Guys, my vision. Is spaghetti, but I’m gonna try.
Sometimes, I don’t know how to do it. But after someone invests some time to listen, to me, it all makes sense. My point is understood. Generally.
There are clearly people here like that, and I appreciate those who have met me here,in that way, Because it may have saved me child’s life.
As much as you can understand me thanking you for that as much as possibly could, in any way I could, it’s more. Much more. think about it. I’m so thankful to everyone. Everything feels different. I’m so thankful.
I couldn’t do it, in a way
Be here fully for someone else I’m here because it’s personal to me.
You’re here because you’re better than me. I give you that. It’s friendly. I love giving you my failure as your victory.
From here guys, it’s always hits different. We know that. We say we get it, but from here, it always hits different.
As far as I understand integration, that’s how close and far it gets.
Grammar heavily gets in my way of me being fully understood. As we are doing it now. Reading.
I assure you, even though I find a way here, verbally, everything is different.
Fuck, I thank you guys. Anyone who gave me a minute.
Guys, I’m trying too. Honestly. For me and for someone else
And in fact, I’m very happy to say, as this occurred to me as I type, naturally, I actually am like that.
I was lead to believe, because of where my soul landed, and what I did with it, people couldn’t help to say I’m no good. It’s not their fault either.
They told me I sucked. I eventually believed it. That’s how it works.
Careful , mindful of how you talk to young people.
Im telling you things I can’t do.
But today, I honestly understand my soul is golden. It’s true. Fact.
It’s getting close.
The day I bring it back, the day I can invest in you, you’ll love me. I assure you. That’s how it goes.
Drugs got in my way, they did. Heavily. Oh, the things I would’ve had. Oh, What I lost.
Guys. It’s hard to say this and not be egotistical, but just like my child, not only would I have made it, I would’ve been at the very top tier at what I do. It is fact.
Man, when. Think of what I could’ve had. Not even materially. People would’ve known my name.
As drugs possibly may be saving us,
her and I, today, they took my life away from me.
They crushed me. Beat me. Totaled me. Fuck.
She has to get those rewards. She deserves them. Her soul deserves the happiness that’ll come.
Don’t get it twisted, I’m here telling you about me. But it’s all for her.
If I did in fact fail until the end of it, if drugs did this to me, and led me back to mushrooms, and it took us to that moment that saved her fucking life, so be it.
In a way, from somewhere far away from us, that would sooth my soul more than anything.
You people need to heard my emotion. I thank you for what you gave me.
When I told her, that in way, I would glady give myself over an over again as a complete failure if it took us to that moment, it hit her, how much I actually love her in a way a 17 year can’t understand.
And it hit her. And it made me so happy.
It needs to be made clear, this is to emphasize a point.
That is not how the story ends. She will not be visiting father in a hospital. At least not anytime soon. We will both be there for this, successfully.
Successful in this case, has nothing to to with professionally. Our souls made it.
What a moment.
While someone else could look at me as 90 years of failure, and they’d be right, but that was magic.
Guys, she believes. I fucking love it. She believes in herself. She believes to trust her intuition.
It’s right. Always I swear.
It feels like that anyway, and im sure thats not true, but I’m telling you, this girl is a gift to this planet, and she knows it now.
It goes away. I’ll pull it out of her. It’s her natural self.
Sometimes it feels like someone is insulting someone else’s child, it’s not like that.
In place where she isn’t my child, I could meet her intellectually in a way, and see that she is special.
You guys don’t understand what im talking about. This woman can help the planet. Souls.
And if she so chooses to do something else professionallly, which is perfectly ok, she will dominate.
I’m sure. She’s sure, even in days it completely escapes her. We know this as fact.
I could go on, and I will. As long as feel like it.
Someone will take the time. It astonishes me.
If you’re doing it, good for you.
You invest in souls.
And I don’t care if someone’s gauge for the quality of life is material goods, your soul is beautiful.
I try to give back, in my way but there is no lie here.
You are good
Doubts creep in, because you know things about your life that I don’t.
Maybe there are some ways that you are not good. It’s ok. We are what we are.
A raccoon will make noise and leave a mess. He’s a racoon. It’s ok.
You are you, and in your “failure”, you are gorgeous. It is fact.
Im trying to give you something, no exaggeration is necessary.
I like to flaunt my feathers sometimes. Is pride actually a sin?
Do it. It feels good. Because there a reason to be proud.
I know how this sounds to some people, at certain times on your life. I lived it. But friend, you are not bad.
I know someone doesn’t believe me. You’re wrong. You will get this, one day. Feels great.
Please, you’re human, we are where are. How much do we understand?
I don’t know, ever where my conversation will lead, but I always get to my point, to anyone who is invested, openly.
Thank you, whoever you are.
Likes don’t mean a thing to me. I’ve never pressed it,and feel free to do as you may, but it means nothing to me. I love you. You love me too. What do likes matter?
I don’t know your name because I’m forgetful, because of drugs.
invest. I’ll know it.
You are good.
Guys, I’ve chased this shit. In a sense, I did wrong. Completely.
The things that happen to my stomach because I have to make up for tolerance. Man, I got stories, if anyone could bare them.
I don’t know. If I wasted my stomach, if I mangled my mind beyond repair, from one angle, it was worth it, for her. If it took us the moment that saved her life. I’m convinced it did.
She has no reason to be that irresponsible. It could possibly take away what’s actually destined to happen to her.
The world is waiting for her.
A child can’t help but think their parent would only say such things because, what else would a parent say? And it’s true.
She now understands that’s only one side of it. She knows that regardless of it coming from a place of me being her parent, it is also fact. She owns whatever she wants.
I’m just happy.
Baby girl, my love. There is leg work you have to do
Do it. You have no idea the reward that’s waiting.
I want to talk endlessly.
I do. About everything. About nothing.
I want to poke. Dig
It terrifies many. It is 100% good, in the end.
I want to talk. Endlessly.
But I want to sleep