MDMA abuse, inner dialogue and talking to dead people vs. I know I'm not as crazy as you think I am.

[somnilicious]

I had no idea where to put this. It's not that Darkside to me. Ok.... Here goes..... Ever since I abused MDMA and had an extremely bad LTC(nobody talked about this 1999)... When I mull things over in my inner dialogue I have prominent conversations with my friends in my head about what I'm thinking and decisions I'm going to make. Their response is predicated on known factors of their previous social thought patterns.

This was weird enough in 1999 and much more pronounced but lately these conversations have included more and more dead people and often I find myself speaking them aloud in private. I just wanted to know how strange this phenomenon was? Any anecdotes? Thoughts? Do you run your thoughts by dead people? It's just strange when I catch myself mid sentence defending myself to someone who overdosed in 2016.

 

[Jabberwocky]

My inner dialogue became pretty bizarre and extreme after a period of very heavy psychedelic use (which ended in a psychosis).

The dialogue often includes nonsense, such as making odd nonverbal noises, repetitiveness, and just way more frequent unnecessary dialogue. At one point the inner dialogue seemed to be a different person speaking to me (but it was still my voice).

It's calmed down for me over the years but it was strange. I never talked to dead people, though.

Maybe serotonergic drugs can have this effect.

 

[somnilicious]

My inner dialogue became pretty bizarre and extreme after a period of very heavy psychedelic use (which ended in a psychosis).

The dialogue often includes nonsense, such as making odd nonverbal noises, repetitiveness, and just way more frequent unnecessary dialogue. At one point the inner dialogue seemed to be a different person speaking to me (but it was still my voice).

It's calmed down for me over the years but it was strange. I never talked to dead people, though.

Maybe serotonergic drugs can have this effect.

It often makes me question the state of my life when a lot of my conversations are with ghosts. Im sometimes sad when I realize they're gone except within my(others) minds but most times I'm happy to know that I still honor them within my daily life. It's all rather Melloncollie in a Bitter/sweet way.