I’m sorry all that happened. So you’ve taken Risperdal in the past for 1.5 years before and everything went fine in terms of side effects and everything? And then this time around it effected you differently? What was your dosages of Risperdal and Abilify. I’ve taken both, tolerated the Risperdal better than Abilify. It could be a bad reaction to the Abilify
Yes! I took for 1,5 years along with Lithium Carbonate (this one lasted until 2017). It was like may/2015 though dec/2016. I didn't felt anything to be honest, this time I used to fap like EVERYDAY, lol. High libido. And I was in university, studying alot and getting good grades, my life was pretty normal even on AP. This time I was 20 years old.
Now, when I started risperidone everything was different, I caught myself in a completely emotional numbness, full anhedonic, zombie like, depressive, no energy, erectile disfunction. Did a testosterone exame and mine went to 87, rofl. Less than a 80 years old male. Got lots of side effects, as well my personality faded, got pretty hard to hold conversations and do things. Like waking up to work or even "good" things like energy to hang out with friends.
I cross-tapered risperidone to Abilify and my testosterone came back a little (330 since last exame and 1 month off risperidone), prolactin decreased to normal levels as well.
I really don't know what happened, if this second time I am older and more susceptible to side effects. Or this time I got post psychosis depression. I have no ideia. Only thing I know is since February my life been like hell.
When you took risperidone did you developed anhedonia? Those last months I could get entertained in anything.
Damn that sounds scary. Thank you for the detailed post. I used to get paranoid too sometimes when I smoked weed but not that severe. Drugs are dangerous to some people we react differently. I hope you stay away from hard drugs like mdma. I am scared as well I keep reading how some people can never feel euphoric after neuroplectics. It makes me nervous. Every night before I sleep I read something negative and then try to find strength. I strongly believe a positive mindset is key. I know drugs are dangerous, but I will still measure my recovery by the ability to get high/drunk. Something is seriously wrong if we can’t get it back to baseline
I will never do any drugs except alcohol anymore. It was REALLY scary, something like a horror movie and feels 100% REAL, that's the worst part, it became your reality. My english is broken so I feel like I didn't wrote it in a proper way but whatever.
Now I am able to tell this story in details, months ago it could possible trigger me in lots ways. One of after episodes happened when I was talking to a friend, then the paranoid became real again. This is a real improvement and only (I think) could be achieved though medication. I wasn't in a good place...
I am happy that even off antipsychotic nothing more happened, so I didn't developed any schizophrenia or kind of stuff. Was only drug induced.
It's funny because I did MDMA in a Armin van Buuren show (I am a big fan of him) and was one of the greatest days of my life. Then around half year later I tried to do the same and this happened. The bad experience is WAAAAAAAY more stronger than the positive one, this gave me a true lesson about drugs: even if it's possibility to be good there's a chance to fuck up your life (at least for a while). I am not advocating against it btw, lol, just sharing my opinion.
