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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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TripSitterNZ said:
fuck trying to get properly woken up for my day. Had a shit sleep even 150 mg of caffiene not done much. i only had one bowl of weed in the bong last night. fuck my caffiene tolerance must be insane
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Go for a walk. I went to Centennial Park this morning at 8 AM. Freezing cold but bloody glorious start to the day. Sun just warming things up now. Feels so energising.
 
Atelier3 said:
Go for a walk. I went to Centennial Park this morning at 8 AM. Freezing cold but bloody glorious start to the day. Sun just warming things up now. Feels so energising.
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i went for a park around 8:30 am aswell. Im a bit more awake now i took a LSD microdose to wake me up now and get some energy. Just writing some philosophy essay atm. will get it done by the end of the day.

Feeling good now. Was awesome to see the bro who is new to acid have such a good trip he was laughing and laughing just loving life chilling. Saw random cats and rabbits running around and everything lol. I was like wtf this is crazy and i aint even on acid most buzzy shit man. Played most of my heaviest psy tracks. Was good to show the younger bro the light of acid. i wasent even planning on trip sitting but when i linked up with them they dropped the tabs so i was like hmm ill just chill and smoke some weed and get my speaker rode with them till the peak smoothed. Lol its crazy how music can effect everybody the same. Was giving me flashbacks hearing them describe the songs.

For myself i might only take one more big acid trip then stay microdosing. Nothing beats the joy of guiding somebody new to tripping to have a memorable life experience.
 
“I grew up being told, "If you do marijuana you'll be a slave for the rest of your life," and it only took me ten minutes to realize smoking marijuana was pretty cool. Then it was, "If you take LSD you'll be a slave for the rest of your life. Then it got to be, "If you take cocaine, you'll be slave for life." There was a time when I thought, "Hey, I've been taking Heroin for six months and I feel fine. You know, just on weekends." I actually believed that you didn't have to become addicted. I was wrong. The most important thing out of this is, don't lie to the kids. If marijuana is not going to make you homeless and addicted, don't tell people it is, because they'll found out it doesn't, then when they get to the stuff that really WILL, they ain't gonna believe you." - Dickie Peterson”
 
TripSitterNZ said:
“I grew up being told, "If you do marijuana you'll be a slave for the rest of your life," and it only took me ten minutes to realize smoking marijuana was pretty cool. Then it was, "If you take LSD you'll be a slave for the rest of your life. Then it got to be, "If you take cocaine, you'll be slave for life." There was a time when I thought, "Hey, I've been taking Heroin for six months and I feel fine. You know, just on weekends." I actually believed that you didn't have to become addicted. I was wrong. The most important thing out of this is, don't lie to the kids. If marijuana is not going to make you homeless and addicted, don't tell people it is, because they'll found out it doesn't, then when they get to the stuff that really WILL, they ain't gonna believe you." - Dickie Peterson”
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Yep, this exactly. This was exactly why I got into all the drugs so quickly. I smoked weed and realized it was fine, and they were lying. One thing after another after that. Psychedelics? More than fine, in fact paradigm shifting and life changing. MDMA? Amazing, beautiful. Opiates? I bet these are great too. Try them;... oh shit these are GREAT! etc

There are drugs that are safe (more or less) to use and able to enhance your life and not develop into addictions. And then there are other drugs that are not safe and will likely result in life-altering addictions. DARE/false bullshit kid drug "education" tries to paint them all with the same brush.
 
Pretty much how i feel into using meth within months of smoking weed as a teen. Hmm weed this is fucking awesome. Man the DRUG education teacher tryna tell me as a kid how all these drugs will kill me if i even touch them once making up the most wild shit. After weed i was like okay this motherfucking is a liar meth must be totally fine aswell. Well fuck that did not work out well. If we had real education i might of not just so casually without a second thought started doing meth and any drug i could get my hands on.
 
A lot of our parents generation lumped in all drugs as one big dangerous thing. And then we try them and realize how far from the truth that really is.
Trying weed and psychedelics in the beginning was truly mind opening and dispelled all these myths instantly for myself.
Of course I went on to do more harmful drugs and get to experience all the things we were warned about.
An honest drug education would be a lot more helpful but In all honesty I still would have gone on on to try the other more harmful drug’s out of curiosity. In fact when getting in to heroin first I knew exactly what I was getting myself in to and decided to follow through anyway because it sounded exciting and had been romanticized in my head. I was excited to try heroin because i wanted to feel what a lot of my idols had felt, both the high and the agony.
 
I feel each of the drugs I’ve used has been both beneficial and detrimental in different ways. There isn’t one that didn’t cause some kind of problem in life. Although often those problems became smaller as I gained experience both with the drug and recovering from it.

i think educating people for the worst possible outcomes with drugs still makes sense.

One thing I find endlessly interesting is how one drug totally destroys desire for an earlier drug. Booze killed interest in weed for me. Then stims killed interest in weed. Psychadelics frequently turn me off stims for long periods.
 
if i learned anything these past couple months is that while it was fun to live in my LSD fueled dream land of been totally detached from life and spaced out escaping reality on the regular that eventually life catches up and it doesn't matter how far i can try run from it it will slap you in the face one day. This last 6 months has been one of the least drug use periods in 7 years. even though i haven't achieved total sobriety like i planned on i can better control my drug use. Also learnt to not give up so fast time does heal alot of things and the longer you are off drugs the better it is i hope one day i manage to put down every single mind altering substance but thats easier said than done. Life is fucking tough i still some fun just not 24/7 hedonism.

I felt i grew as a person a little bit but not in large ways. Coming out that LSD bender over dec jan and start of feb with my starry eyes that feeling of enlightement did last a good 30 days but it disappeared as the realities of life hit me. Now i no longer have the free time to just go on endless lsd benders.

Once i get my work done will reset reground and plan how to move ahead for the rest of the year. I plan on quitting cannabis by the end of july well i enjoy it fuck me it makes me a sloth. Just remembering what i told myself on my last trip when i finally broke free of the hold LSD had on me that it is nearing the end of my psychedelic journey and only a few more acid trips left me in myself so i better space them out and only a take a full dose trip if i have good reasons to and no longer for fun.

My next trip i want to figure out why im so scared of relationships or letting anyone get close to me. Something deep in me arises then i just push away women who show interest in me telling myself that im not good enough and will only bring them down i get up to many bad things still. I need to free myself of my vices still. To become the best version of myself.

I want to totally reset my brain on a massive dose and implant new programming making the next steps of life easier. I want to know why i cant focus on anything what is it that drives me to constantly be side tracked and distracted 24/7. I believe the answer to this will also give me the tools to control my urges to use drugs aswell. I believe its probably the video games and tv i watched growing up giving me to many dopamine hits frying my reward circuits in my brain. Because my little brother never played video games and hes a work machine grinding out things easily.

to that fact i wonder if all this endless entertainment industry has harmed humanity at a deep level wiring young children and programming them to be always seeking something novel and new and endless dopamine. TV movies they all program us selling us false images of people. The guys jacked on sterioids and wearing make up in movies when in real life they look like the rest of us or even worse. Same with all those models in real life they are very average looking. yet the images they sell us have young dudes feeling the need to get jacked up on steroids teenage girls to starve themselves and self harming chasing an image which has no basis in reality becauses its been photoshopped faked and airbrushed.

The entire system has been designed to fuck us from the top to keep the people at the top there forever and crush everybody underneath them. Yet the TV fast food and shit keeps us enslaved becoming trapped ever so content with life to not question the system on a mass scale. While the government stacks itself with police becoming militarized protests against the system met with massive police deterrents and brutality. Everybody is a fucking slave in this system expect for the few at the top and the laughing matter of it all is that a majority of people don't even question it because they have been programmed by the TV and mass media to do as your told and listen to what your told by the very fucking system that enslaved us. Yet all systems so far invented by humans are fucking terrible we need to come up with a new way of living for the future of humanity like seriously its fucked no one should be starving on this earth yet their are multinational corporations with hundreds of billions of dollars stashed away. Why can't we tax some of more of mcdonalands 20 + billion dollar profit to develop food systems for the starving people in africa. Surely 5-10 billion would develop many things. Yet the greedy fuckers at the top just want to stash it all in a vault for this leaderboard of wealth.
 
2020 was a dying red giant, 2021 is gonna be that star contracting. And 2022 is gonna that star going into supernova or shrinking into a white dwarf. Or I don't know what the fuck I am talking about. One of the two.
 
fuck somehow got a cold idk even know how. Well i only have one last report to write now. Got everything else done so far. Hopefully by Wednesday ill be done.
 
So I heard the 3MMC ban is coming in September or sometime around then, I wonder if it's gonna be the big NL ban or just 3MMC
 
Man I'm on a roll breaking stuff, was sending some work emails chucked a mug in the freezer. Finished up poured a nice cold beer knocked the glass onto my keyboard, broke the glass and the keyboard.
 
Perforated said:
I feel each of the drugs I’ve used has been both beneficial and detrimental in different ways. There isn’t one that didn’t cause some kind of problem in life. Although often those problems became smaller as I gained experience both with the drug and recovering from it.

i think educating people for the worst possible outcomes with drugs still makes sense.

One thing I find endlessly interesting is how one drug totally destroys desire for an earlier drug. Booze killed interest in weed for me. Then stims killed interest in weed. Psychadelics frequently turn me off stims for long periods.
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I agree. To me the ultimate symbol for drug use in general is the old comedy/tragedy symbol:


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The people who portray drug use as just a non stop horror show (in some well-intentioned but ultimately misguided attempt to dissuade youngsters from getting ensnared in the trap) are just as disingenuous as those who glamorize them imo. I had so, so many laughs on them, so many good times. Did the bad times negate that? I see even repentant drug addicts here lust and drool over peoples description of what they’ve been doing lately, just as people in NA will recount their old war stories with more than a little nostalgia.

On the other hand, you’ll read some 18 year olds obituary and just think, what a terrible terrible waste, over something as ultimately trivial as drugs. The two facets of drug use are inseparable imo
 
There is one drug i regret doing it is mdma fuck even speed was better for myself. I got rid of my last pill aswell so i won't candy flip or take MDMA ever again. Been one year off mdma and feeling way better when this time last year i was on the worst comedowns about to pop myself.

I would say doing all the drugs and coming off most of them has made me stronger. I can handle alot of situations alot easier with less stress than most non drug users.

Im glad i got rid that mdma though it was so tempting to take it but im stronger than that now. Also not getting 2cb or ketamine gonna try spend more time sober. Will get changa though most likely.

Drugs start off amazing but the more you use them the less good you get out of them and escalating negatives till it gets so bad you have to quit the drug before it kills you or you kill yourself.
 
Wow the album release festival was amazing. I played maybe the best I ever have, in fact we all did, even our new bass player though it is only his second show with us. He fits right into every aspect of our dynamic like a glove. We tend to do a band walkoff while I keep playing solo piano at the end of our second to last set (so first set with 2 sets, 2nd set if 3 sets) and all night people were coming up to me telling me how they were really moved and were crying, etc. And a guy I really really respect who played after us told me I was a musical genius. Then after that our bass player blasted off on some of my DMT for the first time and had a transformational experience, at first he freaked out and we (me and his girlfriend) had to bring him inside to get him away from the stimuli, he kept saying he was dying. I kept reassuring him it would pass and he took my arm and buried his face in my armpit and clung to me and I guided him inside. But when he was inside, in the quiet, he started to come out of it and I talked him through it, and it ended up all smiles and exuberance and his mind was blown to know that something like that is possible. He ended up thanking me and giving me a big hug and telling me I really came through for him and he was so glad I was there. All in all I'm glowing pretty hard from the whole thing. :)
 
TripSitterNZ said:
There is one drug i regret doing it is mdma fuck even speed was better for myself. I got rid of my last pill aswell so i won't candy flip or take MDMA ever again. Been one year off mdma and feeling way better when this time last year i was on the worst comedowns about to pop myself.

I would say doing all the drugs and coming off most of them has made me stronger. I can handle alot of situations alot easier with less stress than most non drug users.

Im glad i got rid that mdma though it was so tempting to take it but im stronger than that now. Also not getting 2cb or ketamine gonna try spend more time sober. Will get changa though most likely.
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Wow that's a strong statement - MDMA is such a loved drug. I've always been really hesitant around it myself, but I've also always wondered if I've been too hesitant and really missed out on one of the big joys of life in this time.

Xorkoth said:
Wow the album release festival was amazing. I played maybe the best I ever have, in fact we all did, even our new bass player though it is only his second show with us. He fits right into every aspect of our dynamic like a glove. We tend to do a band walkoff while I keep playing solo piano at the end of our second to last set (so first set with 2 sets, 2nd set if 3 sets) and all night people were coming up to me telling me how they were really moved and were crying, etc. And a guy I really really respect who played after us told me I was a musical genius. Then after that our bass player blasted off on some of my DMT for the first time and had a transformational experience, at first he freaked out and we (me and his girlfriend) had to bring him inside to get him away from the stimuli, he kept saying he was dying. I kept reassuring him it would pass and he took my arm and buried his face in my armpit and clung to me and I guided him inside. But when he was inside, in the quiet, he started to come out of it and I talked him through it, and it ended up all smiles and exuberance and his mind was blown to know that something like that is possible. He ended up thanking me and giving me a big hug and telling me I really came through for him and he was so glad I was there. All in all I'm glowing pretty hard from the whole thing. :)
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That's awesome Xorkoth, sounds like a really magical weekend!
 
MDMA assasined my brain so many times. It changed me. It stole a lot of cells.

But I honestly don’t regret it.
 
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