cabbagepatch31
Bluelighter
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- Oct 3, 2019
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So I’m usually an IV user of both powder & BTH, whatever I can get my hands on. But lately, I’d say for about the past 4+ months, I’ve been IMing because it takes me so long to find a useable vein nowadays. I exclusively used BTH in the beginning because it was all I could find, and that stuff absolutely destroyed my veins. I know IMing heroin is terrible. That’s just another reason why I’m wanting to quit. I’ve purchased 30 methadone 10s, 20 oxy 30s, and 50 hydro 10s. I really got the methadone just incase I really need it, I’ve detoxed from methadone and it was terrible. My tolerance is a lot lower than it used to be when I was IVing powder. My idea is to take the Oxys in the begging, and maybe a methadone if I need it. Then start breaking the oxy in half, until I eventually graduate to the hydros. How does that sound? I started exactly a week ago today, so no heroin since then. I’ve never successfully detoxed on my own, only in rehab. I’ve tried doing the suboxone thing SO many times, but I really can’t stand being sick, and suboxone never seems to work for the first two days. Also, for anyone who detoxed from heroin with hydros, was a a lot easier than heroin? Should I taper a different way than i have stated?over how long of a period should i taper?I have access to more oxy and hydros if I need them. I’m really want to quit, but I can’t stop thinking about getting High..it’s been suck a struggle. Also, if I fail another drug test, I will possibly have to go to jail. I’m feeling a lot of shame at the moment for putting myself in this situation in the first place. I know doing heroin isn’t doing me ANY favors whatsoever. I wouldn’t say I have completely hit rock bottom yet..I maintain a full time job and live with my boyfriend is our home. But I don’t want to hit rock bottom, and I know if I keep going I will lose everything important to me. Any advice or words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated.