unstable metal in the periodic table, lol.
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I think psychosis happens due to some vulnerability or trauma in our past. I think it can be resolved and managed without meds, but the sufferer has to make an active effort. It’s not the same as being weak or irrational, it happens because the mind is overprocessed. Me I am an analytical person I grind my brain alot overthinking everything. This leads me down a dark path sometimes because I always think of the worst case scenarios happening. Like a decision tree with alot of nodes
 
InvegaAnon said:
I am a 29 year old AFAB genderqueer (please don't be a shithead about that). I have autisim, ADHD, DPDR, OCD, and probably Bipolar 2. I volunteered 256 mg and a 156mg loading dose of Invega on April 14th 2023, only four days apart. I was in a mental hospital with no therapists and I was afraid I was going to die because I thought I had a dream that nazis were going to frame me as a pedophile and kill me in the mental hospital. I got started on Prozac, then I had a bad reaction and I lost what little of my sex drive I regained. I'm afraid I've been ruined sexually. I'm deeply traumatized from this experience. I wasn't thoroughly informed about this medication, I took it under extreme duress.

I'm not schizophrenic. I had a drug-related manic episode from Strattera. I told the psychiatrist this, but he didn't listen and kept giving me antipsychotics. I ended up on Riseperdol and kept taking it because I wanted to be compliant so I could go home. I hid the nazi delusion because I just. Wanted. To. Go. Home. I didn't even WANT to go to this particular mental hospital because I knew it was bad (overwhelmingly 1 star reviews), but I was told I was going there under the influence of Ativan.

I feel like I did this to myself.
After receiving the last injection, I knew something horrible was happening to my brain. I felt like I had been lobotomized. I have since recovered some of my mental faculties and emotions, I'm doing remarkably well in that regard.

My genitals felt like they were being electrocuted. I developed weird bumps on my privates, and one in the most sensitive spot. I found one other instance of permanent loss of sensation with the same electric shock feeling, but this person was a 14 year old boy at the time.

This may be a really personal question, but I'm wondering if anyone else had that electric shock feeling on their junk and recovered sexually. I may be asexual, but I had a really strong sex drive and a very healthy personal and self-contained sexuality. I had a Ferrari they/them pussy. I want it back.

I also should be on SSRIs for OCD, but I'm worried that will hurt my chances of sexual recovery. Prozac made me loose sensation again, still waiting for that to leave my system. I want to go on escitilopram because I know it's safe for me and I was on it before.

I also read that it makes pretty much all of the mental disorders I have worse, but temporarily. I was trying so hard to get my shit together and actually become a working artist, and I was DOING IT until my episode. I'm going to try lion's mane and CBD. I had been smoking weed and I think that helped keep the junk out of at least some of my receptors. I WAS starting to get my sex drive back, but Prozac threw that off really badly and it gave me anxiety and almost triggered another manic episode.
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Welcome to the thread! More than likely, like a majority of the rest of us, invega is going to be a long, grueling experience. Hopefully you make a fast recovery, but that is not always the case. Are you experiencing things like trouble socializing and anhedonia? Personally, I am 11 months off and still experiencing both of these. I wish you the best in your recovery process. Btw it’s cool you’re and artist I like painting now and then.
 
t_xeplionhell said:
Me as an invega veteran have become very simple. I only want the numbness to go away, so life can have meaning again.
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Same that is a big problem for me. My dad was crying last night because of what is happening to me and I felt no emotions at all. I couldn’t cry or even get sad. I was sitting there like a psychopath.
 
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