Yeah, not every instance you'll encounter a psychiatrist that doesn't seem to have the slightest concern for your well-being. For several years, some time since I was a child although I can't recall the specific age, I've seen various psychiatrists that had prescribed me multiple different medications, ones that were specifically intended for my conditions. I never mentioned it prior but I don't actually suffer from just anxiety, I have also been diagnosed with autism early on, and only recently was it confirmed that I do indeed suffer from OCD. But regardless not once in my over 22 years of existence was there a moment where I became psychotic or had delusions, so I don't have the slightest clue as to why the hell someone would recommend a "medication" specifically intended for schizophrenia that didn't even remotely display symptoms. I could tell something was off about my most recent psychiatrist, she became unusually upset when she first prescribed me abilify pills, which is AT LEAST is used for irritability from autism so it was reasonable. I mentioned that I was reluctant to take them as I feared for possible side effects, at the time I was highly obsessed with my health and was proud of my appearance at the time. As I was saying, once again I can't recall precisely what she said but it was obvious to me that she wasn't willing to accept the fact that I wasn't being compliant with taking the pills, so she later bought up the option for injections. I was immediately concerned about the idea of long-lasting injections, thinking what would happen if I have a negative reaction, and it remains in my system for a long period of time. Eventually I agreed to recieve it, which only then did she seem content with my decision. I was ONLY warned that it would cause drowsiness, which ironically the complete opposite happened. It wasn't until a week after the injection that all hell broke loose and I suddenly lost my ability to sleep along with other symptoms. Almost everything I was content with and took for granted like having functional dopamine and serotonin receptors, feeling motivated or satisfied from completing actions had been taken from me. As a result I fell into the most severe state of depression where I began to contemplate suicide literally 24/7, thankfully it's improved slightly but it's still nearly constant. When you go from being mostly fit and active to having an enjoyable part time job and college classes where I could've potentially made friends or even a gf to the shitty, nearly inactive, non productive person I've become just about anyone would feel the same I'd assume. My anhedonia at least improved enough that I can play games and watch videos for considerably long periods of time, but it still feels like a waste of time knowing I could be working towards improving my life instead. I also LOVED to listen and endulge in music for literal hours at a time but I no longer recieve that rush, excitement, and happiness from it so I basically stopped entirely. Forgot to mention that my primary care doctor even agreed that it was nonsensical and incorrect of her to prescribe me invega sustenna in the first place. This is easily the longest post/reply I've made so far but I'm just glad I found a place where people that have become victims of this awful "medication" can support and understand eachother.
, now I’m not saying all doctors are bad in fact I have a good psychiatrist who I trust she actually listens to me and understands me instead of thinking everything I say is gibberish cause I’ve had a prior psychosis, she got me off of paliparadone and every other med they slapped me on in the psych ward, I could get easily get zyprexa just by going to her and explaining it would be smart for me to have some on hand in case of an emergency shes reasonable too and won’t call the cops to send me to the hospital if I’m worried about a psychosis relaspe however i talked with 5+ bad doctors/psychiatrists before I found a good one, my advice is honestly safer then a doctors in this instance I’m saying take the minimal dose possible to curb the psychosis not just take an unreasonably high dose every single day when you don’t need that much APS which that’s what doctors prescribe, the less drugs you take the better.
