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Mental Health Coming Off Vraylar (cariprazine), Rexulti (brexpiprazole), or Abilify (aripiprazole)

My energy appears to be circulating the proper direction more consistently. The ratio of proper to reverse circulation is moving from a 1:9 ratio to about a 4:9 (this is throughout the course of a full day). So for most of the day, I feel like shit, but fortunately this ratio continues to get better.

I thought my issues were still ongoing from Vraylar, but it's difficult to say. I'd say, more than likely, the effects of the drug are over. The issues it caused are still ongoing but the bulk of my issues should be corrected when my energy is circulating the rightly direction all day. This shouldn't take long.

Edit: I figured I'd add...

I've never felt anhedonia like this before, and I was on Risperdal Consta! I have no desire to do anything and can't even bring myself to watch TV or play video games. The boredom I feel is so intense that anything compared to this would be better.
 
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Lots of stomach pain, lots of pressure on the brain. Feeling overall very bad i have to say. Suffering from the side effects of this drug.
 
I am sleeping a lot lately. I feel tired very much. At this point i really want it to end. I am in my bed, and watching Tik Tok, but i compare my life to those who have fun and it makes me realize, that i am far away from that.
I couldn't get myself to laugh at some point. I have lots of depression lately. I go outside when it is dark mostly. Most of the time i am inside. My neighbors make too much noise lately, like their television is very loud, specially in the night when i want to sleep.
They say you should go with the flow, because change is a constant thing. But a loud neighbor is just messing with my nerves. And i am already in a very stressful situation. I spoke a friend, and she said that women, when they get on their period experience hormonal change too. So it is compareable to a woman who just has frequency. For me as a man it is just very difficult.
My brain just go blank from time to time, and i feel some sort of depression lethargy, cause i don't fully live my life that i want to. But how can i do that, when i look like shit and feel like shit mostly.
 
I recently did a google search for what to do about blocked receptors: I found a website that suggested the following may aid for cyp3a4: valerian root, Ginko and Saint John's Wort.

I've recently started taking Ginko and Valerian in conjunction with Saint John's Wort. I feel a slight difference but nothing huge.

All in all, with this infection, it's difficult to say still what aspects of Vraylar are still affecting me, if any. I reckon by the end of April this infection will be gone. I've got plenty of supplements to last me until that point.

The only notable improvement in my condition is I didn't pee immediately upon waking up this morning. With all the toxins in my body I'm surprised I'm healing at all. Will continue to use meditation and supplements to cure this illness. Hopefully after then I'll be able to see my own energy again.
 
Eyelid twitching for me has finally subsided a great deal. Happens maybe 1-2 times a day every other day it seems like now, rather than all day every day.


My energy levels are trashed, though they were before I got on vraylar.

Feeling extra crappy today though Dying for some heroin or any full agonist opioid. Chronic anhedonia here, along with body pain, sweats, nausea, drowsiness, etc..etc..
Doubtful all this other stuff was caused by my short stint with vraylar, this is just generally how I feel when I have to be sober all the time, but thought you guys aren't alone in feeling like shit either way.
 
DeathIndustrial88 said:
Eyelid twitching for me has finally subsided a great deal. Happens maybe 1-2 times a day every other day it seems like now, rather than all day every day.


My energy levels are trashed, though they were before I got on vraylar.

Feeling extra crappy today though Dying for some heroin or any full agonist opioid. Chronic anhedonia here, along with body pain, sweats, nausea, drowsiness, etc..etc..
Doubtful all this other stuff was caused by my short stint with vraylar, this is just generally how I feel when I have to be sober all the time, but thought you guys aren't alone in feeling like shit either way.
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I mean, when you start feeling for craving dopamine or serotonin or start to feel more and more like crap, it is usually when this shitty drug is about to completely leave the body.
It is important though that we rewire our brains doing good stuff, to not get into a bad situation as before.
 
Master Green said:
I mean, when you start feeling for craving dopamine or serotonin or start to feel more and more like crap, it is usually when this shitty drug is about to completely leave the body.
It is important though that we rewire our brains doing good stuff, to not get into a bad situation as before.
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True. I hear you friend.

Although I've mostly felt like crap my entire life & am still on a plethora of other medicines.
 
Today, I started to notice the stiffness in my back is finally releasing. I feel like I haven't really felt "into my back" in quite some time. With the tension being freed up, I'm starting to see signs that a number of other issues are going away. If I recall, most of the issues started with my back being stiff and blocked up.

I actually feel like I have more motivation and energy
 
This can't be real. Every time, like for a week, when i start to think it is over soon another stupid wave hits me.
 
Recently i am getting flashbacks of psychotic emotional situations. For example, i am lying in bed and all of a sudden i am very psychotic for a few seconds. And then it ends. Like old memories of hopelessness and frustration come up to the surface.
The more i am in the digital world seeking out for that extra dopamine boost, i feel i have to come back to normal state, but that takes time. But when i am in a more calm mind of state, i feel i can monitor and describe my recovery process much better.
I am much more aware of my emotions and feelings which also start to appear more real. It is difficult to explain.

I am fasting at the moment, and i am on Day 5. So i can deal with all that hormonal change much more efficient, which is happening at the moment. And specially with the stress. I think if i was not fasting i would be probably feeling much worse.
I am about to loose the last 2-4 pounds of weight until i reach a six pack, which is kinda nice. I think i could be starting out having intense exercise at this point. Before that i could not imagine doing that. Like i have the extra energy or mental or spirit capacity to do a workout. I think the rewarding system of mine is really starting to become normal again. Yesterday i had a very intense orgasm , since a few months i have to say. After that i was like woooooooow. And i was sooo relaxed afterwards :) .
 
@Master Green Not sure how well-rehearsed you are with sensing subtle energies, but have you tried migrating the pressure from your head down your spine?

The cerebrospinal fluid is bioelectrical and may be able to "normalize" the pressure, assuming you can bring it in there.

I've had problems with pressure in my head too and last night I was in meditation when suddenly I noticed that simply by thinking of "dragging" energy down (from where it was knotted just under my skull) into my spine. My lower back became really warm the more I pushed it down until finally the pressure became "even", or at least I think so, between my head and torso and I felt like the knot that was in my neck was finally gone.
 
iridescentblack said:
@Master Green Not sure how well-rehearsed you are with sensing subtle energies, but have you tried migrating the pressure from your head down your spine?

The cerebrospinal fluid is bioelectrical and may be able to "normalize" the pressure, assuming you can bring it in there.

I've had problems with pressure in my head too and last night I was in meditation when suddenly I noticed that simply by thinking of "dragging" energy down (from where it was knotted just under my skull) into my spine. My lower back became really warm the more I pushed it down until finally the pressure became "even", or at least I think so, between my head and torso and I felt like the knot that was in my neck was finally gone.
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Interesting.
I can feel atmosphere for sure. "Energy or Vibe," is just a concept. For example i can sense a persons euphoric state, nervousness, like all emotions, and then body language and mimic. And i can feel the way someone talks, in which tone they speak and especially i look out for how friendly someone is.
And when you say you like that person overall , you fell like " Hey i like your vibe".
Energy for me personally is the driving force in the body. Like only physically. The mitochondria for example in the cells of our body produce energy.
I very believe in the inseparable connection between the mind and body. The move physically active you are , the more likely you produce testosterone
 
Today i was feeling very flat. I don't believe that St. John's Wort accelerate that much as i expected it to do. Or i am about to recover from the brain damage itself.
It could be that the drug does nothing to the body anymore and it is out "completely" (relevant for feeling normal)., but i am still needing time to adapt to the current state of mind. I can imagine that our brains got used to be damaged and that it is very hard to get back to the normal.
I feel i am much smarter than i was last week, but that could be also due the fasting i do.
I am loosing bodyfat and it is the only serotonin excretion at the moment i think.
I have painful headaches and the remaining pressure on my brain. I am feeling that i am recovering on every day, because every day something new happens.
The process is very slow though. Realistically, the way i know myself it could be something between 1-3 weeks until i fully recover or at least feel normal again.
What can you do. Screw loneliness, screw depression. All we need is fasting, good nutrition and good social interactions and we are set for a good life.
Instead we live in a society that wants to be split apart from each other. Race, wealth, political views, taxes and so on...
 
Master Green said:
Today i was feeling very flat. I don't believe that St. John's Wort accelerate that much as i expected it to do. Or i am about to recover from the brain damage itself.
It could be that the drug does nothing to the body anymore and it is out "completely" (relevant for feeling normal)., but i am still needing time to adapt to the current state of mind. I can imagine that our brains got used to be damaged and that it is very hard to get back to the normal.
I feel i am much smarter than i was last week, but that could be also due the fasting i do.
I am loosing bodyfat and it is the only serotonin excretion at the moment i think.
I have painful headaches and the remaining pressure on my brain. I am feeling that i am recovering on every day, because every day something new happens.
The process is very slow though. Realistically, the way i know myself it could be something between 1-3 weeks until i fully recover or at least feel normal again.
What can you do. Screw loneliness, screw depression. All we need is fasting, good nutrition and good social interactions and we are set for a good life.
Instead we live in a society that wants to be split apart from each other. Race, wealth, political views, taxes and so on...
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I read a report that Saint John's Wort does the opposite of intended in what we deem for recovery when used in excess. I'm not sure what mgs that excess is, it could exceed 1,000 mgs, or it might be over 1,500 mgs. Also, many supplements shouldn't be used for more than 6 weeks at a time. Some supplements should only be used for 10 days. and so on.

I've been considering my use of supplements for this recovery and started to think that I'm using many of them in excess. I'm starting to consider, for example, only using Ginko Belopa every 3 days instead of every day.
 
iridescentblack said:
I read a report that Saint John's Wort does the opposite of intended in what we deem for recovery when used in excess. I'm not sure what mgs that excess is, it could exceed 1,000 mgs, or it might be over 1,500 mgs. Also, many supplements shouldn't be used for more than 6 weeks at a time. Some supplements should only be used for 10 days. and so on.

I've been considering my use of supplements for this recovery and started to think that I'm using many of them in excess. I'm starting to consider, for example, only using Ginko Belopa every 3 days instead of every day.
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Interesting, do you have any source for that?
The tolerance which builds up is normal i guess.
 
Yesterday evening i had heavy brain pain, literally the soft tissue in my head was hurting. I never had such an experience in my life i think.
I had headaches, and brain pressure, but not the amount of brain pain like yesterday. It was intense.
They day today started off very bright i had to say, despite the shitty weather (only cloudy and rain). I got new information, about dieting, like the Snake diet.
Then i had a longer conversation with a 19 year old guy that just came out of prison, but very small minded guy i have to say.
Anyway i did my human interaction social thing and i am slowly getting better at it. For example sometimes i fall into a hole in the middle of a conversation...
I was very positive today. Boredom is rising. Thoughts about purpose on life start to appear, the connection to god strengthens.
Tomorrow i will break my 7 Day fast. Today i did a dry fast, i am experimenting with it at the moment and see how it goes.
I am feeling slightly more alive then yesterday. I can feel excitement which i could not while on Vraylar. I can sense adrenaline rushes more.
The potential that the Days could be more "dark " is present though. It is kinda weird to say, but i feel more and more like my old self every day, i have to say.
On very rare occation i hear voices too. Yeah i know i think that will always be there, whenever i don't talk to other people i fell into this hole where i feel so disconnected. And those brain connections that lead to "schizophrenia" did not appear over night, so i still have them in me. I just have to rewire my brain and reprogram it, this is how i see it. But it is not that much big of a deal, because i am reaching my weight loss goals and i am fasting, which also gives me an enormous endorphin rush. Specially today while i am dry fasting. So everything is balancing each other out at the moment.
 
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