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where do schizophrenic voices come from?

foodcrisis

foodcrisis

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so i looked this on google and it makes it sound like they come from the imagination or a higher power or something... but from what i'm experiencing i can vision what all or most of my voices looked like in person. i'm pretty sure my parents let some people baby sit me as a child and they freaked me out bad enough to give me schizophrenia as an adult. they playfully screamed at me, told me all sorts of shit, showed me music and paintings and even showed me from what i'm experiencing a ton of pornography. there is no way i've seen a lot of this porn in my adult or teen life. i've thought maybe things other people have seen are going into my brain telepathically or realistically i was watching porn as a baby. i'm pretty sure i was watching porn as a baby and a bunch of people freaked me out.

i talked to my parents about this and they said i was crazy. i suspect they are lying and this kind of makes me not like them. i don't know why they'd lie about this and i'm having a hard time accepting that all of these voices and images are god or my imagination. i mean, i guess it could be god and that makes sense to me, but i get the feeling that god exists aside from schizophrenia or maybe with the schizophrenia that people gave me. i'm not sure if that makes sense, but maybe some people out there get me.

so do any schizophrenics out there have any feelings about this?
 
Shady's Fox said:
but why you live with your parents? is your schizo on that level that you can't earn money by yourself or what's this already hazzled puzzle but you have this one more piece and you just wanna add it for no reason, why's that.
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honestly i just feel like i could be dellusional about my childhood. like i made all the shit up . then i thought all of the other shit too.... i have a bad back and can't work incidentally. the government gives me money. i got bad schizophrenia that i didn't have after getting hit by a car and it's all recorded with MRIs and shit like that. i feel kind of guilty not working, but like a lot of shit gives me headaches now cause my CNS is fucked up. i get pins and what not too... i can't lift anything. so i don't know. i've been thinking about getting a job at a cannabis dispensary cause it's all easy lifting. but i don't really like the relationships with coworkers shit and i don't want to talk about bud all the time. i'm pretty anti social and if the government is going to give me money, which i never asked for by the way, i figure i might as well not work, someone else can do it. shit is way too overpopulated and what not... i have no idea why i'm answering this, but it's the truth. the government gives out money. my parents are poor. i live with them right now cause i like the ability to listen to loud music or play music. i'm actually on a list to get into a state funded apartment because my parents want to sell their house. i can't see giving up my relationship with them because they lied or whatever. i'm pretty sure they and the people that brainwashed me want me to think that it's god.

on to my subject before, i'm pretty sure my parents argued a lot when i was a baby, so they let the people baby sit me to give me a new schizophrnia. they told them i'd end up hearing them as an adult if they didn't fix me. i suspect this cause i've heard my parents voices like ONCE and it was in a dream, so i dunno. it scared the shit out of me as an adult and i'm pretty sure i had that feeling a lot as a baby.
 
I have a schizophrenic friend who claims it started after he got hit by a car. I always kinda doubted that was a causative factor, but interesting you experienced that as well.

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia after excessive drug/psychedelic use, but mostly recovered and my symptoms are mild to nonexistent now.

But to answer your question the voices come from chaotic unregulated brain signals. Our brains usually self regulate and fix or suppress these erroneous signals, but in schizophrenia the opposite happens and they get amplified to the point of entering our consciousness as reality.
 
Possibly an alteration in "executive" control. Internal dialogue involves communication between the conscious and unconscious minds. Genetic changes in this dynamic may result in the phenomenon of schizophrenia and also psychological addiction.

When you listen to descriptions of them they seem to represent different emotions.
 
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Considering the voices can be anything from actual voices, to loud beeps, screeches, and other noises and sounds then it possibly could have some development in the part of the brain that focuses on sound and language?

TL~TDS
 
D's said:
Considering the voices can be anything from actual voices, to loud beeps, screeches, and other noises and sounds then it possibly could have some development in the part of the brain that focuses on sound and language?
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It has a lot to so with pattern recognition and the basic underlying workings of our brain.

I would often hear random noises, movie "sound effects", screaming or other nonsensical shit. I usually wouldn't actually hear these things, but it was like an uncontrollable thought in my brain.
 
schizopath said:
Unconscious thoughts and memmories?
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When I was in the peak of my psychosis I would often suddenly recall very deep subconscious memories. Things that I had no idea my brain remembered.

After recovering, I can't remember them anymore. But they're still in there, somewhere....

I remember thinking it was interesting, like I had unlocked new abilities in my brain, if I ignore the bad aspects of the condition.
 
Snafu in the Void said:
It has a lot to so with pattern recognition and the basic underlying workings of our brain.

I would often hear random noises, movie "sound effects", screaming or other nonsensical shit. I usually wouldn't actually hear these things, but it was like an uncontrollable thought in my brain.
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would you start rocking backwards and forth in a chair or do something such as?

My aunt was schizo (God rest her soul). She had done tonss of drugs in her days and was a frequent flyer at the psychwards, and even did some time in a state run psych hospital. When I was around her, I always had a great time. Then later in life I was like what kind of drugs have they got you on Aunt C?
 
D's said:
would you start rocking backwards and forth in a chair or do something such as?

My aunt was schizo (God rest her soul). She had done tonss of drugs in her days and was a frequent flyer at the psychwards, and even did some time in a state run psych hospital. When I was around her, I always had a great time. Then later in life I was like what kind of drugs have they got you on Aunt C?
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That sounds like akathesia which is a common side effect of antipsychotics. Repetitive movements, inability to sit still. I've experienced that once.
 
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