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Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

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Sexual function and libido is truly recovered 110% at about 8.5 months off the two loading doses (234mg & 156mg) nofap helped with this a lot, I also smoked some top quality weed today and the high hit like when I first started smoking, I had an insane rush of euphoria today I’m still high but i realize I fucked up with my battle with addiction but if I can feel euphoria like this I’d say im pretty much recovered from 100% recovered from invegas side effects but I still struggle with PTSD from being shot with it that might be a permanent issue I have cause of invega but other then that I’ve recovered everything else.
 
Merek said:
Sexual function and libido is truly recovered 110% at about 8.5 months off the two loading doses (234mg & 156mg) nofap helped with this a lot, I also smoked some top quality weed today and the high hit like when I first started smoking, I had an insane rush of euphoria today I’m still high but i realize I fucked up with my battle with addiction but if I can feel euphoria like this I’d say im pretty much recovered from 100% recovered from invegas side effects but I still struggle with PTSD from being shot with it that might be a permanent issue I have cause of invega but other then that I’ve recovered everything else.
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That’s awesome! I’m very happy to hear that you’ve recovered!
 
Well I feel like I’ve recovered from invega but fuck man I’m more of a suicidal mess then ever, I falsely believed that once I recovered life would just be 24/7 euphoria but it’s not. I ended up on invega for a reason porn addiction played a big role in it, it’s so fucking bad man I can’t go into detail about it cause then this post will probably be deleted let’s just say it’s extremely unhealthy content I stumbled across when I was 11 and couldn’t stop myself from continuing the habit even though it was awful for me, it is so hard too stop and takes months too recover from for me since I’ve been addicted for years I keep failing this shit every time cause I choose too smoke weed, I just can’t stay sober for the life of me I always wana just feel some type of drug to numb the pain and escape sober reality, I’ve been battling this addiction for 2 years and every time I fuck this shit up it’s been extremely taxing on me and I’m just so fucking tired of it my willpower is drained I’ve had enough I’m defeated everything just feels so worthless. As of rn I plan to end it later this week I do have a method that would be 100% effective for sure before I end it though I’m gonna take a really high dose of LSD and trip maybe I’ll be able too access my inner thinking and think of a solution with a changed way of thinking during the trip but if that doesn’t workout I’ve made up my mind , just felt like getting all this off my chest I don’t really have any real friends that I trust in life since I lost everything during my crisis and never gained it back so I really have nowhere else to go besides here. I know this was a different type of post from me but this is how I actually feel about my own life not just me tryna act positive with that fake it till you make it attitude I pretty much just give up I’m not confident I’ll make it.
 
Merek said:
Well I feel like I’ve recovered from invega but fuck man I’m more of a suicidal mess then ever, I falsely believed that once I recovered life would just be 24/7 euphoria but it’s not. I ended up on invega for a reason porn addiction played a big role in it, it’s so fucking bad man I can’t go into detail about it cause then this post will probably be deleted let’s just say it’s extremely unhealthy content I stumbled across when I was 11 and couldn’t stop myself from continuing the habit even though it was awful for me, it is so hard too stop and takes months too recover from for me since I’ve been addicted for years I keep failing this shit every time cause I choose too smoke weed, I just can’t stay sober for the life of me I always wana just feel some type of drug to numb the pain and escape sober reality, I’ve been battling this addiction for 2 years and every time I fuck this shit up it’s been extremely taxing on me and I’m just so fucking tired of it my willpower is drained I’ve had enough I’m defeated everything just feels so worthless. As of rn I plan to end it later this week I do have a method that would be 100% effective for sure before I end it though I’m gonna take a really high dose of LSD and trip maybe I’ll be able too access my inner thinking and think of a solution with a changed way of thinking during the trip but if that doesn’t workout I’ve made up my mind , just felt like getting all this off my chest I don’t really have any real friends that I trust in life since I lost everything during my crisis and never gained it back so I really have nowhere else to go besides here. I know this was a different type of post from me but this is how I actually feel about my own life not just me tryna act positive with that fake it till you make it attitude I pretty much just give up I’m not confident I’ll make it.
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im in the same boat exactly the same
 
Merek said:
Well I feel like I’ve recovered from invega but fuck man I’m more of a suicidal mess then ever, I falsely believed that once I recovered life would just be 24/7 euphoria but it’s not. I ended up on invega for a reason porn addiction played a big role in it, it’s so fucking bad man I can’t go into detail about it cause then this post will probably be deleted let’s just say it’s extremely unhealthy content I stumbled across when I was 11 and couldn’t stop myself from continuing the habit even though it was awful for me, it is so hard too stop and takes months too recover from for me since I’ve been addicted for years I keep failing this shit every time cause I choose too smoke weed, I just can’t stay sober for the life of me I always wana just feel some type of drug to numb the pain and escape sober reality, I’ve been battling this addiction for 2 years and every time I fuck this shit up it’s been extremely taxing on me and I’m just so fucking tired of it my willpower is drained I’ve had enough I’m defeated everything just feels so worthless. As of rn I plan to end it later this week I do have a method that would be 100% effective for sure before I end it though I’m gonna take a really high dose of LSD and trip maybe I’ll be able too access my inner thinking and think of a solution with a changed way of thinking during the trip but if that doesn’t workout I’ve made up my mind , just felt like getting all this off my chest I don’t really have any real friends that I trust in life since I lost everything during my crisis and never gained it back so I really have nowhere else to go besides here. I know this was a different type of post from me but this is how I actually feel about my own life not just me tryna act positive with that fake it till you make it attitude I pretty much just give up I’m not confident I’ll make it.
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just watched this video
 
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Merek said:
Well I feel like I’ve recovered from invega but fuck man I’m more of a suicidal mess then ever, I falsely believed that once I recovered life would just be 24/7 euphoria but it’s not. I ended up on invega for a reason porn addiction played a big role in it, it’s so fucking bad man I can’t go into detail about it cause then this post will probably be deleted let’s just say it’s extremely unhealthy content I stumbled across when I was 11 and couldn’t stop myself from continuing the habit even though it was awful for me, it is so hard too stop and takes months too recover from for me since I’ve been addicted for years I keep failing this shit every time cause I choose too smoke weed, I just can’t stay sober for the life of me I always wana just feel some type of drug to numb the pain and escape sober reality, I’ve been battling this addiction for 2 years and every time I fuck this shit up it’s been extremely taxing on me and I’m just so fucking tired of it my willpower is drained I’ve had enough I’m defeated everything just feels so worthless. As of rn I plan to end it later this week I do have a method that would be 100% effective for sure before I end it though I’m gonna take a really high dose of LSD and trip maybe I’ll be able too access my inner thinking and think of a solution with a changed way of thinking during the trip but if that doesn’t workout I’ve made up my mind , just felt like getting all this off my chest I don’t really have any real friends that I trust in life since I lost everything during my crisis and never gained it back so I really have nowhere else to go besides here. I know this was a different type of post from me but this is how I actually feel about my own life not just me tryna act positive with that fake it till you make it attitude I pretty much just give up I’m not confident I’ll make it.
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you might be feeling like this cuase you just smoked weed or watched porn
 
Merek said:
Well I feel like I’ve recovered from invega but fuck man I’m more of a suicidal mess then ever, I falsely believed that once I recovered life would just be 24/7 euphoria but it’s not. I ended up on invega for a reason porn addiction played a big role in it, it’s so fucking bad man I can’t go into detail about it cause then this post will probably be deleted let’s just say it’s extremely unhealthy content I stumbled across when I was 11 and couldn’t stop myself from continuing the habit even though it was awful for me, it is so hard too stop and takes months too recover from for me since I’ve been addicted for years I keep failing this shit every time cause I choose too smoke weed, I just can’t stay sober for the life of me I always wana just feel some type of drug to numb the pain and escape sober reality, I’ve been battling this addiction for 2 years and every time I fuck this shit up it’s been extremely taxing on me and I’m just so fucking tired of it my willpower is drained I’ve had enough I’m defeated everything just feels so worthless. As of rn I plan to end it later this week I do have a method that would be 100% effective for sure before I end it though I’m gonna take a really high dose of LSD and trip maybe I’ll be able too access my inner thinking and think of a solution with a changed way of thinking during the trip but if that doesn’t workout I’ve made up my mind , just felt like getting all this off my chest I don’t really have any real friends that I trust in life since I lost everything during my crisis and never gained it back so I really have nowhere else to go besides here. I know this was a different type of post from me but this is how I actually feel about my own life not just me tryna act positive with that fake it till you make it attitude I pretty much just give up I’m not confident I’ll make it.
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If you actually want a friend I’d be happy to be your friend. Even if things are shitty now they can always be amazing in the future. And what exactly is so bad that you want to kill yourself? I felt suicidal when I first got off Abilify, I felt like a completely changed person, lost my entire confidence and ended up having to go back to the hospital after that 3 times in a span of a couple months. I was upset for awhile and it was gradual but things did get better and I haven’t felt suicidal since then. I’m pretty sure things will get better for you. Take it one step at a time. I can’t say the PTSD will go away soon or not since I still deal with that but having people to talk to is super helpful. Do you have a therapist that you have a good relationship with?
 
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If you actually want a friend I’d be happy to be your friend. Even if things are shitty now they can always be amazing in the future. And what exactly is so bad that you want to kill yourself? I felt suicidal when I first got off Abilify, I felt like a completely changed person, lost my entire confidence and ended up having to go back to the hospital after that 3 times in a span of a couple months. I was upset for awhile and it was gradual but things did get better and I haven’t felt suicidal since then. I’m pretty sure things will get better for you. Take it one step at a time. I can’t say the PTSD will go away soon or not since I still deal with that but having people to talk to is super helpful. Do you have a therapist that you have a good relationship with?
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You don’t wana know truly the detailed reason why I wana end my life it’s so bad it’s unbelievable, I don’t have a therapist that I have a good relationship with no I just can’t find anyone who can relate to me and what I’ve been through talk therapy does nothing everything just feels so worthless.
 
Did anyone recover from risperdal consta.Im on 12.5 mg injection able to go to 0.5 pills to taper off in 7 weeks.I was in this injection for 16 months
50mg for 1 year and tapered to 12.5 in 4 months.i took 2 injections of 12.5.should i take 2 more to stabilize then quit the injection ?
Does the injection taper on its own?
 
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Did anyone recover from risperdal consta.Im on 12.5 mg injection able to go to 0.5 pills to taper off in 7 weeks.I was in this injection for 16 months
50mg for 1 year and tapered to 12.5 in 4 months.i took 2 injections of 12.5.should i take 2 more to stabilize then quit the injection ?
Does the injection taper on its own?
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I also took Risperdal but I was on the pills and did a gradual taper over the span of 7 months. I’m not sure how the injections are the only injection I’ve ever had was Invega but I only had that one time. I would assume that tapering from injections would be similar to the pills in that you take less each month but I don’t really know as I don’t have much experience with injections. What does your doctor suggest? I think maybe talking to your doctor would be helpful.
 
Merek said:
Sexual function and libido is truly recovered 110% at about 8.5 months off the two loading doses (234mg & 156mg) nofap helped with this a lot, I also smoked some top quality weed today and the high hit like when I first started smoking, I had an insane rush of euphoria today I’m still high but i realize I fucked up with my battle with addiction but if I can feel euphoria like this I’d say im pretty much recovered from 100% recovered from invegas side effects but I still struggle with PTSD from being shot with it that might be a permanent issue I have cause of invega but other then that I’ve recovered everything else.
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Merek you keep saying PTSD but Im not sure you actually know what it is. Not all trauma is PTSD.
 
Merek said:
Well I feel like I’ve recovered from invega but fuck man I’m more of a suicidal mess then ever, I falsely believed that once I recovered life would just be 24/7 euphoria but it’s not. I ended up on invega for a reason porn addiction played a big role in it, it’s so fucking bad man I can’t go into detail about it cause then this post will probably be deleted let’s just say it’s extremely unhealthy content I stumbled across when I was 11 and couldn’t stop myself from continuing the habit even though it was awful for me, it is so hard too stop and takes months too recover from for me since I’ve been addicted for years I keep failing this shit every time cause I choose too smoke weed, I just can’t stay sober for the life of me I always wana just feel some type of drug to numb the pain and escape sober reality, I’ve been battling this addiction for 2 years and every time I fuck this shit up it’s been extremely taxing on me and I’m just so fucking tired of it my willpower is drained I’ve had enough I’m defeated everything just feels so worthless. As of rn I plan to end it later this week I do have a method that would be 100% effective for sure before I end it though I’m gonna take a really high dose of LSD and trip maybe I’ll be able too access my inner thinking and think of a solution with a changed way of thinking during the trip but if that doesn’t workout I’ve made up my mind , just felt like getting all this off my chest I don’t really have any real friends that I trust in life since I lost everything during my crisis and never gained it back so I really have nowhere else to go besides here. I know this was a different type of post from me but this is how I actually feel about my own life not just me tryna act positive with that fake it till you make it attitude I pretty much just give up I’m not confident I’ll make it.
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I’ve been reading your comments for the past year consistently and bro I just want to say that they have been some of the most understanding and uplifting and real writing I’ve read in a long long time. Your writing has had a significant impact on me. I truly believe your mind is extremely rare and influential and pure. I rarely give compliments cos that’s not the way I was conditioned but I just think you ending your life would be truly sad and a mistake. Your writings have helped me so much and it’s obvious you have a really unique and rare style and also a spirit that I haven’t seen many people have and understanding that you can do things that at this current time you might not understand how awesome it is and what things you can offer and experience
 
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ComezWithARisk said:
Did anyone recover from risperdal consta.Im on 12.5 mg injection able to go to 0.5 pills to taper off in 7 weeks.I was in this injection for 16 months
50mg for 1 year and tapered to 12.5 in 4 months.i took 2 injections of 12.5.should i take 2 more to stabilize then quit the injection ?
Does the injection taper on its own?
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Injection tapers on its own
 
Mort4king said:
Merek you keep saying PTSD but Im not sure you actually know what it is. Not all trauma is PTSD.
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No I know what you mean but I do have PTSD from being shot with invega, I’ve had tons of truama in my life which not all gave me PTSD but nothing hit as bad as being shot with invega, whenever I think about it I get extremely fearful and angry and I relive the pain in my head of being in my bed at the hospital feeling like I’m dying cause something feels seriously wrong with my body after being shot with invega after having chronic insomnia for 3 weeks just wanting too scream god help me just stop my heart from beating that’s how fucked it was I was in horrible condition to begin with at the hospital and the loading doses of invega just made it all pure torture.
mura_yom_invegasucks said:
I’ve been reading your comments for the past year consistently and bro I just want to say that they have been some of the most understanding and uplifting and real writing I’ve read in a long long time. Your writing has had a significant impact on me. I truly believe your mind is extremely rare and influential and pure. I rarely give compliments cos that’s not the way I was conditioned but I just think you ending your life would be truly sad and a mistake. Your writings have helped me so much and it’s obvious you have a really unique and rare style and also a spirit that I haven’t seen many people have and understanding that you can do things that at this current time you might not understand how awesome it is and what things you can offer and experience
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I’m really glad my comments have made a good impact on you, I know I have tons of potential too help people but in my opinion what’s the point if I just have brain damage and continue to fail to recover from depression and addiction, I was telling my best friend late last night how I was thinking about ending it and she had her friend call me which he had been through the exact same issue I deal with when it comes to porn addiction he got emotional over the phone saying he’s a survivor and has been clean for over 2 years and he doesn’t want to see my die young since he thinks I have so much potential to help people then I hear my best friend crying in the background but I’m so numb from my relaspe I’m just sitting there with no reaction at all, people tell me they love me and I just stare at them like wtf are you talking about I’m just sick of everything feeling so meaningless for me.
 
HelpMeInvega said:
A lot of antipsychotics cause anxiety! They alter your brain and cause fears and weird things. When I was on Invega Sustenna I was afraid to ride a bike. It totally ruined my brain. I was afraid riding in the back seat of a car. I was afraid riding the chair lift at the ski hill so many things it alters! I actually can’t wait to talk to my psychiatrist.
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Did the anxiety go away if so when did it go away
 
Merek said:
No I know what you mean but I do have PTSD from being shot with invega, I’ve had tons of truama in my life which not all gave me PTSD but nothing hit as bad as being shot with invega, whenever I think about it I get extremely fearful and angry and I relive the pain in my head of being in my bed at the hospital feeling like I’m dying cause something feels seriously wrong with my body after being shot with invega after having chronic insomnia for 3 weeks just wanting too scream god help me just stop my heart from beating that’s how fucked it was I was in horrible condition to begin with at the hospital and the loading doses of invega just made it all pure torture.
I’m really glad my comments have made a good impact on you, I know I have tons of potential too help people but in my opinion what’s the point if I just have brain damage and continue to fail to recover from depression and addiction, I was telling my best friend late last night how I was thinking about ending it and she had her friend call me which he had been through the exact same issue I deal with when it comes to porn addiction he got emotional over the phone saying he’s a survivor and has been clean for over 2 years and he doesn’t want to see my die young since he thinks I have so much potential to help people then I hear my best friend crying in the background but I’m so numb from my relaspe I’m just sitting there with no reaction at all, people tell me they love me and I just stare at them like wtf are you talking about I’m just sick of everything feeling so meaningless for me.
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Please dont Kill yourself. Do you feel suicidial because of the invega effects or your trauma? I went to my therapist today he said i shall live my life the way i can live it. Do you think you can work fulltime again in the Future? If Not the state can Help you. My psychiatrist messe me up so Bad that i only can manage to work twice a week. I get Benefits though i didnt want to at first but i had to take that Help. So if you think you wanna Kill yourself cause you cant work anymore theres Help. I live every day with anxiety, headache, Back pain, i understand your life is very hard. Do you think you d like to go to the gym? Or swimming
 
Merek said:
Well I feel like I’ve recovered from invega but fuck man I’m more of a suicidal mess then ever, I falsely believed that once I recovered life would just be 24/7 euphoria but it’s not. I ended up on invega for a reason porn addiction played a big role in it, it’s so fucking bad man I can’t go into detail about it cause then this post will probably be deleted let’s just say it’s extremely unhealthy content I stumbled across when I was 11 and couldn’t stop myself from continuing the habit even though it was awful for me, it is so hard too stop and takes months too recover from for me since I’ve been addicted for years I keep failing this shit every time cause I choose too smoke weed, I just can’t stay sober for the life of me I always wana just feel some type of drug to numb the pain and escape sober reality, I’ve been battling this addiction for 2 years and every time I fuck this shit up it’s been extremely taxing on me and I’m just so fucking tired of it my willpower is drained I’ve had enough I’m defeated everything just feels so worthless. As of rn I plan to end it later this week I do have a method that would be 100% effective for sure before I end it though I’m gonna take a really high dose of LSD and trip maybe I’ll be able too access my inner thinking and think of a solution with a changed way of thinking during the trip but if that doesn’t workout I’ve made up my mind , just felt like getting all this off my chest I don’t really have any real friends that I trust in life since I lost everything during my crisis and never gained it back so I really have nowhere else to go besides here. I know this was a different type of post from me but this is how I actually feel about my own life not just me tryna act positive with that fake it till you make it attitude I pretty much just give up I’m not confident I’ll make it.
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I’m really sorry you feel this way, if anyone has lost everything due to psychosis it’s me so I totally understand how you feel and I’m very sorry you feel that way. If you need to talk I’m here. Sorry merek.
 
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