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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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t_xeplionhell said:
Interesting story about "haven" like experience. After my 2 "awakenings" (second awakening triggered all those things its called kundalini awakening) I felt/had enjoyment, memory, endorfine, joy, oxicitin, adrenaline and mood 600%+ compared to normal state and its pure haven(u don't even have need to wish for more high/bliss state cuz its perfect and stays 24/7 with you). My mind was quiet but when I was thinking I had deep thoughts x4-6 more deeper and branched then in normal state, also my abstract thinking was not even comparable to normal state(boosted by x6). Creativity amplified by at least x4 and I wrote very interesting 1h movie scenary in 1.5h time. Shit gave me amplified muscle strenght, x4 at least and I could lift car lol. Its like all parts of my brain(and body) started working x4-6(or more) more efficient and it makes life x100 better all together. Emotions also get amplified and you must learn to control them or u might die from laughing(I started laughing and I was losing air too fast and lungs started compressing which produced pain and suffocation lol, but I had no problems/injurities out of it) or get in problems, I learned very fast to control them(dont allowing them to escalate or amputate them when needed). I could sleep 5h without being tired. My feeling of peace got also amplified and nothing could make me agitated. I was not manic and I had no wierd thoughts. I was in constant meditative state like ur in deep meditation 24/7 which does not makes u problems tho it actualy helps to focus and memorise. My focus become x6 better. My motivation become x6. My voice become better. I had dream of me feeling exactly like I felt after invega and in that dream I was in hospital, all that happened. I also started feeling constant mild warmth + love like feeling in chest. I also had constant unexplainable feeling on top of my head which is smooth and pleasent(cant explain it) and also hardly explainable pleasent feeling + moderate warmth(its confortable, does not bothers you) - around my belly like sphere in air(never knew u can feel air like part of you in pleasent way) and in body at position of plexus. With intent I could feel air and objects around me as part of me so clear that its unexplainable. I could feel somebody entering air which I was focusing on with closed eyes or behind my back and I could do many more things with it. I was being able to feel chakras with intent and they felt stronger then before, strong like orgasm which you can maintain whole day at its peak, could make it even stronger then orgasm but then it can produce "burn" like painful feeling. Every chakra with becoming that strong got their own signature while feeling it like salt and sugar has its own signature in tasting it, difference between feeling different chakras were strong as between salt and sugar. Some chakras stayed 24/7 triggered and produced their feeling, also depending on events some chakras will trigger and produce their own feeling in their area, sometimes up to strenght same as orgasm by their own without my intent and it didnt bothered me it was nice tho since when they activate they boost something already boosted even more(example: solar plexus chakra will boost my strenght when I move its charge with my intent up to muscles I wanna boost, endurance and dopamine efficiency and if Im feeling adrenaline it can boost it if I want). My wounds were healing faster with pleasent oxicitin feeling at place of injurity. My math become x4-6 better. My iq got +30 points. I could imagine so complex detailed things in my mind with 4K quality and so beautiful instrumental music that is better then 90% of music of this world. I was never healthier you could tell it by hair, skin shining and digestion. I could eat 30% less cuz of my better metabolism probably. It didn't started as 600% it was slowly coming to it and still before antipsyhotics it was slowly improving towards more. Felt that way for few weeks until I was forced on antipsyhotics. I never did drugs. Invega made me drop from 600% to 0-1% its unbelievable. Somebody who seeks this liberation I can help after u recover. If you tell me this before I experienced it I wouldnt believe it that somebody can feel that way its unexplainable. Brain is big mistery but I think source behind those brain changes is behind something bigger, soul evolution which causes those things, probably. Its interesting that first two lowest freq chakras (red, orange) combined together have same signature feeling as orgasm, green chakra signature feels like love in chest if you ever felt love, other chakras signatures cant be explained easily since they are completely alien to people who didnt experienced them. What do you guys/girls think about my experience.
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I think that you had the real deal. What Christians call Grace what Buddhists call Samhadi... Which is why telling it and telling it actually causes it to dissipate. Because it is ineffable, words can never do it justice
 
darvocet21 said:
I think that you had the real deal. What Christians call Grace what Buddhists call Samhadi... Which is why telling it and telling it actually causes it to dissipate. Because it is ineffable, words can never do it justice
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I was telling about my experience to my 2 friends, week passed and it didnt dissipated, it got stronger thru that week tho.
 
this sexual dysfuction makes stimdick pale in comparison .. at least with stimdick there is some life present in there
 
i rather eat cat shit out of the kitty litter box than getting a shot of invega ..
i would eat catshit an entire year
 
I cant think of much worse torture than being put on invega injections. The wait just seems to be so damn long. I'm eagerly anticipating the 6 month mark and trying my best to distract myself as much as possible to make the time pass by quicker.
 
apsucks said:
I cant think of much worse torture than being put on invega injections. The wait just seems to be so damn long. I'm eagerly anticipating the 6 month mark and trying my best to distract myself as much as possible to make the time pass by quicker.
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It's hard to find ways to distract myself. I find it very fucking hard to distract myself. Sorry.
 
HellYesInvegaSucks said:
It's hard to find ways to distract myself. I find it very fucking hard to distract myself. Sorry.
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i know i think some people have extreme anhedonia from the injection unfortuntely i think we're both such people.
Some other people have it easier i think they have less anhedonia ... the anhedonia is the worst !@$!%!% you can have
Even looking at girls is like mwehhh .. no sex drive whatsoever. You could give me the hottest chick on the planet i would have zero interest right now
700 million bucks wouldn't do me anything ... yeah i would pay a surgeon to suck out depot of invega prolly

i know it get repetitive but holy fuck this anhedonia is horrible.. its more worse than any drug withdrawl
i rather lose a hand than getting invega shot .. i can deal with having one hand i can't deal with being stuck daily.
 
i cannot simply express how much i hate invega .. literally everything is better than invega .. the worst moments of my life are a godsend compared to invega. GOD this drug absolutely ruins your life
 
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