I got 6 shots. I wanted to stop at 2 because I was feeling bad and because of their verbal threads I got 6 and now I think about killing myself every day because I feel awfully bad and nobody understands it because invenga /xeplion is such a good medication
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Mental Health Coming off Invega (paliperidone) injections, v 5.0
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I'm so sorry that has happened to you Nina. They are not going to give you any more injections, right? No more than the 6 you've already had? You can start to heal now.
But my family doesn't understand why I'm not doing better, actually I'm doing worse than with 2 injections. They think I need another psychiatrist or to get hospitalized since I spend all day lying will my elderly mother does everything. I am really bad
People with few injections feel relatively good compared to me. And they heal quicker. I would need a shrink that admits that what happens to me is because of xeplion and this is impossible.
Plus I feel ver bad every day and night,I sleep zero and my sleeping pills just make me sleep 4 hours.
I cant hardly walk and in this 4 months and 14 days I got no improvement
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But are they going to give you more invega injections? Or no more?
I convinced a shrink to pass to pills which I don't take.
I just went to the doctor for mild psychosis.
What is really terrible is that no doctor accepts that xeplion can go wrong and I can't convince my family that what I have to do is to heal from the injections they forced me to place with lies
We're they nice and understanding?
Not at all. I finally said I was going to quit the injections and they called a week later saying they prescribed pills Risperdal
MatteM92
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if I console you with 2 injections I feel terrible. and after 10 months I am not improving. so 2 or 6 changes little
I am sorry to hear that
Maybe one day soon it will start to get better. You have to have faith that you will get better 
At 2 I felt much better. I had little anhedonia. I had some dopamine. It was totally different for me. I would have had hope of recovery
Jabberwocky
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When you say at 2 do you mean the first 2 loading doses or the 2 shots after that? When I had the first 2 loading doses I was actually pretty good but at the time thought it was bad. I only had a little anhedonia but I could still watch tv & enjoy it enough, I could wake up early & feel good enough, I had enough motivation, I could feel some effects of coffee & food, music, I could exercise & feel good enough & even somewhat energized but it wasn't the same as it used to be so I thought it was bad at the time. I would give anything to go back to even just the way I was on the first 2 loading doses I'd consider myself recovered & be happy with that. It was the first proper does of 75mg that ruined me I still don't understand how something can have ruined me so badly. I stopped after that dose & I'm 5 months off now & even though there have been some small improvements it's still an absolute nightmare & I just want to be back to myself mentally & physically it's so hard to keep the hope that it's going to happen it's just so painstakingly long
Jabberwocky
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It really sucks! I shed a few tears the other day when I was listening to a song. It wasn't full on proper crying but atleast I actually shed a few proper tears & kind of had this small sensation that I wanted to cry more but then it passed pretty quickly. I wish I could cry again so much & just have a big release. I used to be a very emotional person
Yep I feel ya honey. I couldn't even cry tears of joy when I gave birth to my son!
It was the same for me. I felt bad but good in comparison to 4 and 6. The 5th was the one that ruined my sleep. Since then I have little hope of recovery and basically think about how to kill myself. If anybody would phantom how bad I fell all day and almost all night, since I sleep 4h with pills, would wonder why I am still alive.
My family will be my murders too because I wanted to leave it at 2
semperaltius4r
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I walked a lot in the last couple of weeks, but without having lost any weight yet.
At which month can you start to lose weight? Someone mentioned it some pages before but I forgot it.
At which month can you start to lose weight? Someone mentioned it some pages before but I forgot it.
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semperaltius4r
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also,
I'm becoming more and more pessimistic: does your intelligence ever go back to normal?
I can't read much, just simple texts.
My perception is not there anymore.
-> perception, ability to absorb, to think critically and to have thoughts.
Is there any recovery story of someone who got everything back? All thinking capacity and all faculties?
sureyou can't lose your spirit but yes the brain that belonged to it/enveloped it, if that doesn't work, it feels like I've lost much of my self.
- 7 months off, much less brain fog,
but still able to read simple things only.
I'm becoming more and more pessimistic: does your intelligence ever go back to normal?
I can't read much, just simple texts.
My perception is not there anymore.
-> perception, ability to absorb, to think critically and to have thoughts.
Is there any recovery story of someone who got everything back? All thinking capacity and all faculties?
sureyou can't lose your spirit but yes the brain that belonged to it/enveloped it, if that doesn't work, it feels like I've lost much of my self.
- 7 months off, much less brain fog,
but still able to read simple things only.
I am 4 months 15 days off, when can I expect any kind of improvement? I live basically lying down all day in a catatonic state. And the sadistic shrink and family wanted to place me more they still think they did good. How is it possible that other people have understandable shrinks and family?
One of my family who is an MD can't believe xeplion did this to me so it is a sign of psychosis to blame xeplion. She tells me to look for cooking recipes instead of xeplion forums. I can't check anything that's not related to xeplion! And I can't cook!
One of my family who is an MD can't believe xeplion did this to me so it is a sign of psychosis to blame xeplion. She tells me to look for cooking recipes instead of xeplion forums. I can't check anything that's not related to xeplion! And I can't cook!
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11 months off...feels like nothing really matters...i dont get excited or amusement..i feel like an empty shell...on the good sidr my mind is sharp i can think like i used to but something big is missing..well thats my soul i think invega stole that from me..
Can you watch tv or listen to music?
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