Recovery The 2022 alcohol support thread

[Jabberwocky]

Honestly? It did not do much for me....I really wish I had better feedback for it, but I just drank straight through while I was on naltrexone. It didn't reduce my cravings, it didn't make drinking any less desirable, and it didn't make me sick from drinking. It was just a waste of time and money, FOR ME.

I still want to try it, just need to get my lazy butt to the doctor.

However I'm concerned it would also have this effect on me. I already hate alcohol's high. I actively dislike it while drinking it... (which is weird but I think only alcoholics can understand). So I feel like if something made the buzz a little bit worse it wouldn't make much difference, I would still drink.

I don't think I really get the opioid rewarding effects anymore, I just drink to black out and be numb which I don't know if naltrexone helps with.

 

[n3ophy7e]

I still want to try it, just need to get my lazy butt to the doctor.

However I'm concerned it would also have this effect on me. I already hate alcohol's high. I actively dislike it while drinking it... (which is weird but I think only alcoholics can understand). So I feel like if something made the buzz a little bit worse it wouldn't make much difference, I would still drink.

I don't think I really get the opioid rewarding effects anymore, I just drink to black out and be numb which I don't know if naltrexone helps with.

Hey man it is definitely worth a try Unlike Antabuse, you don't get sick if you drink whilst on naltrexone. The worst that will happen is you'll get a bad headache and that yucky drunk dizziness if you drink enough. So yeah it'll either help or it won't, and you'll know within a couple of weeks of taking it.

 

[BadAddiction]

Yes, I've tried it a couple of times, about 18 years ago.

Honestly? It did not do much for me....I really wish I had better feedback for it, but I just drank straight through while I was on naltrexone. It didn't reduce my cravings, it didn't make drinking any less desirable, and it didn't make me sick from drinking. It was just a waste of time and money, FOR ME.

Having said that, it has helped a LOT of people to quit drinking, so it's worth a try. Has your doctor recommended it to you?

Yes.

 

[AbbeyLee]

 

[Jabberwocky]

I'm so tired of what alcohol does to my body... I'm at a breaking point.

I have no idea how my alcoholic elders do this disease for 20, 30, 40+ years. I just hit the 10 year mark and my body is just rejecting the alcohol.

I feel like I have fucking brain damage and nerve damage. My past psychosis flares up giving me horrible anxiety. My whole left hand feels arthritic. I've been having muscle spasms for 48 hrs that don't stop. Stomach hurts, puking. My whole body is "buzzing" very uncomfortable. I have random panic attacks that last 30 sec and then stop. Everything hurts. I have zero attention span for anything. I just had the longest most disturbing episode of sleep paralysis I've ever had last night, and 100 other things I can't even think of right now because I've just become "adjusted" to them.

I want to stop so badly, but when I don't drink the weight of all my shortcomings, inadequacies and the general fucked up state of my life pushes me back to drinking. It's like I just want to be blacked out forever just to not exist anymore. Alcohol is death you keep waking up from.

I'm just so tired... so so tired... I'd rather be back on heroin at this fucking point.

I need help but it's so difficult to get it. I wish I could just go check into a fucking rehab but my fucked up country makes that into its own trial and tribulation when you're broke.

Just needed to vent. Love yall.

Sometimes I feel like a broken record as I've said all this 100 times.

 

[Arnold]

I'm so tired of what alcohol does to my body... I'm at a breaking point.

I have no idea how my alcoholic elders do this disease for 20, 30, 40+ years. I just hit the 10 year mark and my body is just rejecting the alcohol.

I feel like I have fucking brain damage and nerve damage. My past psychosis flares up giving me horrible anxiety. My whole left hand feels arthritic. I've been having muscle spasms for 48 hrs that don't stop. Stomach hurts, puking. My whole body is "buzzing" very uncomfortable. I have random panic attacks that last 30 sec and then stop. Everything hurts. I have zero attention span for anything. I just had the longest most disturbing episode of sleep paralysis I've ever had last night, and 100 other things I can't even think of right now because I've just become "adjusted" to them.

I want to stop so badly, but when I don't drink the weight of all my shortcomings, inadequacies and the general fucked up state of my life pushes me back to drinking. It's like I just want to be blacked out forever just to not exist anymore. Alcohol is death you keep waking up from.

I'm just so tired... so so tired... I'd rather be back on heroin at this fucking point.

I need help but it's so difficult to get it. I wish I could just go check into a fucking rehab but my fucked up country makes that into its own trial and tribulation when you're broke.

Just needed to vent. Love yall.

Sometimes I feel like a broken record as I've said all this 100 times.

If the stomach pains persist go and see a doctor. It is possible that you will end up with a perforated stomach and trust me it ain't nice that one.

 

[Jabberwocky]

If the stomach pains persist go and see a doctor. It is possible that you will end up with a perforated stomach and trust me it ain't nice that one.

Yeah I've had 7 ulcers over the years, they're awful.

 

[Nas47]

I'm so tired of what alcohol does to my body... I'm at a breaking point.

I have no idea how my alcoholic elders do this disease for 20, 30, 40+ years. I just hit the 10 year mark and my body is just rejecting the alcohol.

I feel like I have fucking brain damage and nerve damage. My past psychosis flares up giving me horrible anxiety. My whole left hand feels arthritic. I've been having muscle spasms for 48 hrs that don't stop. Stomach hurts, puking. My whole body is "buzzing" very uncomfortable. I have random panic attacks that last 30 sec and then stop. Everything hurts. I have zero attention span for anything. I just had the longest most disturbing episode of sleep paralysis I've ever had last night, and 100 other things I can't even think of right now because I've just become "adjusted" to them.

I want to stop so badly, but when I don't drink the weight of all my shortcomings, inadequacies and the general fucked up state of my life pushes me back to drinking. It's like I just want to be blacked out forever just to not exist anymore. Alcohol is death you keep waking up from.

I'm just so tired... so so tired... I'd rather be back on heroin at this fucking point.

I need help but it's so difficult to get it. I wish I could just go check into a fucking rehab but my fucked up country makes that into its own trial and tribulation when you're broke.

Just needed to vent. Love yall.

Sometimes I feel like a broken record as I've said all this 100 times.

Fuck man.....sad to hear this.Alc.is terrible poison indeed.I see constantly what it takes from a person.Why just change it to Kratom and antiabxiety meds?(like before)At least less damage to your body.Wish you quick stabilize

 

[Jabberwocky]

does anyone have any knowledge about alcohol induced neuropathy (if this is what is going on)?

my left arm is fucked up, my fingers hurt, my bicep has been spasming almost non stop for 4 days and transient muscle pain that comes and goes, but no tingling or numbness

I've been sober for 3 of the last 4 days

at what point do I go to the doctor for this?

my father had pretty extreme neuropathy from alcoholism and was in constant pain, but we don't talk so I can't ask him... even later in life he was in huge denial about his problem and lied to doctors about his drinking (so they didn't cut off his hydrocodone), so he ended up getting THREE neck/spine surgeries to "fix" his pain and it only made his pain worse, because it was from alcohol not because his spine was messed up

 

[PtahTek]

quick question:
are you staying hydrated with water and eating?
dehydration can cause an ass of issues this from experience.
not to make light of this just curious with love

 

[Jabberwocky]

quick question:
are you staying hydrated with water and eating?
dehydration can cause an ass of issues this from experience.
not to make light of this just curious with love

Yeah, I drink tons of water every day and always have, at least 3-4 liters. I make sure to eat before and after drinking every time. I also take a multivitamin 2-3 times per week.

Overall I think I take relatively good care of my body for someone who drinks like I do.

 

[PtahTek]

Time to maybe see a doc, then, friend. Hope it can be sorted correctly without a bunch of guesswork from these youtube drs.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Time to maybe see a doc, then, friend. Hope it can be sorted correctly without a bunch of guesswork from these youtube drs.

I made an appointment. I'm like 99% sure he's just going to tell me to quit drinking and take vitamins. But plan on maybe asking for some naltrexone while I'm there maybe that will help me get off for good... but then I may also have to quit kratom as well if it blocks it , I only take 5-6g per day now, so won't be bad. Not dependent like I used to be.

 

[PtahTek]

. but then I may also have to quit kratom as well if it blocks it

Please do what you can to get the alcohol issues straighend out and afterward maybe try kratom again?
Does doc know about the kratom usage? Maybe it can be brought up if he/she/they are up on their research and educated.
You have been dealing with this for a while and would like to see the old snafu back... or was he the drunken one?
Regardless, we do want to see you through this cause I can see a degeneration over the past few months and it scares me if something can be done and isnt.
I only recognize degeneration from my own experiences.

 

[Jabberwocky]

You have been dealing with this for a while and would like to see the old snafu back... or was he the drunken one?

well, I'm doing a fuck load better than I was 4-5 months ago with the whole serotonin syndrome debacle and multiple hospital visits, and overall I'm doing better on the booze front, too. Out of the last 180 days I've been sober from alcohol for around 80-90 of them. (I lost count, but close to half)

I just go on these week long binges and it wrecks my body, these symptoms I describe started awhile ago but seem to get progressively worse after each binge. I'll be sober for a few days, start to feel better, then relapse again. I'm sure you know how it is.

I think the old snafu you describe is drunk snafu. I typically post more and joke around more when I drink. I'm more quiet and melancholic when I'm sober.

 

[PtahTek]

I'm more quiet and melancholic when I'm sober

same here.
thinking it may have to do with having to deal with life on its terms rather than on my own. not sure, though.
maybe a balance and sanity return after a while but what fun is that? jk
either way imo you are worth your weight in gold so do whats best for you, friend.

 

[Nas47]

does anyone have any knowledge about alcohol induced neuropathy (if this is what is going on)?

my left arm is fucked up, my fingers hurt, my bicep has been spasming almost non stop for 4 days and transient muscle pain that comes and goes, but no tingling or numbness

I've been sober for 3 of the last 4 days

at what point do I go to the doctor for this?

my father had pretty extreme neuropathy from alcoholism and was in constant pain, but we don't talk so I can't ask him... even later in life he was in huge denial about his problem and lied to doctors about his drinking (so they didn't cut off his hydrocodone), so he ended up getting THREE neck/spine surgeries to "fix" his pain and it only made his pain worse, because it was from alcohol not because his spine was messed up

Yea man.Alc. damage nerves endings sometimes.I know alcoholics with the same issue-neuropathy.There is enough pills&kratom and i am sure,if you want you can make it-to quit drinkin' and go in remission....how long,that long-it does not matter.importante to make alc.brake....crossfingers...You great mind&soul...i would be glad,if you feel better

 

[Jabberwocky]

urgh aftera good run of doing pretty well, i've drank every night but one this week. i need to start taking some drastic action. i was thinking about just giving my boyf my wallet so itsnot so easy for me to just go and buy booze. its just ridiculous. i'm trying to get prregnant and drinking like this will harm my fertility and a baby if i do get pregnant. i'm pretty sure i actually could stop if i got a positive test but i need to stop, or rein it hugely, now.

 

[F.U.B.A.R.]

urgh aftera good run of doing pretty well, i've drank every night but one this week. i need to start taking some drastic action. i was thinking about just giving my boyf my wallet so itsnot so easy for me to just go and buy booze. its just ridiculous. i'm trying to get prregnant and drinking like this will harm my fertility and a baby if i do get pregnant. i'm pretty sure i actually could stop if i got a positive test but i need to stop, or rein it hugely, now.

If its a choice between kids or booze, I'd stick with the booze if I were you. Kids drive you to drink anyway, so you may as well just cut out the middle man...


Seriously though, I'm sure that getting pregnant will be enough of an incentive for you to stop drinking.

I'd really recommend trying to get hold of some amitriptyline to get you through the first few days.

 

[Nas47]

Before get pregnant my wife & I used to drink at some point every night.Made a dinner,a salad and we sat in front of TV eating&drinkin' a little bit.During and after the pregnancy she quitted fully....to this days......a glass at some fest.....loose the desire to drink alc.somehow.