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BrianTheFool

BrianTheFool

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Hey, there, y'all -
I just created an account here, but I've lurked for a few years. I've been fascinated with sex, drugs, and rock n roll since I was introduced to it all by my 14 year old brother when I was 9. My brother taught me all about cannabis, and I was smoking it regularly by age 10 in the privacy of my backyard treehouse. I stole money from my Dad and gave it to my brother to buy $10.00 baggies of weed, rolling papers, and if I was lucky, some pills, too. I liked "reds" the best of the pills that my brother bought for me back in the day. As an adult, I continued to use cannabis, and I grew it legally and illegally over the years. But no other drugs, except for prescription drugs.

So, here I am, a 66 year old single (after 2 LTRs) gay man. I'm looking at what's ahead in my life, and like a lot of people, I have a bucket list of experiences that I would like to have. I've been told all my life that drugs are bad. I used to live across the street from an abandoned house taken over by drug dealing squatters, and I saw all kinds of people stopping by the drug house to get their little bags. And I wondered what it was like to be a drug user. For years, I wondered.
And then shortly before last Christmas, I hooked up with a guy who liked to party and play. I had a little meth that evening, and it was alright. I got invited back the next evening, and we smoked more than the night before, and it was a lot better. Then a couple of days later, I hooked up with a guy who was a friend of the guy I met. He came over to my place and we smoked meth, and I kept up with him, hit for hit for four hours. Not a smart move. That was my first experience coming down from a really good time. I came off of opioids 10 years ago, but this shit is different. Unfortunately, I liked it enough that I bought some pretty crystals of my own to take home. And now I don't have to wonder what it's like to be a drug user. My dealer knows me and invites me over. I know a few tweakers. Shit. I am a tweaker. So I need information. Is it possible to be a recreational user without being an addict? That's my current quest. What a fucking idiot.
I'm really surprised and dismayed that I like the crystal so much. But I've been trying to use it early in the day (none past noon) so I can sleep at night. I also use cannabis dabs regularly. And benzos when I can get them. Wish me luck.
 
BrianTheFool said:
Hey, there, y'all -
I just created an account here, but I've lurked for a few years. I've been fascinated with sex, drugs, and rock n roll since I was introduced to it all by my 14 year old brother when I was 9. My brother taught me all about cannabis, and I was smoking it regularly by age 10 in the privacy of my backyard treehouse. I stole money from my Dad and gave it to my brother to buy $10.00 baggies of weed, rolling papers, and if I was lucky, some pills, too. I liked "reds" the best of the pills that my brother bought for me back in the day.
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Seconal?
 
Don't take this the wrong way because i am a boomer too. I'm just 1 year younger than you are.

Don't know how you lived your life but if you lived it anything like I lived mine i can assure you that your heart ain't liking that shit one bit. And if you have been a lifelong smoker of cigarettes ( like i have ) you may be in for a world of hurt.

At our age meth is the worst drug we could have ever gotten into. Any drug would be better than that. Your heart has been beating for 66 years ( and it's probably been overworked as it is ) and to introduce meth to it at this late age well...................take care man and go easy or a trip to the ER is in your near future.
 
Mr. Krinkle said:
there's no such thing as an occasional meth user
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Im not sure how you define occasional but i have been using for 25 years and only do it once every couple months.
And i dont use a ton.
No crazy benders.
I kept a professional career and just retired.

I travel a lot and kayak with my husband and have healthy relationships with my family
 
BrianTheFool said:
Hey, there, y'all -
I just created an account here, but I've lurked for a few years. I've been fascinated with sex, drugs, and rock n roll since I was introduced to it all by my 14 year old brother when I was 9. My brother taught me all about cannabis, and I was smoking it regularly by age 10 in the privacy of my backyard treehouse. I stole money from my Dad and gave it to my brother to buy $10.00 baggies of weed, rolling papers, and if I was lucky, some pills, too. I liked "reds" the best of the pills that my brother bought for me back in the day. As an adult, I continued to use cannabis, and I grew it legally and illegally over the years. But no other drugs, except for prescription drugs.

So, here I am, a 66 year old single (after 2 LTRs) gay man. I'm looking at what's ahead in my life, and like a lot of people, I have a bucket list of experiences that I would like to have. I've been told all my life that drugs are bad. I used to live across the street from an abandoned house taken over by drug dealing squatters, and I saw all kinds of people stopping by the drug house to get their little bags. And I wondered what it was like to be a drug user. For years, I wondered.
And then shortly before last Christmas, I hooked up with a guy who liked to party and play. I had a little meth that evening, and it was alright. I got invited back the next evening, and we smoked more than the night before, and it was a lot better. Then a couple of days later, I hooked up with a guy who was a friend of the guy I met. He came over to my place and we smoked meth, and I kept up with him, hit for hit for four hours. Not a smart move. That was my first experience coming down from a really good time. I came off of opioids 10 years ago, but this shit is different. Unfortunately, I liked it enough that I bought some pretty crystals of my own to take home. And now I don't have to wonder what it's like to be a drug user. My dealer knows me and invites me over. I know a few tweakers. Shit. I am a tweaker. So I need information. Is it possible to be a recreational user without being an addict? That's my current quest. What a fucking idiot.
I'm really surprised and dismayed that I like the crystal so much. But I've been trying to use it early in the day (none past noon) so I can sleep at night. I also use cannabis dabs regularly. And benzos when I can get them. Wish me luck.
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Welcome to bluelight.

It is,possible to be a recreational hard drug user, but given how you were addicted to other drugs before and it is METH, and you have easy access to it the odds are not in your favor and most people who use METH are not able to do this. A gay friend who is in his 60s had used METH maybe once every few months but he stopped right before COVID happened as people were cutting METH with other stimulants, sometimes with fentanyl on purpose or via contamination and dealers cared more about $ than someone dying, and the medications he is on for being bipolar made it so he did not get high from the METH.

Be aware that you could easily become an addict either with daily use or in the case of my bisexual friend who was into MDA in the late 1970s and 1980s, had tried cocaine and crank, but in the 1990s got into using crystal METH only on weekends every weekend, but then he started breaking the "weekends only" rule, realized he needed help, and went to outpatient rehab, NA/AA meetings, later CMA (crystal meth anonymous) meetings, took it all seriously and has been sober for over 20 years and his husband is also sober-they met on an online recovery/sobriety discussion website when they were both committed to sobriety.

Be very careful with METH. I used a variety of drugs and am bisexual but I never used METH as I have known way too many people who decided to try it once, use it on weekends, and the next thing you know they are addicted. If you have sex on METH or other drugs use condoms and gloves for anal fisting, go on prep as well it will not protect against everything else such as Hep C, but if you take it daily it might prevent HIV infection/transmission most of the time but don't use it instead of condoms. Also various drugs can make prep stop working or not work as effectively.

If you are poz take you meds daily, see your HIV doctors, and use condoms to avoid other strains of HIV and other STDs. I am not poz, a very good friend is, he has been on all of the meds and he never used drugs, but he only has sex with and dates/partners with other poz men on meds who have safe sex, as he is very cautious and does not believe that despite being undetectable that it is in real life, not a lab with controlled settings, and how despite taking meds daily and not having unsafe sex he went from undetectable to detectable (transmissive) and even his doctors had no idea how or why this happened.

Stay safe.
 
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I am pretty sure the metric tons of Meth that make their way into America (and other countries) are mostly used by "occasional users", lol. Are there some people that can use it "occasionally?" Well, of course there are always exceptions to the rule, and I am pretty sure that the "occasional user" is that exception. From a statistical point of view, these are outliers. With that idea in mind, many "occasional users" are more likely to end up using "more occasionally", as in , every day or at least a whole lot more than what most would consider "occasional." And a certain large percentage, a notable one for sure, will be locked in their house, peering out the windows every five minutes at the swat team outside, re-organizing their cleaning products and speaking to people who aren't there. Many of them had visions of "occasional use" initially. These are fairly common themes in the world of addiction and recovery stories that I've heard over and over again.

Kind of reminds me of the people who latch onto the research output that states that "Meth is neuro-protective in small doses (50mg)." And of course we all know that most meth users NEVER exceed 50 mgs, right? Anyway, just my two pennies worth, coming from a place where I have to deal with all of the "non_occasional" users whose are broke, their lives ruined, their health in ruins, and cannot detach from their addictions. So perhaps I am biased, and it's just my opinion based on lots of experience working with people who are in addiction recovery over the years.
 
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