yeah i guess it depends on your party. its nothing ive ever seen sold at a bar, or even at most dance clubs, more psychedelic parties, probably also some other edm events.... mostly a festival drug, i think, ive never had trouble locating it at any psytrance parties worldwide, in a club or at a festival,but got looked at strangely in almost every other place
not at this moment, not for another 3 years minimum. my mental health is fragile at this point and i'd probably wind up in the mental hospital. i have a source for many of its analogues and have considered trying, but even those which are less likely to lead to those issues are extremely likely so i've decided against it for the meantime. id even be careful with 100% pure mxe at this point, though i'd certainly do that in a heartbeat. id also try dmxe, but getting it in the usa is not too possible at the moment.
i've had some psychotic episodes of total delusion, mostly from stimulant abuse. just depression i wouldnt be so worried - id even think the pcp might help.
see i cant use meth for any more than 3 days without ending up in psychosis. every time ive done it, ive ended up in the hospital. ive done it maybe 20 times, and like 7 of those in the hospital the other ones were the same binges just the days prior. idk if its just from not sleeping as its usually 48-72 hours after doing it, but i personally cant control myself to force myself to sleep or something or what. ive even had a time where i did make myself stop after 72 hours, went home, stayed sober 8 hrs, took a hit of weed (to try to sleep) and wound up psychotic, before sleep. since im so prone to it, and its made other drugs more likely to make me similarly manic that prior to using meth didnt (say cocaine and dextroampetamine) im super cautious about dissociatives or even psychedelics now