Hi bro. I know/gather/seen maybe and your awayness too, sticky times.
Thoughts with you though mate, would be epic to chill with my man and that groovy funky hood and style you rock under it haha.
Hope you picking up, seeing brighter days.
Crazy times, gonna get crazier IMO.
Change. But let's not be afraid, if we can. I'm focussing on being realistic and prepared.
Hard hard line to strike though.
Exciting times too! That is actually what keeps me in the race here.
I wanna see this play through. Like, don't stop the movie now lol not F'ing kidding.
Anyway. Just few points here worthy cos so resonates.
I have virtually all my (not haha true) benzo use with pure Etiz powder.
But used Diazepam past. And I had ample chance to compare, gauge precise measure of Clonozolam & Fluaprazolam or Flucticazolam both way way stronger than Etiz, both qualitive & quantative regardless of amount.
Worse post side effects by far. Clonozolam, every time I took one 0.5 mg blotter, not alone, end night maybe, Etiz as usual, I liked it. Much better than Etiz for falling asleep before deciding to, knowing nothing, coming to, back sleep, next minute poof times up, 7/8 hours gone by yawn, up.
But every time after waking from a Clonozolam sleep, I felt groggy, restless, heated, irritable, out of my skin a bit for about 12 hours.
I tried seperated go's but the after effects of Clonozolam overweighed.
Same with the Flu...one. Strong. Flat euphorically.
Starting Etiz, 2 years ago, 0.25 mg's was a strong dose. For a few weeks or less lol.
Now, 15 mg's if slept, and need a wind-down, is less!
I prob need 5 mg's plus Etiz alone to feel a little mindswipe & engaging distraction.
But chucked in with x amount of weed and Kava, which greatly potentiates (non too lol) benzos, it's different.
I notice the overall.
atm using pure neat Etiz powder by eye and tool.
I weigh usually, but one too many accidental overdoses maybe up to 35 mg's, on paper 5, due to irregular dissolution and clumped powder in olive oil bottom doses, resulting in a back break last year one 7 weeks ago plus some way more significant internal shock, back healed amazing....I realised, neat Etiz powder, pretty safe actually.
Sensible, not scoops but metal stir point inside bag. 250 mg's on scale, quite a lot by eye.
No way ever am I getting even one tenth of that on edge of the tool.
So it's safe that way, ironically, for me with allergies to PG etc.
But no clue how much I'm using atm. By effects, today I feel over 16 mg's by hours ago.
Over 10, 12 mg's Etiz, hangover type effects emerge. 10 or less and sleep, barely.
Your report of anxiety rebound reversal, I anticipate this on a level with Etiz.
My doses have been up, L, square round the park.
I already saw sometimes, less Etiz = clearer thoughts, easier positive thought maintenance, less anxiety.
Other times, 20 mg's is called for to dope me into a cotton wool of mellow for half a day.
But...Etiz does have a mechanism of directly causing anxiety!
@6am-64-14m well done too bro tapering, and keep hanging tough man.