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stardust10

stardust10

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Tonight maybe doing bf was a prick.


He is a lot of the time but he stole the last of my money that is would have had to live off

Wish I could be raging and Chuck him out but he is also suicidal

Help?
I know u canny it's ok big love always mwah xcxcx
 
Not sure how I could possibly help you but I do have to state what may be obvious: sounds like an unhealthy relationship that you need to extract yourself from as soon as possible.
 
He screams in my face etc but he is not a bad guy how the fuck have I come to this point (5years) i need a real man
 
Relationships are hard. People are always like "just leave him you deserve someone better". But it's just not that simple. When you love someone, or even if you don't but you have years invested with them, it's hard to wanna just ditch them even if they're mistreating you.

I don't really have much advice, but I can certainly relate. <3

I could tell you all that stuff about how you need to look after yourself, and it's probably good advice, but I wouldn't have followed it when thinks were falling apart with my exbf, so yea. :(
 
Thanks a lot. He was suicidal last night I literally had to use all of my weight to stop him from throwing himself bin front of a car and I don't agree with that obv but I live him as you know the feeling and you dont know how much that actually means thanks xc
 
JessFR said:
Relationships are hard. People are always like "just leave him you deserve someone better". But it's just not that simple. When you love someone, or even if you don't but you have years invested with them, it's hard to wanna just ditch them even if they're mistreating you.
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To be clear, I fully understand this and didn't mean for my "advice" to disregard this fact. Just thought it might be something to think over as some people truly are better at getting out than others.

JessFR said:
I don't really have much advice, but I can certainly relate. <3
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Yeah, me too.....I know exactly what it's like not to be able to leave.
 
Ivan struggling to get out 😞 is it even possible I have a shitty body but a smokin face lol I suppose I have let myself go I had a chance with my friend from way back he warned me that he would be horrible but i didn't agree thanks for your input xxxxx
 
Ivan struggling to get out 😞 is it even possible I have a shitty body but a smokin face lol I suppose I have let myself go I had a chance with my friend from way back he warned me that he would be horrible but i didn't agree thanks for your input xxxxx
 
I am drunk and tbh after last night you would be too or whatever your forte I used to Jag mephedrone and my partner is a cabbage and I live him but I learn from that shit but drink is the worst.
2x weeksbut got my guy freaking the fuck out xxxx
 
@iTry91 - feel free to keep posting about it we'll still be here.

Sounds tough and i don't know either of you but sometimes time apart, from anywhere to a walk alone to a break up can help you be more clear about what's best for you.

Drugs make it so much more complicated.

Be easy <3
 
Whoah, the difference in writing style is amazing. 😜

Yeah, I wouldn't worry about your personal appearance being a hindrance to anything. It's quite malleable.

I've been in relationships that I couldn't get out of so I feel how that is, but I don't have time for selling myself short anymore and I advise others to consider the same. Be well. <3
 
Thanks a lot lol. I'm not the best communicator at the best a times if I'm being totally honest. I was fine at uni with essays and stuff but I can sometimes get my words mixed up like the order and socially I can struggle trying to articulate things.
Anyhoo...
I should update you guys: he gave me the money back as he got a loan he wasn't expecting. His mental health has been bad and he tried to kill himself so I had to phone an ambulance. Paramedics and police took him to a&e. He was cheeky to police because he was being a prick and not allowing him to go out for a cig even with one of them present. I was in house at this point but I phoned the hospital and went over outside cause obv covid, and the police made out that he went mental but he was only cheeky and they basically charged him so now he has a £40 fine to pay. I begged them to let him back to mine at that point as it was either that or cells.

Fast forward to another stressful night tonight. He owes the this mental bastard gangster £85 and he had £20 left which he spent on .2 of coke and stole my bottle of wine. Now he asks me to pay the debt for him. I said no so he phoned his mum and she said she'd put in 40 if I do same so I gave him 40 and he will still be under and he's away down to the guys place and I'm sitting here freaking out a bit, thinking I dunno, should I have gone with him?

So that's that and I dunno what I'm gonna do I was out a big walk today and I'm still stressed out 🙂
 
iTry91 said:
Thanks a lot lol. I'm not the best communicator at the best a times if I'm being totally honest. I was fine at uni with essays and stuff but I can sometimes get my words mixed up like the order and socially I can struggle trying to articulate things.
Anyhoo...
I should update you guys: he gave me the money back as he got a loan he wasn't expecting. His mental health has been bad and he tried to kill himself so I had to phone an ambulance. Paramedics and police took him to a&e. He was cheeky to police because he was being a prick and not allowing him to go out for a cig even with one of them present. I was in house at this point but I phoned the hospital and went over outside cause obv covid, and the police made out that he went mental but he was only cheeky and they basically charged him so now he has a £40 fine to pay. I begged them to let him back to mine at that point as it was either that or cells.

Fast forward to another stressful night tonight. He owes the this mental bastard gangster £85 and he had £20 left which he spent on .2 of coke and stole my bottle of wine. Now he asks me to pay the debt for him. I said no so he phoned his mum and she said she'd put in 40 if I do same so I gave him 40 and he will still be under and he's away down to the guys place and I'm sitting here freaking out a bit, thinking I dunno, should I have gone with him?

So that's that and I dunno what I'm gonna do I was out a big walk today and I'm still stressed out 🙂
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I think he'll be fine.

The gangster will be happy he came through. No fingers being chopped off i imagine. 80 isn't bad i I've owed people up to $300 and been late. They won't hurt him they just want their money! And a return customer.

There should be a Yelp for drug dealers right?

Walks are so good. It's okay to be stressed though. It sounds uTry to manage it. It won't totally go away forever but it can be managed.
 
He is fine just so you know
Thnks I love this place

Yelp for drug dealers? Am I very slow? 😂

I do try lol I feel like a robot and sometimes feel like everyone is as we are all addicted to our phones 🤣
 
And I know 80 ain't bad but this family are notoriously stupid/mental they are really bad and evil sure they are paying police off as well and last time he was short the guy swung at him with machete. His mum Harley ever gets phoned and he practically broke down (which I was thankful for as he tells his mum truth,;load Offa me?) so musta been bad xx
 
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