๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ Social ๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ What Was YOUR Nightly Fix? v. Can't Sleep Sober

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Anniversary of my soulmate dying, so (so far tonight, over the last 3 hours):

Rum 120ml*
Malibu 120ml*
Cigarettes 9
Sertraline 400mg
Dihydrocodeine 860mg
Gabapentin 300mg (though I'd ran out and found one under my bed)
Sodium Valproate: 800mg
Cyclizine 300mg
Naproxen 500mg
Loratadine 30mg
Trazodone 150mg
Quetiapine 100mg
???? x 2 (also found two mystery pills under my bed that I have zero fucking idea what they were....maybeeeeeee they were 5mg Bisprolol's but I really don't know)




*via two large Pina Coladas I got on impulse

....should be soothed and sedated (or asleep) but I still just want to scream and scream and scream...

P.S. anyone who lives in England please come give me hugs and pills
Thats a lot of shit ma broda.I understand your pain.I am close to 50 and from my early twenty was witness of so many deaths-fatner,mother,uncle,friends,pets...everyday closer to death.for me,for you....for anybody.But thats ok.The things are used to be.Its hurt when young dies.When parrent buries his child,when the man suffer and there is no cure....Love you man.It will pass...those moment...like anything else,like the life itself
 
I treated myself to extra mg's today
But I feel so much better.

I am running low on Blue Rhino wax 82%,
so addictive but so good. I think that stuff is so addictive. At least I can smoke bud to chill if i have to when I have.

Anyway whew dabs are so strong. And good. ๐Ÿ’ฅ๐ŸŒฟ
 
fully fasted since last night
2 strong cups of coffee (after many all thru today)
More Marlboro 100s
40mg omeprazole
And In about 30 mins Iโ€™m gonna drop 3mg clonaz and Iโ€™m an hour maybe 1-2 more
 
About 10 or so big hits of a quality cartridge

been riding round town vaping weed/nic bumpin music goin to different stores dicking around getting groceries small furniture ect.

bout to go buy some weed and break in the new crib, itโ€™s a small apartment but affordable, and big enough for me and my girl

Just canโ€™t wait to get my tv setup and my Xbox and take a few more klonopin maybe and chill and watch YouTube/Netflix/Hulu etc.

Been stressed asf today so Iโ€™m happy weโ€™re gonna be fully moved in first day and finally rip my bong hard asf (been fiendish all day for some THC) ๐Ÿ™‚
 
About 10-11 grams I think I weighed up

smoked with a homie I just met from my girls work (he was drunk and I convinced him to smoke more then he wanted)
then he went home and then I broke my bong
fuck it Iโ€™ll get another bowl while Iโ€™m at it

K-pins for me until tomorrow (ima stick with cones lol) broke in my new crib with the bong (1gram bowl)

bout 16 mg klonopin (im with a my girl btw)
plus caffeine and klonopin is like sex ๐Ÿ˜‚ and I have perma-tolerance
 
Well after spending a hellish day on the car to fit the new head on the block only to find out why the car was leaking water from the 4th Welsh plug which took me like 2-3 hrs to remove as it was rusted tight. But got it out eventually and got the head mounted, cover, manifold and carb reassembled back on the block, just wiring and and connnecting the exhaust. But fuck was it a gruelling day, my fingers are banged up and cut to shit. But with that said, i had the following in the last few hrs.

300mg codeine.
2500mg asap
1250mg ibuprofen
20mg valium
250mg diphenhydramine
few bong hits
1.5l wine
200ml vodka
And a few hits H

Feeling super relaxed now and ready to just chill on my bed and watch "the purge season 2" till i pass out. Hope everyone had an awesome day. 19:35pm here now and ready for bed.

Sidenote. This car is becoming a pain in the butt now.
 
Well after spending a hellish day on the car to fit the new head on the block only to find out why the car was leaking water from the 4th Welsh plug which took me like 2-3 hrs to remove as it was rusted tight. But got it out eventually and got the head mounted, cover, manifold and carb reassembled back on the block, just wiring and and connnecting the exhaust. But fuck was it a gruelling day, my fingers are banged up and cut to shit. But with that said, i had the following in the last few hrs.

300mg codeine.
2500mg asap
1250mg ibuprofen
20mg valium
250mg diphenhydramine
few bong hits
1.5l wine
200ml vodka
And a few hits H

Feeling super relaxed now and ready to just chill on my bed and watch "the purge season 2" till i pass out. Hope everyone had an awesome day. 19:35pm here now and ready for bed.

Sidenote. This car is becoming a pain in the butt now.

What make and year of car is it? I never learned much about fixing cars even though my dad and other family members were good at it, which I kind of regret now. But cars seem to break down a hell of a lot less than they did 20-30 years ago.
 
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