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[Crackle pop]

hey mah brother good to see you again, ive been down some roads, and i really feel your depression, i have all kinds of mushy things to say, i like to spend time in mental health here, reading old posts and such, perhaps connecting with a beautiful soul, funny when you can say your truth to another that possibly can relate with, or even empathize with, and maybe even lift you, hell even blow off steam and heartache, yeah check out some other support groups here , fitting for you, as you are finding people that will at least put out effort for you with with understanding, be kind to self, tho i sometime kinda hate that sentiment(personally)for when in ill health and depression we want to do the opposite and no words can really console, but pls know you aren't alone you have us wild childs. to learn and perhaps even grow beyond pain with, i spend 50 percent of my laughing here, great tonic for the blues, check the sites out there, some, are funny as hell ,ones where you can escape and maybe even feel some light-heartedness in dark times for you, yes, there some real wise ass smart alecs here(always one nut in the fruit bowl or maybe its one fruit in the nut bowl) that mean well i know only one real mean troll,,,,,and that even that person makes me laugh( and has their place in BL,) or is it just a grimace and a groan, a bitter and sexist warthog, this person must hurt in side and feed off negative attention and shock value, hurts inside too, i digress, im trying to say everyone here has experiences that we all can share to help you and others you can make amazing connections and be understood and aided in our battles together, you arent alone and near everyone joins to help those in need,even the lil turdmuffins are so chill and empathic it sometimes
shocks me, again be good to yourself, oh hell its all about me so be good to me"""hugs that big but broken heart"""""

first laugh n smile of the day at 9pm lol thank you . Laughing is good for the soul.
Rewind 3 years i of been 14 years clean not 1 single lapse . I was a bodybuilder with a little hormone buisness that grew into a full time job n enabled me an my finance at the time to spur of the moment decide to jump on a plane every 4 to 6 weeks we had a mortgage a car each we had the world at our feet. My heart had stents but i took my meds EVERY day n was stable .
We had a huge group of friends that we used to party with n drink n indulge in coke at weekends life was fun it was sweet n always doin something or going some place.
To now addicted to crack living from pay day to pay day n having to shoplift a couple times a week. No car no buisness in a council bungalow in a mess no partner dying a death that could come tonight or in ten months but its comin thats for sure . I literally dont have anything goin for me any more.
My old life was so much fun and full of happy times my new life is hard depressing and im not getting any better next stop the morge it use to be next stop turkey lol. How things change hey

 

[Crackle pop]

I too went off topic i will be sure to check those forums out mate n thanks for all your advise means alot

 

[Robi]

Well wemt out at 7 with £10 . Got bacl at 7.40pm with £20 and half a G of the shit i hate yet like enough to fuk my life up. Ugh. This isnt life even when ur winning an using.
Roll on Wednesday have about 250 to spend on gifts n the other 700 odd pound is mine. Spendin xmas alone with that sort of money will be a challenge. Not moaning tho theres ppl put there with 0 for xmas period struggling. It is what it is....

oh bemoan all you want, but appreciating what can be had, it is what it is but you can make beyond that saying don't oh hell, at a loss for words but that's ok too, don't always have advice or have the perfect wonderful Enlightened advice. just want to commiserate, misery loves company but let always remember, dang i forgot, gone senile, drugs bad, brain function good) heck i asked my wife where i put my watch, and she said i havent worn one in 7 yrs

 

[Crackle pop]

oh bemoan all you want, but appreciating what can be had, it is what it is but you can make beyond that saying don't oh hell, at a loss for words but that's ok too, don't always have advice or have the perfect wonderful Enlighted advice. just want to commiserate, misery loves company but let always remember, dang i forgot, gone senile, drugs bad, bran function good) heck i asked my wife where i put my watch, and she said i havent worn one in 7 yrs

I hatw having to shoplift it may only be say 2 times a week but its degrading its dishonest id never steal of a person or a house etc even so i hate it then having to go to ya regulars who all want things at a fraction of the price n expects you to take pennies bcoz of your situation. Im lucky my dealer takes what i get half price. Cash or rock or both.
Lol seven years hahahaha do u even still own said watch
You do make me chuckle lol it kinda makes me forget all the shit going off. Thank you

 

[Robi]

first laugh n smile of the day at 9pm lol thank you . Laughing is good for the soul.
Rewind 3 years i of been 14 years clean not 1 single lapse . I was a bodybuilder with a little hormone buisness that grew into a full time job n enabled me an my finance at the time to spur of the moment decide to jump on a plane every 4 to 6 weeks we had a mortgage a car each we had the world at our feet. My heart had stents but i took my meds EVERY day n was stable .
We had a huge group of friends that we used to party with n drink n indulge in coke at weekends life was fun it was sweet n always doin something or going some place.
To now addicted to crack living from pay day to pay day n having to shoplift a couple times a week. No car no buisness in a council bungalow in a mess no partner dying a death that could come tonight or in ten months but its comin thats for sure . I literally dont have anything goin for me any more.
My old life was so much fun and full of happy times my new life is hard depressing and im not getting any better next stop the morge it use to be next stop turkey lol. How things change hey

in this awful shit your livin thru, i sense a strength with in you still, so odd

 

[Robi]

lets be friends and wreak havoc, no chaos but let show these veteran's how its done, wait they have seen and done it all....ok friend, we will go spread gingivitis, no ummmmm ill think of something to keep it spicey for you on your short time on this old ball of mud if its the last thing i do, i got silly string and a lighter, gather your prank ideas and we will take the show on the road...........its ON bluelighters!!, anythings possible in some forums, just follows common sense rules and we got this shit

 

[Robi]

I hatw having to shoplift it may only be say 2 times a week but its degrading its dishonest id never steal of a person or a house etc even so i hate it then having to go to ya regulars who all want things at a fraction of the price n expects you to take pennies bcoz of your situation. Im lucky my dealer takes what i get half price. Cash or rock or both.
Lol seven years hahahaha do u even still own said watch

well luv atleast you still have a conscience, there is honor amongst thieves, hell i stoled my own drugs and sold them back to myself,*twitch* doc says i be feeling much better soon*twitch

 

[Robi]

Thanks each and everyone for your replies an well wishes.
Well as we all know too well one is too much an 100 pipes isnt enough!
I fooled nobody but myself thinking i could have a single session.
The same day i went for 3 more
The next i whipped my own up from a gram of powder n got 0.88 back
Yesterday was a blurrr coz id been on vallium n my closest two noticed i blamed the benzos but they know n its gone to shit again.
My ex stayed last night first time weve spoke or saw one another in 2 months but my family do not like her causing more crap n shit my way. Shes just unkowingly taken me to score on her way home . Smoked that half a gram n whilst fiending have just sold my tv ive had 2 weeks a 46" lcd tv so i can sit n smoke more. And have a few quid which will of course go on even more either later or in the morning. I hate myself for slipping like this an to sell my tv anyone thay comes now Will kniw fora fact ive sold it for drugs being the waste of space i feel iam.
Its not enough my daughter was so so proud and that smoking crack WILL kill me soom my hearts fucked. And iv now fucked up. Yea i get mear a grand wed i can replace the tv but it dont change what's done an for crack.
I lied to myself n have let so many people down as stupid as it is my lapse was by being in the chemist waiting on my methadone when a random number texts for custom n just so happened to be on the same street. Why the fuck wasnt i strong n came home id beaten loads 9f cravings before that one.
Sorry for the somber post guys as u can imagine im feelin shit an worthless but ill still load this pipe. Light an inhale n not care for a min or two. Pathetic.

never a sorry! unless you hurt someones feelins and post huge blocks if you desire......nver worry, i went to the evelyns woodhouse skool of speed reading(no one will get that)woodhead is a hint

 

[Robi]

I hatw having to shoplift it may only be say 2 times a week but its degrading its dishonest id never steal of a person or a house etc even so i hate it then having to go to ya regulars who all want things at a fraction of the price n expects you to take pennies bcoz of your situation. Im lucky my dealer takes what i get half price. Cash or rock or both.
Lol seven years hahahaha do u even still own said watch
You do make me chuckle lol it kinda makes me forget all the shit going off. Thank you

no i traded it for an hourglass, as the sands of time,so are the days of our lives, yeah i strapped my hourglass on my wrist, im old school cool beaches, i tried to monitor my steps on it , then used it to make a call....oh well....it was just fake rolex i over paid for, i try to help in black market retail,oh ^disclaimer, that was a joke CIA*cover my cam with a booger

 

[Robi]

bye for now my partner in misdemeanors

 

[Fire&Water]

i went to the evelyns woodhouse skool of speed reading(no one will get that)woodhead is a hint

 

[Crackle pop]

wow i just loaded my last pipe n bigger than usual 0.12 i usually pop around a 0.5 on . Talk about bells ringing an blurry vision woah then to log back on n read your replies got me wired slightly para but laughing to myself then para n back to smiling at your replies lol
Silly string and a lighter random but yeah we can work with that hahaha
Have my coffin lid pop open during my service amd a spring so it sits me up to cover my geusts in y string. ... then i wont be forgotten . Nor forgiven lol
Partners in crime ay .... why not while i have the time
Top man thank you

 

[Crackle pop]

in this awful shit your livin thru, i sense a strength with in you still, so odd

Somehow yss i wake up dsily N get on with things as everyone elss does. My condition wpnt stop me living until the bitter end. Iam a fighter but i cant fight a heart thats too damaged to pump. Although im trying lol

 

[Robi]