Hello no clue how to use this shit cuz I’m new. My names Jackie and I’m here cuz I got a lot of questions and I probably got a few answers too. Lol🤪

[Jaxgee1025]

My message is to everyone on this site. I’ve tried (almost) every mind altering substance besides meth. But everything else (heroin, crack, cocaine, Molly, acid, pills). Is anyone else trying to balance mental health while still dealing with addiction even after having sobriety for a few months and just feeling like it sucked so hard to be sober but you know drinking and taking uppers is going to ruin your health and you don’t know how to cope?!?

Thank you everyone for welcoming me and for your words of encouragement. Just knowing someone even took the time to read what I have to say means a lot.

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Hey Jackie!

Firstly a massive welcome to you, its great you have decided to make an account and join the awesome community here on Bluelight.

Like you, I am often on Quora (and occasionally reddit) and I can say unbiasedly and honestly that you have found the number one place online for drug related questions, harm reduction, information, questions and much much more.

I would recommend having a look at the list of various sub-forums (click on forums top left drop down menu) and make yourself at home wherever interests you.

People will always take you seriously here as we have a great community that follows the BLUA (Bluelight User Agreement) and a team of great staff always online no matter what time.

So you won't have to worry about the clowns that often troll Quora as our staff are real people and not poorly coded bots

You should usually get plenty of answers here as well.

Again welcome to the forum it will be nice seeing you around. If you ever have any issues just contact that sub-forums moderator team.

Best of luck with the withdrawal process. It is very hard but if you have a will power and support (we are here for you!) I am confident you will get threw it like a trooper.

All the best,
Andy

Thank you I feel glad to have found a space on the interweb we’re I can get some answers to serious shit and can get past all the nonsense of the other forums.

I’ll check out the sub forums, much appreciated.

 

[TheUltimateFixx]

Thank you I feel glad to have found a space on the interweb we’re I can get some answers to serious shit and can get past all the nonsense of the other forums.

I’ll check out the sub forums, much appreciated.

ohhh bloody heck DON'T ever go on drugsforum. (Or, in case you've already committed that cardinal mistake, you know what I'm talkin' about)

 

[Jaxgee1025]

ohhh bloody heck DON'T ever go on drugsforum. (Or, in case you've already committed that cardinal mistake, you know what I'm talkin' about)

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Drugsforum? Shit I don’t think I did but I can’t say for sure…lol

 

[Jaxgee1025]

I'm not dealing with mental health probably have got mental health issues but ignore them because it's easier to ignore the problem. But i feel you when you say tried sobriety but it just sucks I hate being addicted physically does my head in to know without heroin im a mess. But I get detox then I'm bored as fuck i don't mean a couple of months I been over a year clean before

The fact that you’ve had over a year of sobriety is amazing and shows you really want better for yourself. I’ve only had about 5 months of sobriety and it was horrible. I spent those 5 months in a holding and then a halfway house. The only reason I lasted so long is I didn’t want to disappoint my family by coming back. I was very discouraged with the whole experience and the lack of support.

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Welcome to BL girl
I think everyone struggling wit addiction has mental health issues..I didn’t start feeling comfortable being sober until just recently, and I stopped using heroin like 4 years ago. And I was using opiates since I was 18 so I def feel like drugs fuck up your dopamine receptors

Wow yeah I definitely feel like my brain is not normal after abusing opiates. It’s been about four years for me too except I had a relapse in September but got through that and haven’t had a slip since. I’m not sober though because I drink. It would be nice to be completely sober but I just don’t see that happening right now…

 

[Robi]

I was prescribed pregabalin and gabapentin for my mood and it had zero effects on me. I don’t get why people like it.

no doubt

 

[SoCalShordie]

Wow yeah I definitely feel like my brain is not normal after abusing opiates. It’s been about four years for me too except I had a relapse in September but got through that and haven’t had a slip since. I’m not sober though because I drink. It would be nice to be completely sober but I just don’t see that happening right now…

I’m not completely sober either, I do drink at night. But I feel like that’s so much better than sticking a needle in my arm. I’ve come to realize on this journey of substance abuse you gotta learn to celebrate the small victories.

 

[TheUltimateFixx]

I’m not completely sober either, I do drink at night. But I feel like that’s so much better than sticking a needle in my arm. I’ve come to realize on this journey of substance abuse you gotta learn to celebrate the small victories.

Language pedant here. You can be a drinker and still be sober quite often because 'sober' literally just means 'not currently intoxicated'.

They should stop calling abstinence 'sobriety' when sobriety is merely the absence of drunkenness.

 

[Jaxgee1025]

I’m not completely sober either, I do drink at night. But I feel like that’s so much better than sticking a needle in my arm. I’ve come to realize on this journey of substance abuse you gotta learn to celebrate the small victories.

For sure…like When people would give me shit for being on Suboxone That’s exactly what I would tell them…We got to lift each other up and except everyone’s journey may not be the same.

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Language pedant here. You can be a drinker and still be sober quite often because 'sober' literally just means 'not currently intoxicated'.

They should stop calling abstinence 'sobriety' when sobriety is merely the absence of drunkenness.

Sober can mean your “clean” too. I feel like the general rule in recovery they try to preach is that in order to be sober it means of EVERYTHING. Even cigarettes…I call bullshit.

 

[SoCalShordie]

For sure…like When people would give me shit for being on Suboxone That’s exactly what I would tell them…We got to lift each other up and except everyone’s journey may not be the same.

Yeah I agree, I really hate when people (especially former addicts) judge those on meds prescribed to them like suboxone, or methadone like I was on. I successfully tapered off methadone early this year & im so grateful for that med for literally saving my life. Haven’t looked back since.

 

[yubacity]

The fact that you’ve had over a year of sobriety is amazing and shows you really want better for yourself. I’ve only had about 5 months of sobriety and it was horrible. I spent those 5 months in a holding and then a halfway house. The only reason I lasted so long is I didn’t want to disappoint my family by coming back. I was very discouraged with the whole experience and the lack of support.

You had 5 months clean which is great but your brain is still on reset this one of the great things about this forum the advice you get I been told that by so many here. 5 months in you will still feel gloom and doom . You have to just wake up each day keep stress to min and carry on through it i know itsa hard but it is what it is .

I have a very supportive wife and family both mine and hers but i feel they see getting of gear as just the detox you know what I'm saying once people see the physical wd has ended they think that's it they cured.The detox is the easy part I been through so many wd I can tell what's going to happen. This i think just my opinion is one battle that is just our own family helps but we own the fucking thing keep at it we hate being addicted but hate clean life we hate both so might as well hate life and be clean . Im stuck between trying to not get a physical addiction again so will smoke heroin 1 day leave 2 days between then smoke again but all im doing is counting down days until i smoke and now im getting minor wd the sweat aching legs so thats me fucked again. But we have to keep trying what other choice we got one big piece of advice drop all your pals that use we love them they our friends but a relapse when you still surrounded by is nearly a certanty good luck you can do it

 

[yubacity]

Wow yeah I definitely feel like my brain is not normal after abusing opiates. It’s been about four years for me too except I had a relapse in September but got through that and haven’t had a slip since. I’m not sober though because I drink. It would be nice to be completely sober but I just don’t see that happening right now…

Our brains are not normal after we fuck around with them on gear but they do return back to normal takes a lot of time but it does happen . Im 30 years into addiction 14 nearly 15 on heroin but after a year clean i was doing good until i decided to treat myself to a crack and heroin day that me fucked never think you well enough to try again. Your doing very well just reward yopurself by telling yourself you are clean you are doing it . Take on one addiction at a time but drink does make it easy to return but if im reading right you had one relapse in 4 years that brilliant dont let a relapse get you down it all part of getting clean most people relapse

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Sober can mean your “clean” too. I feel like the general rule in recovery they try to preach is that in order to be sober it means of EVERYTHING. Even cigarettes…I call bullshit.

Yeah I agree, I really hate when people (especially former addicts) judge those on meds prescribed to them like suboxone, or methadone like I was on. I successfully tapered off methadone early this year & im so grateful for that med for literally saving my life. Haven’t looked back since.

Congrats that’s not an easy thing to do…I’ve been off Suboxone since June after being on it for about 6 years on and off. But yeah that’s exactly what I told everyone about my experience with Suboxone it was truly a life saver. Keep up the good work…sending positive vibes…

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Our brains are not normal after we fuck around with them on gear but they do return back to normal takes a lot of time but it does happen . Im 30 years into addiction 14 nearly 15 on heroin but after a year clean i was doing good until i decided to treat myself to a crack and heroin day that me fucked never think you well enough to try again. Your doing very well just reward yopurself by telling yourself you are clean you are doing it . Take on one addiction at a time but drink does make it easy to return but if im reading right you had one relapse in 4 years that brilliant dont let a relapse get you down it all part of getting clean most people relapse

I like the idea of dealing with one addiction at a time because then it doesn’t seem so overwhelming. And your right on the money about how drinking can lead to giving in to temptation…I was definitely drunk, depressed and lonely when I had my relapse. It was also premeditated because it had been brewing in my mind for about a week or two and then that one night while I was drunk I decided “ fuck it!”. Luckily I’m not around anyone who uses and my old connects aren’t available to me anymore more. Thank God for that.

 

[SWAL71]

Hello Jaxgee...and friends.

I'm SWAL71 (Stuart...born, 1971) and I am new to this too. I have not read the board yet, but I will, I just wanted to say hi and tell you a bit about myself. I am from Australia and have been a heroin addict for 27+ years. I have been on a high dose of Suboxone sinse 2012. I get 16 takeaway's when I get dosed, so I have heaps of time to play around with heroin and get back on Suboxone when I have had enough.
By the way...there is never enough!!! LOL

My predicament at the moment is: I have turned 50 this year and although I would call myself a Lifer as for as Subbies go...I find myself using at least a gram a day when I don't dose and all my demons return and I don't trust myself not to take Suboxone. I go into precipatated withdrawal more often than not (because I am impatient and I get scared of getting sick).

I won't bang on...I too have heaps of questions and maybe some answers to.

I hope you are all safe and well...

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Same here. And noticing one day that I always felt crap after drinking too much kinda made it a lot less tempting for me.
Instead of thinking 'I'm so stressed out I need a drink' I was thinking 'I' m so stressed out I need a drink which 'll make me... errrrr MORE FUCKING STRESSED'.
Like .

PS you'll like it round here. I do and I'm generally a misanthropic so-and-so.
And navigating the site you learn by doing. Just like droogs hahaha ha Xd

I know I’m a little late replying still trying to figure out the basics. Like how everyone’s response’s aren’t in order. Anyway… I wish I could be like you and think logically like “you know your gonna regret this”. Unfortunately my addictive personality takes over the logical part of my brain and is only interested in instant gratification.

 

[Jaxgee1025]

Hello Jaxgee...and friends.

I'm SWAL71 (Stuart...born, 1971) and I am new to this too. I have not read the board yet, but I will, I just wanted to say hi and tell you a bit about myself. I am from Australia and have been a heroin addict for 27+ years. I have been on a high dose of Suboxone sinse 2012. I get 16 takeaway's when I get dosed, so I have heaps of time to play around with heroin and get back on Suboxone when I have had enough.
By the way...there is never enough!!! LOL

My predicament at the moment is: I have turned 50 this year and although I would call myself a Lifer as for as Subbies go...I find myself using at least a gram a day when I don't dose and all my demons return and I don't trust myself not to take Suboxone. I go into precipatated withdrawal more often than not (because I am impatient and I get scared of getting sick).

I won't bang on...I too have heaps of questions and maybe some answers to.

I hope you are all