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I wanted to reach out and ask anyone’s advice i guess I don’t even know how to explain but I’ll try. So I’ve been going through a tramadol withdrawal for about .. well I guess it’s day 11. I am prescribed 120 50 mg tabs a month for pain stuff (sometimes doesn’t touch it because I was prescribed other pain meds as well plus tramadol & then I moved & doctor stuff bla bla .. anyways this is about clonazepam I’m just giving context or whatever …. So anyway I’ll be honest I had super high pain this past month plus but here’s where I fucked up. Yea I had high pain so was taking extra, more than the 4 50 mgs per day but I could of maybe tried to space it out by maybe taking just 2-3 other days plus the other meds I’m prescribed …. However what I did which I’m mad at myself for I should have better handled my situation (maybe more healthy way of handling my situation) anyways I truly apologize for rambling or writing funny I’m having a shaky night ANYWAYS … but this is a crappy time of year & always makes PTSD night mares worse; so in an unhealthy way of not wanting to deal with the night terrors I just stayed awake for dayyyys just popping tramadol & drinking coffee so I didn’t have to fall asleep & have night terrors. So obviously I ran out super early & couldn’t get any other pain meds since I’m prescribed less now so I was like oh no I’m going to withdrawal from the tramadol because I’ve definitely withdrawal from tramadol before & ay.
So to deal with the withdrawals I was taking kratom, clonazepam & xanax & Robaxin for withdrawal but they were still REALLY bad. I’m prescribed 30x 0.5 clonazepam a month & 30 0.5 Xanax (for panic attack & PMDD & ptsd episodes). Every month I try to take either 0.5 mg clonazepam or 1/2 one every night & the Xanax as needed but I’ll be honest every month I take all the Xanax the two weeks before that time of month & just the clonazepam the rest of the month. Im sorry if Im being confusing, im a confused girl sometimes, I’m sorry to anyone that is actually reading through all this & bless you if you even bother to respond because I must be so confusing cause I’m like .. aaaahhh
Okay anyways there’s more to my locaria this month, I was sitting on my bed earlier this month & went to grab a clonazepam off the side of my bed & dropped my water bottle & pill bottle accidentally & spilled some water on some of the clonazepam tabs “ay ay ay no!” So I grabbed them took them out of the bottle & took them & separated them as quick as I could & put them on a paper towel to dry. They were kinda puffed up & some of them you couldn’t see the teva or whatever words/letters that were on them but they were dry by morning. So I went to the pharmacy & showed him the tablets & told him what happened & he just kept smiling ? & then said well they still have the shape & pretty good color so you should be okay & that it was a good idea separating them & putting them on the paper towel probably saved them. I hope he was rite but I don’t know why he was smiling so much & saying probably lol. So for the duration of the tramadol withdrawal I was taking those puffed up ones mostly & the Xanax, kratom ect. So I’m nervous because I ended taking up taking all the xans & then a bunch of clonazepam, I tried to take enough that I could have a have a clon 0.25 every day before my clonazepam refill on the 30th this month so in like seven days. But this passed week a couple of the clonazepam the ones that got more water on them then the others were a little crumbly when I tried breaking those in half so I got frustrated & tried taking the pieces & it was weird because one night the crumbles didn’t do anything so I took more & was all nervous then the next night the crumbles I took I Definitely felt way more so ay. Basically the remainders of these halves that got watered on I’ve been taking one half a day for the last week (some more worn down then others)
I have been off the tramadol 11 days, off the Xanax for about a week. & the remainder of crumbled clonazepam I took last week I messed it up so that I screwed up my plan… so now do not have enough to take the 0.25 a day until the refill on the 30th.
Ay okay, so basically I took a half crumbled 0.25 clon each day the last like 7 days & now after the ones I took last night & today I only have 2 half’s of 0.25 left to make it till the 30th. One that got watered down & one regular. So I’m planning on since I took one today that I’ll wait till 25th or 26th to take one of them & then the other half like 28th or 29th till the refill of clonazepam on the 30th.
Also I get a refill of tramadol available the 26th& I just stopped taking the kratom because my prima sent me some diluadid tabs for over the weekend because she knew I was in pain with all my injury stuff & she wanted to try to help me out.
So my anxiety is high, I’m shaky but also haven’t eaten because I have trouble eating when I’m all stressed out… blazé bla …. so I plan to take the 2 mg diluadid as needed for pain until the tram prescription on the 26th , space out those 2 (well 1 kinda worn down 1 not as much half’s) until the the 30th when I can get new clon refill. I also have some MJ from dispensary. I don’t know if I should take the Robaxin with dilaudid & I also have GABA supplements I ordered & have no idea if that would help or not. From what I read some said no GABA supplement wouldn’t help because it’s absorbed by stomach but doesn’t pass blood brain barrier? or something & others say it does help a little.
Long long crazy confusingness? story short …. I know I will probs go through hell till the 30th clonazepam refill script BUT my main concern is ….. Ay I don’t want to have a seizure because you know they say you gotta be super careful with Benzos. I’m really hoping that I was taking low enough dose to not have seizure but I’m scared.
I wanted to reach out and ask anyone’s advice i guess I don’t even know how to explain but I’ll try. So I’ve been going through a tramadol withdrawal for about .. well I guess it’s day 11. I am prescribed 120 50 mg tabs a month for pain stuff (sometimes doesn’t touch it because I was prescribed other pain meds as well plus tramadol & then I moved & doctor stuff bla bla .. anyways this is about clonazepam I’m just giving context or whatever …. So anyway I’ll be honest I had super high pain this past month plus but here’s where I fucked up. Yea I had high pain so was taking extra, more than the 4 50 mgs per day but I could of maybe tried to space it out by maybe taking just 2-3 other days plus the other meds I’m prescribed …. However what I did which I’m mad at myself for I should have better handled my situation (maybe more healthy way of handling my situation) anyways I truly apologize for rambling or writing funny I’m having a shaky night ANYWAYS … but this is a crappy time of year & always makes PTSD night mares worse; so in an unhealthy way of not wanting to deal with the night terrors I just stayed awake for dayyyys just popping tramadol & drinking coffee so I didn’t have to fall asleep & have night terrors. So obviously I ran out super early & couldn’t get any other pain meds since I’m prescribed less now so I was like oh no I’m going to withdrawal from the tramadol because I’ve definitely withdrawal from tramadol before & ay.
So to deal with the withdrawals I was taking kratom, clonazepam & xanax & Robaxin for withdrawal but they were still REALLY bad. I’m prescribed 30x 0.5 clonazepam a month & 30 0.5 Xanax (for panic attack & PMDD & ptsd episodes). Every month I try to take either 0.5 mg clonazepam or 1/2 one every night & the Xanax as needed but I’ll be honest every month I take all the Xanax the two weeks before that time of month & just the clonazepam the rest of the month. Im sorry if Im being confusing, im a confused girl sometimes, I’m sorry to anyone that is actually reading through all this & bless you if you even bother to respond because I must be so confusing cause I’m like .. aaaahhh
Okay anyways there’s more to my locaria this month, I was sitting on my bed earlier this month & went to grab a clonazepam off the side of my bed & dropped my water bottle & pill bottle accidentally & spilled some water on some of the clonazepam tabs “ay ay ay no!” So I grabbed them took them out of the bottle & took them & separated them as quick as I could & put them on a paper towel to dry. They were kinda puffed up & some of them you couldn’t see the teva or whatever words/letters that were on them but they were dry by morning. So I went to the pharmacy & showed him the tablets & told him what happened & he just kept smiling ? & then said well they still have the shape & pretty good color so you should be okay & that it was a good idea separating them & putting them on the paper towel probably saved them. I hope he was rite but I don’t know why he was smiling so much & saying probably lol. So for the duration of the tramadol withdrawal I was taking those puffed up ones mostly & the Xanax, kratom ect. So I’m nervous because I ended taking up taking all the xans & then a bunch of clonazepam, I tried to take enough that I could have a have a clon 0.25 every day before my clonazepam refill on the 30th this month so in like seven days. But this passed week a couple of the clonazepam the ones that got more water on them then the others were a little crumbly when I tried breaking those in half so I got frustrated & tried taking the pieces & it was weird because one night the crumbles didn’t do anything so I took more & was all nervous then the next night the crumbles I took I Definitely felt way more so ay. Basically the remainders of these halves that got watered on I’ve been taking one half a day for the last week (some more worn down then others)
I have been off the tramadol 11 days, off the Xanax for about a week. & the remainder of crumbled clonazepam I took last week I messed it up so that I screwed up my plan… so now do not have enough to take the 0.25 a day until the refill on the 30th.
Ay okay, so basically I took a half crumbled 0.25 clon each day the last like 7 days & now after the ones I took last night & today I only have 2 half’s of 0.25 left to make it till the 30th. One that got watered down & one regular. So I’m planning on since I took one today that I’ll wait till 25th or 26th to take one of them & then the other half like 28th or 29th till the refill of clonazepam on the 30th.
Also I get a refill of tramadol available the 26th& I just stopped taking the kratom because my prima sent me some diluadid tabs for over the weekend because she knew I was in pain with all my injury stuff & she wanted to try to help me out.
So my anxiety is high, I’m shaky but also haven’t eaten because I have trouble eating when I’m all stressed out… blazé bla …. so I plan to take the 2 mg diluadid as needed for pain until the tram prescription on the 26th , space out those 2 (well 1 kinda worn down 1 not as much half’s) until the the 30th when I can get new clon refill. I also have some MJ from dispensary. I don’t know if I should take the Robaxin with dilaudid & I also have GABA supplements I ordered & have no idea if that would help or not. From what I read some said no GABA supplement wouldn’t help because it’s absorbed by stomach but doesn’t pass blood brain barrier? or something & others say it does help a little.
Long long crazy confusingness? story short …. I know I will probs go through hell till the 30th clonazepam refill script BUT my main concern is ….. Ay I don’t want to have a seizure because you know they say you gotta be super careful with Benzos. I’m really hoping that I was taking low enough dose to not have seizure but I’m scared.