Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

[Koolio254]

Sad really really sad

 

[apsucks]

2,5 months from first injection and 37 days from last injection...day 37 it is

Yesterday i could feel my life could be still good and normal if this injection expires. it's so frustrating not to feel the sunlight on your skin and feel any emotions that normally come along with it. Spend most of the day on youtube and forums reading and watching vids about invega, kinda dissappointed by how few are there. Today i'm not so sure what to do because i don't connect to anything it doesn't feel like its worthwhile to do. Watched some dr pimple popper which was the only thing i could connect to for some reason. mostly i just do pacing around the room and walking outside.

if i weren't on invega my life would be good right now. the abilifry kinda sucks it gives headaches and stiff muscles but also lifts up the depression caused by invega. doctor wants me to go up to 10 but i will stay on 5mg for sure. invega is a human rights violation

 

[apsucks]

I've had monthly injections for 21 months and one 3-monthly injection. Then took pills for 12 months.

I've found a scientifically based podcast on how to optimize sleep btw, maybe you can learn something from it:


I have summarized the main takeaways if you don't have the concentration to watch an hour long video:

Sunlight exposure seems to be the main regulator of wakefulness. It is important to go outside first thing in the morning for about 2-10min to have sunlight shine in your eyes. To a lesser extent eating and exercising early during the day can solidify your circadian rhythm. It is also important, although not as important, to watch the sunset for 2-10min. Besides these factors you should avoid artificial light between 11PM and 4AM. It is advised not even to look at dimmed lights. Light exposure during this time reduces dopamine and can lead to depression, anxiety, learning problems, and an inability to focus. If you really want to look at a screen get a blue light filter like f.lux and dim the light. If you want artificial light from lamps place them low in your physical environment because the cells which register the light are located at the top of your eyeballs. Candlelight also doesn’t trigger these cells. In addition you might want to exclusively drink caffeine in the morning. Meditation, hypnosis and yoga nidra might also train your nervous system to go into a relaxed state (non sleep deep rest). After you have managed your light exposure there are a couple of supplements you could try. Andrew Huberman himself takes magnesium threonate (300-400mg), theanine (100-200mg) 30-60 minutes before sleep. You could also try 50mg of apegenin before sleep. Before taking any of these supplements consult with a healthcare professional because they can have serious side effects.

lotsa of injections ! how are you doing right now ? what kind of pills do you took ?

 

[apsucks]

Suffering at 3.3 months off is not even close to 1 month off, it was pure unbearable hell. Depression is on 10% now. Mood is neutral. I can also fall asleep normaly now and sleep ~8h-9h.

month 1 was 100 % bedbound receiving brain damage felt like boxing with mike tyson , invega triggered psychosis more than psychosis itself. too bad i didn't took enough supplements in month one ( except kratom). thankgod i wasn't bedfound for months like dirtyinvega or paula

 

[apsucks]

Already noticed some improvements my heart doesn't feel as congested or fucked up. i smell less invega probably the half life is already reached. 2 weeks ago i started smelling feriously like paliperidon under armpits etc clearly the body excreting all the junk.

 

[apsucks]

can't wait until the day i'm able to trip again on shrooms and weed. i just had a laugh.. thought about microdosing shrooms ,i was like yeah lets take 5 grams everyday caught myself laughing a bit.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

month 1 was 100 % bedbound receiving brain damage felt like boxing with mike tyson , invega triggered psychosis more than psychosis itself. too bad i didn't took enough supplements in month one ( except kratom). thankgod i wasn't bedfound for months like dirtyinvega or paula

I was bedbound 2 weeks.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

Already noticed some improvements my heart doesn't feel as congested or fucked up. i smell less invega probably the half life is already reached. 2 weeks ago i started smelling feriously like paliperidon under armpits etc clearly the body excreting all the junk.

At 3 months smell is low like around 20% as before. That could mean my half life is around 30 days.

 

[apsucks]

At 3 months smell is low like around 20% as before. That could mean my half life is around 30 days.

yeah similar rates here , every 30 days some symptoms gradually become less. this also happened at the end of the first month right in front of the thirth shot all my muscle stiffness went away and i could move around normally. i also notice right now at the end of this month less agitation, anxiety and heartburn. maybe we have faster metabolism. sleep is still jacked up i think sleep quality is proof of real improvement.
Right now i only suffer from :
No emotions
Poor cognition
Poor memory
Poor sleep
Blank mind
No personality / disconnect with history
there is much more but its all cognitive and neurological in general regarding the brain and not so much teh body . for some reason abilifry improved my anhedonia a bit

I think no emotions and that stuff takes the longest time to improve . the brain has to undo all the changes that invega does and it takes more time

 

[t_xeplionhell]

can't wait until the day i'm able to trip again on shrooms and weed. i just had a laugh.. thought about microdosing shrooms ,i was like yeah lets take 5 grams everyday caught myself laughing a bit.

First laugh was 1.5month off.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

yeah similar rates here , every 30 days some symptoms gradually become less. this also happened at the end of the first month. i also notice right now at the end of this month less agitation and anxiety. maybe we have faster metabolism. sleep is still jacked up i think sleep quality is proof of real improvement

For me every 10-14 days some symptoms become less visible.

Now almost no anexiety and when its active, it's low and does not bothers you much. I managed to do programming for 5h yesterday and it was interesting.

 

[apsucks]

i wonder when the interest in things return.. normally i'm interested in plants , psychedelics and so forth but ow not so. my identity seems to be partially removed, i wonder when this ends.

 

[John78]

It is okay to cry, just keep it to yourself.

Here are the benefits of crying.​

1. Crying relieves our stress. Tears produced by stress actually force our bodies to rid themselves of chemicals that raise cortisol, which is the stress hormone. This reduces tension from the body. Crying also activates the parasympathetic nervous system, which helps us relax.


2. Crying improves our mood. Crying is self-soothing. It helps us regulate our own emotions. When we force ourselves not to cry and ignore the way we have been feeling, it can lead to headaches and high blood pressure. Crying is a way to release negative feelings that have built up in a healthy way.


3. Crying reduces toxins. Toxic substances are released from the body along with our tears. Just like sweating, exhaling, and urinating, crying gets rid of substances that should not be present within our body. It also encourages us to clear our nasal passage.


4. Crying kills bacteria. Tears contain lysozyme, which is capable of killing 90 to 95 percent of all harmful bacteria in just five to ten minutes. That means crying is not only good for our emotional health — but also for our physical health.


5. Crying reduces pain. Crying releases oxytocin and endorphins which make us feel better both emotionally and physically. Instead of acting like we are fine when we suffer from an injury, it actually benefits us to cry because it could raise our pain tolerance.


6. Crying improves vision. Tears lubricate our eyeballs and eyelids. When we cry, the tears help wash away dust and debris. It also prevents dehydration which can cause blurriness.


7. Crying helps us sleep better. Since shedding tears causes us to relax, it puts us in a more peaceful state of mind, making it easier for us to fall asleep and stay asleep.


8. Crying demonstrates strength in character. When we cry, we are confronting our emotions instead of hiding from them. We are growing as a person. We are becoming more emotionally mature.


9. Crying helps the grieving process. It is a step toward recovery. By hiding our feelings, we will have a hard time receiving closure. The more we allow ourselves to feel, the better we will feel in the long run. It gives us a chance to move forward instead of staying stuck in the past.


10. Crying boosts communication. There are interpersonal, social benefits to crying. When we are struggling to explain the way we are feeling, crying can help emphasize the strength of our feelings about a subject. It can get across a point that we are unable to make with words.


11. Crying increases intimacy. Crying can bring us closer to another person because if we are comfortable being vulnerable in front of them, our relationship must be strong. We must really trust each other. We must really love each other. Sharing our deepest feelings with someone will make them more likely to share their own feelings with us in the future.

Oh to be able to shed a tear these days. I used to cry so much back then but I literally can't anymore.

 

[antiinvega]

Did anyone else try to smoke weed early on or feel like their brain got fried weed or not

 

[Antipsychiatry]

I know I said I wasn't going to post on here anymore, but I have too big of a heart to not share my current experience with you guys.

Recovery is possible. I'm living proof of it. Everyday I heal and I get closer to being that person I'm meant to be. Emotions are coming back strong. I had a super deep cry the other day and it was amazing to feel a rush of emotion like that. Also my sex drive has come back really strong. If you are off the shots, please start making positive life changes. There is no one coming to save you other than yourself. It takes courage to make those first steps towards recovery, but it's something you have to work at. It won't just magically happen for you. Meditation, quit masturbating, cold showers, suppliments, exercise, yoga. All these things are helping me a lot and I'm sure they may help you as well, if you're willing to give them a try. I feel like a lot of us are looking for some quick remedy for recovery. There isn't one. Only strong determination and will can get you where you are meant to be.

Good luck everyone, it will happen for you.

 

[apsucks]

Did anyone else try to smoke weed early on or feel like their brain got fried weed or not

yeah light headedness and other crap

 

[apsucks]

Oh to be able to shed a tear these days. I used to cry so much back then but I literally can't anymore.

on invega you realize that feeling depressed and crying is the best thing ever at least those are emotions

 

[SkavrsXeplion]

So di aver detto che non avrei più pubblicato qui, ma ho un cuore troppo grande per non condividere la mia attuale esperienza con voi ragazzi.

Il recupero è possibile. Ne sono la prova vivente. Ogni giorno guarisco e mi avvicino ad essere quella persona che dovrei essere. Le emozioni stanno tornando forti. Ho avuto un pianto molto profondo l'altro giorno ed è stato incredibile provare un'ondata di emozione come quella. Anche il mio desiderio sessuale è tornato molto forte. Se sei fuori dai giochi, per favore inizia a fare cambiamenti positivi nella vita. Nessuno viene a salvarti se non te stesso. Ci vuole coraggio per fare i primi passi verso la guarigione, ma è qualcosa su cui devi lavorare. Non accadrà solo magicamente per te. Meditazione, smettere di masturbarsi, docce fredde, integratori, esercizi, yoga. Tutte queste cose mi stanno aiutando molto e sono sicuro che potrebbero aiutare anche te, se sei disposto a provarle. Sento che molti di noi stanno cercando un rimedio rapido per il recupero. non c'è uno. Solo una forte determinazione e volontà possono portarti dove sei destinato ad essere.

Buona fortuna a tutti, accadrà per voi.

Da quanto tempo sei fuori dalla droga? e cosa ti hanno dato?

 

[t_xeplionhell]

Da quanto tempo sei fuori dalla droga? e cosa ti hanno dato?

I will answer for him. He is 1 year and 3 months off invega. He was 7 months on oral AP and after that he got 11 invega shots.

 

[Antipsychiatry]

The reason I say to stop masturbating, is because sex energy has incredible healing power. I'm discovering this for myself over the past little while.