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schizopath said:
Cops came by the door and I "aced" every question! Need to find out who the fuck snitched on us... mfw my friend was hiding behind the drawers... but the cops KNEW that he was there?
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Well... Shit :(

So, the cops just left and you are not in trouble? That is what i hope and that is my wish.
 
Did someone fart? said:
Well... Shit :(

So, the cops just left and you are not in trouble? That is what i hope and that is my wish.
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They left after I gave back 3k€ bike. Otherwise they would have gotten warrant in minutes, we both have gotten caught with 1k€ drugs + other stolen shit + jail time.

Big brain moves. But Im sure it was that 18yo bitch...
 
Hmm, no matter what I do, I truly cant change that Im a scheming coward narcissist in the end(?). Though as of now, Im thinking its unconscious scheming since it seems to be more obvious to other people. And if I consciously "scheme", which I dont do, Im honest about it...
Whats up with being a good person if you still are a fucking joke. On top of being a pussy, Im also "too honest". No filter type idiotism. #deleteexcistance
Therefore, am I only being a "so called good and reliable person" because I know I suck and lack self-respect? + Guilt or some shit.
I assume it actually matters more, that atleast I am a good person blahblah, but knowing this, why would I be a good person anymore?
Actions speak louder than words.




Fucking speed comedown.
 
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... I really put myself into stimulant psychosis or some shit on my teens with sleeping 2h every night 🤦‍♂️

Now these stimulants be putting me into alternative universe. ehhh...

Guess I ll stick to...? Drugs I feel like doing, but not as in obligated way. Speed is only fun for a very short time. Fuck staying awake. Ohh, border be border.
 
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schizopath said:
... I really put myself into stimulant psychosis or some shit on my teens with sleeping 2h every night 🤦‍♂️

Now these stimulants be putting me into alternative universe. ehhh...

Guess I ll stick to...? Drugs I feel like doing, but not as in obligated way. Speed is only fun for a very short time. Fuck staying awake. Ohh, border be border.
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But then again.... I quit antipsychotics 7 months ago. 0 "non-drug-induced" mania or psychosis. And lesser intensity of psychosis when have had. So to try haldor or not? Propably fucking not.
 
schizopath said:
Hmm, no matter what I do, I truly cant change that Im a scheming coward narcissist in the end(?). Though as of now, Im thinking its unconscious scheming since it seems to be more obvious to other people. And if I consciously "scheme", which I dont do, Im honest about it...
Whats up with being a good person if you still are a fucking joke. On top of being a pussy, Im also "too honest". No filter type idiotism. #deleteexcistance
Therefore, am I only being a "so called good and reliable person" because I know I suck and lack self-respect? + Guilt or some shit.
I assume it actually matters more, that atleast I am a good person blahblah, but knowing this, why would I be a good person anymore?
Actions speak louder than words.




Fucking speed comedown.
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Damn dude. Sounds like you're being a little extra hard on yourself. Probably because you're crashing.

Try and get some rest, and reevaluate tomorrow. I can almost assure you that you're not as bad as you might feel in your head.
 
deficiT said:
Damn dude. Sounds like you're being a little extra hard on yourself. Probably because you're crashing.

Try and get some rest, and reevaluate tomorrow. I can almost assure you that you're not as bad as you might feel in your head.
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I will be visiting a psychiatrist later to get prescribed maoi or and dopamine blocker and hopefully some mild benzo. No personal goals or hopes, tbh, no hope for humanitys future and so on. Not sure if I ever even had.. Sooo... depression for like 20 years. You get used to alot of things in that time I guess.
 
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Moving in with my dearest friend in some months.

Lost a friend I thought was a real one... Best friend stopped me from stabbing him after I stopped crying (speed binge shit..)

Yeah...

Rapeplay was pretty fucking fun
 
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Ughh

My addict personality is rationalising & trying to justify the use of sweet brown fetty & benzos

Trying to keep myself occupied with healthy habits but I fear the fake temporary bliss will win in the end

I'll probably end up mega dosing benzos just to stop the seizures from happening
 
I quit my job and I feel a lot better for it. I decided I was going to quit less than 24 hours before I quit. It's so liberating, moving on. I feel like an enormous weight has been lifted. I always feel like this, whenever I move on from anything.

Variety is the spice of life.
Change is as good as a holiday.
Blah blah blah.

Bring on the new me!
 
Eldritch Palmer said:
I quit my job and I feel a lot better for it. I decided I was going to quit less than 24 hours before I quit. It's so liberating, moving on. I feel like an enormous weight has been lifted. I always feel like this, whenever I move on from anything.

Variety is the spice of life.
Change is as good as a holiday.
Blah blah blah.

Bring on the new me!
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